Dusk In Memories

About Lara (10)

Time continues until the end of the third school year. We began to be fouled with additional study activities to prepare for the graduation exam. But the activities of gathering and hangout together we still do. Lara and I often spend time walking together when there is free time. I always carry my favorite camera wherever we both go. Why do I want to capture every moment with him. I took as many pictures as I could.

And without me knowing it was a sign.

Finally we began to seriously study in the face of the final exam in order to graduate with good grades and enter the university that we had been looking for.

Ahh, I don't know where they are going to college yet, I murmured.

Today the plan is to gather group study again before the final exam which will start tomorrow. Maybe it's good I ask them to want to continue college where and majored what, who knows I'm interested in entering as well. Let's just keep it together. Hehe. I have not decided where to go to college. Don't decide, just think about it yet. Why every think every mengeblank want to take what majors. I don't know where my interests are.

*My house

"Her, after this pass you want further plans where?" I'm going to Heri.

"I plan to enter FISIP mo take the International Relations Science study program at Unpad" said Heri with enthusiasm.

Hadeh, I have no interest in entering International Relations, I thought.

"So you To?" I went to Darto.

"Gue Unpad is also a plan to take the Law, then take PPAT again" replied Darto.

Duh ni man mo became a notary. Not my field, my mind.

"Lo Ton?" ask Anton.

"Gue might take accounting at Unpad as well to gather with you, hehe" replied Anton cengengesan.

I still haven't done anything with the courses they took.

"Any Panji?" askaku finally to Panji who daritadi looks silent.

"Gue doesn't know. Not yet determined" answered Panji briefly.

At first glance I saw the look of Panji's face looked grim. Looks like he's got a problem. Want it also not good because again in gathering gini, fear ntar Panji offended, my mind. I finally decided to ask further.

"Ra, where are you going?" I'm going to Lara.

Lara just shrugged her shoulders while smiling at me. I didn't dare to ask further because I thought there was an economic problem, so maybe Lara couldn't go to college just yet.

And my pretentious guess was it was wrong. Lara is not the type of girl. She's a tough girl who's gonna try desperately to make her dreams come true. He's walked this far, he won't stop even if I block him.

"Lo how's Ga?" tanya Lara broke my daydream.

"Gue doesn't know. Maybe take communication science. I just don't know" I'm not sure.

We finally studied for the final exam. After they finished studying together, one by one they began to go home except Panji and Lara.

"Ga, anterin go home now yuk. Sleepy nih" whine spoiled Lara.

"Still at this hour sleepy" I said I could not believe it.

"City, yuuk. Nji, I'm anter Lara go home first huh. Elo here first. I said as I walked out to catch up with Lara.

"OK" replied Panji while his hp maenin.

Finally I drove Lara home, until her home, I immediately say goodbye without stopping by because it is not good to leave Panji at home alone.

Once home, I overheard Panji on the phone with someone and he was visibly emotional. I sat down without making a sound until Panji finished and hung up.

I looked at his face that still left anger without asking him anything. I knew he was harboring great emotions, so I waited until those emotions subsided, until he would talk to me and explain the matter to me.

"Ga" Panji said, bowing his head.

"Hmm" I replied briefly without taking my eyes off her.

"Gue nginep here huh?" she asked while raising her humble face.

"Yeah, free lo mo ngapain Nji. I took sodara, so don't bother" I replied with a smile.

"Let's Ga" Panji said as he lay his body on the carpet.

"Gue was confused" Panji said as he looked at the ceiling of the house.

"Why?" tanyaku.

"I called, said I wanted to split up. They are noisily fussing from the past. I am confused who Mo is coming with. Nyokap told me to come with him." Panji said while closing his eyes.

I was silent, just listening without being able to give any advice. Family matters are complicated, and I don't dare to get into the family Panji's problems. It's not because of anything, I'm just afraid I'm wrong to give advice.

"Gue left the house only time. I honestly don't want to go with anyone. Bokap same behavior as well. Equally selfish. They never even thought about my feelings. I can live alone" Panji continued.

"Lo sure you can Nji?" tanyaku later.

"Lo thought all this time I lived like how did Ga? I have been living alone at home all this time. Bokap busy mulu, nyokap in his apartment. I've been thrown away from the first taste" Panji said with a pushy look.

I saw sadness in his eyes. Sadness mixed with deep disappointment. The pennant is only a victim of the selfishness of his parents. Fortunately, his son is strong. If not, maybe he's depressed.

"I didn't go to school first. I opened the cafe." Panji suddenly said with a tone of spirit.

"Huh? Sure lo? There is no basic Nji at all" I asked astonished by the idea.

"Yakali cafe use basic, capital money is the same desperate capital is enough for me mah" Panji said with a smile at me.

At times like this he can still smile. Awesome lo Nji, my inner.

"Okay, the cave will help everyone" I said with an excited smile.

That day, Panji went home. We talked about a lot of things. About the family, about future plans, including my plan to live with Lara. I told all of this to Panji. Panji is a good friend and listener. I'm lucky to know him.