Dusk In Memories

About Lara (13)

I just fell silent and hugged him. I couldn't help but hold back the tears from letting go. Really at that time I did not want him to go to me and hang our relationship that has been established for the last two years. It's hard for me to accept everything.

"Gue dear elo Ra" that's all I can say while crying holding her. Lara returned my embrace. He also could not hold back the crying.

"Gue too dear elo Ga. Take care of yourself. A real college. I'm going back" Lara said, sobbing in my arms.

Tonight the atmosphere was so moving. I tried hard even though my heart was broken. It feels like the world is white, no color at all.

"Ga, I'm going yes" whispered Lara as she let go of her embrace.

"Gue anter, huh? Sampe airport" I said, holding his hand.

"Go on, if you are anter, there I am not so go. Let papa be anther" Lara said with a smile.

"Gue anter before the cafe deh. Can you?" I said while returning her smile. A smile that I will always miss, a smile that I will not be able to enjoy at all times.

"May" Lara replied as she pinched my nose.

"Guys, I say yes. Chasing the plane in the middle of the night. Have fun everything. Will miss you all" said Lara say goodbye.

"Be careful, Ra. Safe flight" said Anton, Panji, Heri, and Darto together.

I drove Lara to the front of the cafe. He took the taxi he had booked. Before she left, I hugged her for a while.

"Ga, this is for you" Lara said after letting go of my embrace. He took out the box that had been kept in his bag.

"Lake peanut butter toast" I was stunned.

"Sorry, I can't make more toast for you. Eaten well" Lara said with a smile.

"Gue will miss the toast made by Lo Ra" I said softly.

Finally Lara took a taxi and left me with a wound. Yes, a very painful wound. I don't know, my mind was floating at the time. I could only stare at the taxi that Lara was riding went further and further until she was finally invisible again.

"Ga" call Panji. No matter when the Panji was behind me, not even his presence could I feel. My world seemed to stop just as I let it go.

"Ga" Panji said repeating his call and patted me on the shoulder.

"Yes Nji? When are you here? Manya surprised.

"From earlier on*****, I called him kaga nyaut" Panji said half glaring.

"Sorry, my focus is not" I replied briefly.

"Gue went straight home to Nji" I said languidly.

"Yaudah, you calm down first. The world will not be destroyed just because you are heartbroken left Lara. Lagian Lara went to college, to pursue her dreams, not to chase after a guy laen. So just now, don't let it dong" said Panji while patting my shoulder.

"Yes how not to try. He went to college far away. I'm left here. Yes, even though we still can communicate, but we can not walk together again. You know myself I'm the same Lara" I said half annoyed at the other side.

"How do you try?" tanya Panji is half-literate.

"Tau ah's. Lo temen again difficult gini even meledekin" I replied while putting a sour face.

"Yeee jiggers at my jijay" Panji said with a laugh.

"Ji, I'm going home first. Mo let's think first. Greetings to the children yes" I said ending bully an Panji.

"Back home really?" ask Panji.

"Yeahaaaa. I first pull it off. Bye" I said as I stepped into the parking lot of the motorbike and gased home.

Panji was just stunned to see me. He knows what my mood is like. He was just trying to comfort me and take my mind off Lara.

Thanks Ji. I'm going to move on. Just calm down. At best I was afraid just a stretch of doang, my mind while entertaining myself.

When I got home, I washed my face. Kupandangi box filled with peanut butter toast made by Lara. Ah bodo very, dizzy thinking about girl problems. I immediately devoured the toast until it was gone and after that I immediately threw my body in the bed. Looking at the ceiling of the room so gloomy. My eyes glanced far up. I hope Lara gives you the news as soon as she gets to England, my inner self.

I did not feel my eyes getting heavy and I finally fell asleep.

Lara's..

Lara's..

Lara's..

That name kept ringing in my mind, even in my subconscious. I don't think I want to wake up from sleep. I wish it was all just a dream. Lara's departure has left my heart and mind empty, to be honest, I can't accept her decision. Well, he stepped in without involving me in his decision. It's his right because it's his life, his future. But am I not in his future? Is that really how bad he feels about me? I don't know, only Lara knows the answer, and she keeps it to herself.

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