Fill Yuki's Heart

Cannot Cry

I walked out and behind the door apparently already

there's Eitaro waiting for me. He was wearing clothes that were not as usual

and it makes me feel weird.

“Why are you wearing clothes like that?” much

to him.

“Better you don't become a weak woman because

all this is not over,” replied Eitaro who made me not understand with

that's what he meant.

He walked ahead of me but he stopped

his steps then told me to follow him. After saying that

he walked back and I followed his steps and didn't know him

where will take me.

I saw a car waiting but I

didn't see Arata's father at all. Eitaro got in the car and he

told me to get in his car too.

Without thinking much more I also went inside

the car and I were still curious about the clothes I was wearing and

also the clothes he wears. All these clothes are mourning clothes

and who's dead so me and him have to wear it.

The driver runs his car out of this house, and,

during the trip Eitaro did not talk at all. I don't want to either

talk to him because he's still upset about what he's doing and saying

to me and his cold attitude.

“Can you say where we are going?” much

to the speechless Eitaro.

I really can't just be quiet and not know what

what happened, I looked at his face to see how he was expressing it. Him

looking at me so that our eyes are clashing with each other.

“We're going to the funeral and you should be there,”

answer Eitaro.

“Whose funeral?” I asked him back.

He went back silent, I won't even ask again

and wait until you get to that place. Not long after the driver got in

the feeding area and stop right next to the cars already in

sana.

I got out of the car after there was someone

who opened the car door as well as Eitaro. He walked more

long ago and I automatically followed him, from a distance I saw Arata's father

already in this feeding place.

‘Actually

who died why did Arata's father look sad?’ my inner.

My footsteps stopped when I saw a photo

there is also a coffin that is ready to be put in

the hole is on the side. I walked closer to seeing

look at the picture and now I remember everything.

“It's time,” said Arata's father to me.

Arata's father also told me if all that

doing this right now is Kenzo's father's last wish. Dad wanted

he was buried in Paris because he did not want to return to Japan.

I can only listen to what is said by

dad, my mind wants to cry but my tears can't come out. I don't know what

all I have to do with this is the man I've been looking for all this time

it turns out I managed to find him and it was just a short look at him and

now I can't see him anymore.

“Do it according to what my father wants,”

I said to Arata's father.

Everything I see now is the end of

my search and I also don't know what happened to Dad until he got hurt

it's so bad like that. I thought back to my mother, I circulated the second

found him.

***

The funeral was over and I was in person

back home with Eitaro. I still don't know why my tears

I couldn't get out when the one who died was my own father.

“What happened to me? I'm not a filial son

even on the day of the funeral I did not grieve at all,”

“If you want to cry then cry and you

no need to hold it anymore,” The voice I know and I saw the Eitaro

walk closer to me.

“What did you come here for? You better go

and there's no need to care about me,” my timpal told him to leave.

However, what I said was not him at all

listen and he's sitting next to me, I'm thinking what he's here for if only

to piss me off. Than to see him on the side is better me

just get out of this room.

When I was about to move she held my hand then

he pulled. So that my body was plunged into his arms. She didn't

talk and I don't know why he did all this to me.

“Let me go,” I told him.

“I won't let you go until you can

taking everything out in my arms,” she replied in a cold tone and she

still hugging me.

I don't know why these tears were slowly coming out in her time

hugging me and saying all that, I really felt that inside

his embrace could bring out all the emotions that were in this heart. I

it completely let out all my emotions so that it could no longer hold back the sound

my tears.

“Cry as much and I will always be here

to you,” He again said to me and hugged me tighter.

“All my fault why I couldn't find dad

more quickly. It's possible that if I find it sooner then all this

it won't happen,” I keep on beating myself up because all of this is

my own negligence as his daughter,

“You must have thought that I was that child

unfilial for not being able to protect my own father until death

pick him up,” I say back to Eitaro.

I felt the warmth of his body so much that my cry

it broke again when I recalled all the memories together with dad. As well as

my memory of yesterday seeing my father for the last time before my father left

in perpetuity.

My crying finally stopped and I didn't know it

how long to cry in his arms. But my heart still feels

it hurts because I still feel guilty about what happened to Dad.

“I never blame you for all the things that

it happens either in your life or in my life. However, that's for sure you

should be able to become even stronger than the previous one,”

He told me all that and I felt that

there's something he's still hiding from me. And I want to know what things are

it's what he's hiding but I'm not sure if he'll say it

to me honestly.

However, I will try it and hope he will

tell me the truth and I hope there won't be any more bad things

out of his mouth. I finally got the courage to ask him.

“Tell me honestly .

others I don't know?” I asked him in an investigative tone.

“I'm afraid you're not ready for what I'm going to

say,” he answered me while looking at me.