ELEGI LOVE SKY AND RAINBOW

Chapter Eighty One

Shinta went home from work straight into the room. And he threw his body into the bed, he cried remembering his chatter with Kevin.

"God, why do I always fall in love with the wrong guy. I am destined to always be hurt. I don't deserve to be loved. What is my fault, so that every man I love prefers and loves another woman. Yes, I really hope that Kevin will love like the Sky that loves the Rainbow. I was too dreaming that Kevin would make me a Rainbow replacement in his heart. So when I woke up and found out that it was all just a dream, this heart felt really sick... "

Mama enters Shinta's room and sees her girl crying. Mama who felt surprised because usually Shinta always kissed her cheek before entering the room, fear if the child was sick.

"Shinta, why are you crying. You're sick son"

"No ma, just a little dizzy"

"Mom take the medicine first yes"

"No need to, I'll also be healed"

"What exactly are you, baby"

"Ma, is there any trait of me according to my mother, which makes men unable to like or love me"

"Darling, you're a good girl. There is no reason why a man refuses to love you. You deserve to be loved"

"But why the man I love and love never returns my love. Like I'm a woman who doesn't deserve to be loved"

"Maybe it's not your soul mate yet...."

"But I feel like there's something wrong with me, I feel like this is so bad that men can't love me. "

"Who is the man who cannot see your kindness. It's Kevin... "

" Yes Ma, I love Kevin, but it turns out that he loves other women. .. "say Shinta hugged his mother

"Darling. It's also my mom's fault, who asked Kevin to be close to you without asking first how she felt about you. You must have thought Kevin had been following you because he loved you."

"Ma, I can't see Kevin anymore, I'm afraid my love for Kevin is making me do something wrong "

"What do you mean, baby.... "

"I don't want to because I want to repay my heartache, so I did something wrong. Mas Kevin, now again close to the Rainbow adopted sister who came from the home where the Rainbow was raised. I'm afraid later because I'm angry with Kevin I'm also avenging him by hating Rainbows. Mama, a few months close to Kevin I've been trying to change, I'm trying not to be spoiled, I'm trying not to be selfish. But it turns out that the changes I'm making don't make Kevin love me. I'm afraid I'm back to being selfish, I'm afraid I'm hurting people who I think are blocking my happiness"

"Shinta, mama knows how you feel right now. Not that you want to defend the rainbow, but you think the Rainbow does not interfere in this. Maybe Kevin does love his adopted sister Rainbow. After all, love cannot be forced. But mama is sure and always pray you get a good man who loves you sincerely and can accept you for who you are"

"Ma, I know none of this has anything to do with the rainbow. But ma, I am also an ordinary human being, I can also be hurt and angry. First I had to let go of my fiancee for Rainbow and now I have to give up the man I love for her sister Pelangi. Would I be wrong if there was a slight disappointment I felt towards the Rainbow. "

"Shinta, once again mama said, mama does not want to defend the rainbow. Mama is sure, Rainbow never wanted this either but fate always brings Rainbow into your life. First, the sky of your loved one turns out to be the man who loves the Rainbow. Second, your parents turned out to be Rainbow parents too and now without her will and will it turns out that the woman Kevin loves is his foster sister. You must still remember, when Kevin visited this house, Rainbow supports if Kevin wants to be in a relationship with you. But then again, the love of someone that we can not set according to our wishes. Love comes without us knowing when it will come and it cannot choose who it will fall on. Love cannot be forced either. By his will, it turns out that Kevin is in love with his adopted sister Rainbow. "

"Ma, can I continue my studies abroad. While I treat the wounds of my heart. I'm afraid that if I stay here and see the happiness of the Rainbow with the Sky and Kevin with his brother Rainbow, I get jealous and do things that are not right to seize their happiness. I want after I can forget all this heartache and then I come back again. Ma, I know that I shouldn't be envious of the Rainbow, because I've got what should be hers. People will say that I am a foster child who does not know myself. Didn't I get all the love of mama and papa, I also have a luxurious life from his parents Rainbow. He had to live without love and with a very simple life. But I can't take away my irritation at him ma. Why Rainbow always get affection even though it is not from both parents. Everyone who knew him immediately liked and loved him. "

"Honey, you can't be jealous of the rainbow. You don't know what he's been through and through all this time. There had been many wounds and pains that he felt before arriving at the present happiness. You are much luckier than Rainbow, you get everything you want easily, only the love of the man you like that you cannot have. But it's all just God's destiny, you have to be sure that behind all this God will surely prepare a surprise in your life later. If staying away from Rainbow life can make you a better person, mama agrees. Later mama talked with papa your desire to continue school abroad. Hopefully with this, you get happiness later. May you find a man who loves you as sincerely as his heart "

"May my mother's prayer be answered. I hope papa agrees to my wish ma"

Mama Yeni hugged her foster daughter. He loved Shinta as much as his real son.

"Mama hope you have no intention to seize the happiness of the Rainbow. I don't know what to do if you do that. Mama knows how difficult life has been before Rainbow got happiness like this"

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