Father's Choice

reprisals

I stared at the cold dinner with prejudicial prejudices beginning to play in my mind, the late hours of the night the quiet and silent atmosphere made very clear the clinking sound of the wall clock in the living room..

then

*tap the sound of the door opening from the outside

I didn't get up from my seat just staring at the door that led to me.

"sad you haven't slept" said Tonny I just smiled at him

"please eat me in the room first" I said, rising up to my bedroom.

tonny followed me to the room she knew I had been waiting for them for a long time, after she had entered the room I gave her a towel and a change of clothes for her without saying anything.

"i'm sorry, I know you must have been waiting for me for a long time but it's raining so much so we waited for a while, that's all" said Tonny .

"yes, I ate there again" I said.

"i ate it" said Tonny

"with dian.it's good" I said.

"sadly forgive me" said Tonny.

"yes, I want to sleep" I said lying on my back .

frankly, I don't know why it feels like I want to cry.In my mind, maybe they are so cool chatting or maybe there is something between them that I don't know..

tonny hugged my body from behind me just pura pura sleep I did not care at all until I finally really fell asleep.

*****

afternoons

we all went to just walk in the park including dian because nara slalu wanted to invite him.

"wah aunty dian see the sister is very funny, fat.." said Nara while pointing with her hands towards a small child maybe about 2 years smaller than her running.

"iyaa nara is funny her. nara wants yaa have ade..?" dian asked as if to offend me

"meatya nara asked dong with his father's mother to dapet ade ehehe" said dian.

"mother father can love sister" said Nara pulled my hand, I just silently silenced to see her.

I know dian knows everything but he pretends like he doesn't know if he really makes my life fret even more to make my wounds open again..

"nara let's go there a lot of toys I saw before." said tonny while holding her.

dian was about to catch up with my husband and son soon I wouldn't stay silent suspecting I was getting tight on him.

"i like to meet with anyone but I don't like to be disturbed" I said holding his hand and before his step.

******

after getting tired of playing we entered a place to eat there, I accidentally ordered three dishes of fried rice with three glasses of drinks for us.

"yeee eat" said nara cheerfully.

"honey three, don't you eat?" ask tonny.

"i'm not talking about your lapers "my words.

"have you eaten yet?" tonny

"not yet." I said

"just have to eat something with me, klo gk want me also do not want to eat! " tonny.

that's what I was looking for I thought.

"we've eaten with ehehe" said I. I was bribed and then he drank from my drink and the last mouthful was given to me, it's obvious!! the vexation on her face back then was enough to make me satisfied and happy.

"cieee's mom's dad." said Nara teasing me.

"already nara abisin also eat it, ayok dian also ayok abisin eat it dear loh" said ku.