Eight Years of My Marriage

Apologize

I always have been. I was angry with Lion, the next day, I apologized first.

Lion, even if he was wrong, he refused to say sorry to me.

It's always like that. I just don't want to drag on in emotions. Because every time I cry, anger makes me lazy to do anything. And so, I don't want the atmosphere inside

house changed. Make me and Lion silence each other. There's a Lion who always goes out of town to avoid me.

I gave up for the umpteenth time. Bring this household to always be peaceful again. Poor Nuno and Nando who saw us looked strange because of the attitude of the two of us, who were silent to each other.

Nando who knows that Lion and I seem to have a problem. Nandopun says she wants to sleep at her mother's house for the next week.

"Te I sleep at mom's house." Nando said that I was called Aunt.

"Yes Ndo" I answered

Nando himself did not feel at home with his mother.

Nando felt a lot of grief that could not be explained to anyone. Only Nando saw, his mother was sad because her heart was broken and the mess of her household. His mother who failed to remarry seemed sad but wrong to channel her depression. So Nandolah is actually a place where her mother shed a lot of tears after her failure to get married again after divorce.

Not like when Nando was living with us. Nando still has a passion for school. I also always cook and prepare provisions for school. So Nando felt noticed.

Do not blame the situation of his mother who was severely depressed due to divorce and failed remarriage. It is difficult especially not to do activities that make forgetting the problem or the term move on will actually make the situation worse. Here the child is the victim again.

Despite only one Sunday of living with his mother, Nando does seem to be heavy.

This is also, which sometimes enters and becomes the story material in our household. The Lion children were sad to see his mother sad, making our household seem not to run harmoniously as well. Again though not me as a result of the breakdown of the marriage of Lion and his ex-wife. But that doesn't make things better.

The former wife of Lion was unhappy to see the harmonious state of our household. Though actually far from the word harmonious seen from the outside only. They only saw and interpreted that my household and Lion were fine and happy.

Here I also began to understand and do not blame Lion's ex-wife, why until Lion's ex-wife sued for divorce Lion. But not not is the nature of Lion himself who is careless towards his wife. Lion who never open about finances makes his wife sue for divorce. And I also felt what Lion's ex-wife felt.

But Lion seems unchanged and does not want to learn from the failure of his previous household. Lion still, likes friendly chat-chat that I think is not appropriate for married men even though he said just joking or fellow coworkers only.

Lion always felt what he did was right. When I tried to advise him, Lion didn't bully him. Lion still acted arbitrarily as if He was right because he considered himself the head of the family.