Dust Granules

give up

Love is complicated. He comes and goes as he pleases. Like rain. Rain may come along with cloudy clouds. Falling so hard that it soaks the dry earth. Rain can also come down so fast with the radiance of the sun that shines with the heat. Although it comes down with a different atmosphere, the rain will subside by itself. So is love. Love can be present because of togetherness. Until we get used to being together. Love can also be present with just one look. Enchanted at first sight.

It was like a dream for Echi to remember his status as now officially the lover of a Geraldi after he received a declaration of love from the man. Either this was a good dream or it would be a nightmare for him. It felt like he was sorry for being able to accept Geraldi's love. Because in reality, Aji's shadow is still attached to his memory. How Aji treated him. Who always invites him to laugh by exchanging stories, singing together, even the child often makes silly puzzles to invite laughter between them. Echi also remembered how Aji noticed her by sending a message so that she did not forget to eat, even Aji had noticed her by buying her favorite satay even though Aji himself offered meatballs or chicken noodles. But Aji seems so sensitive and attentive to Echi that he can find out for himself things that may be so trivial but very memorable for others when they get so much attention.

"Ah, why the hell am I? Why would I even accept Geraldi anyway? Even without asking, my heart still expects Aji very much. I will decide tomorrow, Geraldi. But how is it going? We just got it together." Echi fumbled to himself in his room.

While on the other side looks Geraldi is sitting on a park bench while staring at the beautiful radiance moon night with a sprinkling of stars that appear to stretch high in the night sky. As high as his heart that was soaring in the radiance of his love with Echi. "I feel even crazier for him." he muttered softly as he reflected on Echi's sad face in his mind.

The morning sun was emitting its rays with great vigor. It seemed that the light had slipped into the room of a girl who was still reluctant to wake up from her dream. It was as if his dream was more beautiful than the reality of the life he lived. It's actually true. Echi is dreaming of being chatting as usual with Aji. And the dream made him feel at home to keep his eyes closed. Until the sound of his hape rang and resuscitated an Echi from a dream to the real world.

How claustrophobic his heart when seeing the name clearly stated on the screen of the phone that is in his hand. "Geralds. If I refuse to be her lover, will Aji be able to have me? " sighs Echi with life still not collected all upon waking up.

After a shower and breakfast, Echi returns to his room. He still felt troubled and regretted taking it for granted to be Geraldi's lover. He could not have told that to his mother to just ask for an opinion. The relationship between the child and the mother seemed fine, but Echi never told her about his love for the mother or brother or his friend. Embarrassed. Shame was the reason for Echi not to tell about his feelings and his relationship with the opposite sex. More precisely he does not want to be the subject of gossip and teased when meeting the opposite sex in his tribe or even like Echi. It turned out that the treatment in his family imprinted until now on Echi so he never wanted to share his story even with his mother even though he seemed so closed.

Echi launched what he had planned. Whenever Geraldi wanted to see him he never tidied up his appearance first. He left her who looked random after waking up from a nap or after helping her mother make a cake when she met her lover. He told me how lazy it was to sweep the yard of dry leaves and garbage. He recounts his bad habits, which like to go berserk even like a man who wants to destroy a house when his emotions are out of control. But instead of away and illfeel. Geraldi showed more and more concern and affection for Echi. Instead of hating him, Geraldi asked "anything else I don't know about you? Tell me everything so I can better recognize this woman I love." While in the elusnya Echi's hair to feel comfortable to reveal his true identity.

"Huffth, he should be illfeel, right, but why even so much more attention gunny anyway?" echi murmured in the heart.

Echi sighed deeply before finally continuing his words. The bright blue sky. "Actually I'm sorry I accepted you as my girlfriend. Because I like the same other guy, but instead you are the one who first opened me. Because I sprained the same guy who impressed php in I continue, finally forced to accept you. And now I'm making the same decision as me." Echi said honestly to Geraldi without daring to look at the face of the man before him.

"Never try to break up with me. Live this relationship first. Let it flow as it is. Don't force to repay my love so sincerely. Let that love grow on its own until you are comfortable with all of this. And you'll forget the love that once existed for the person who never expressed love for you."

Echi gave up on making his lover stay away was not as easy as what was on his mind. There is a feeling of guilt in his heart after hearing the answer from Geraldi on the honesty of his heart that does love others and still hope to be with the person he loves. "I'm sorry." lirih Echi while staring at the flat face of his lover who looks not disturbed with a phrase that must be painful knowing the lover even loves others even though he did not mention in detail who the person is meant.

"I love you." whispered Geraldi gently in Echi's ear until the girl was surprised to find that the lover was so close to her face as if about to kiss her.