DON'T GIVE UP

EARLY DETERMINATION

"Son, I want you to be a successful person, a successful person and can benefit others"

"Good,bu!!I'll try, I'll also want to have a nice toy rich friends I have"

"Hehehe... Keep the spirit up until you grow up.now let's go to sleep!!"

I woke up from my deep sleep from the recollection of all the words from my mother when I was a child, I felt her heart beating so fast that it shed tears. "Mother I promised to make you happy." That's the word I say every morning.

Evening had turned into a morning that made people ready to move back as usual, I began to get ready to start school activities using blue-blue uniforms. I am still in 3rd grade SMK majoring in light vehicle engineering, I am an only child who has lost a father when I was a child now I live with my mother in a simple house.

"For mom...!!" My greeting to the mother who is still drying clothes in front of the house using a light brown negligee patterned batik. "Ehh morning izal" he replied.

"Afrizal left first ma'am,assalamualaikum" my greeting as I grabbed and kissed my mother's hand.

"Wa'alaikumsalam, be careful on the road, son!do not be naughty if in class later and do not be discouraged to achieve what you want also do not forget to help others who are in trouble yes son." mom always advised me when I was leaving so that I could be of benefit to others someday.

"yes ma'am, I will fight so that later mom will feel happiness again like old times." I also walked to school alone.

Now I live with my mom because her dad died when I was in Kindergarten,at that time I did not know and always wondered why my father was lying in the middle of a crowd of people accompanied by the cries of his mother and relatives who came all the way.

After my father died, my mother would secretly borrow money from her neighbors to send her children to school if no one gave her money,he used to be a washerman in a neighbor's house considering that I became sad with my mother. I always talk about myself who is eager to learn in Japan to my mother and the reaction of my mother is seen from her teary eyes maybe mother does not want to feel lonely because I am a child afrizal only wayangnya have to leave his own mother at home, as a child certainly does not want to make his parents sad so that I also have other options besides having to go abroad.

I've always thought about being a mechanic here and being able to keep you from feeling lonely. On foot, I saw my friends go to school on bicycles, motorbikes and also some who use cars even though here the village near the mountains where the village streets are filled with green rice fields. Every time I always go to school on foot because he does not have a vehicle at home, he does not feel his footsteps drove he was in front of the school gate where the students went inside.

"Good morning sir" I said to the school's gatekeeper "oh yes morning too." he replied.

At school I rarely wanted to be friends with me, I felt ostracized by my classmates in contrast to the underclassmen who always greeted me when he walked even though they did not recognize me.

"oh son of a difficult person again through this" all the students always whisper something about me.

"Don't bust him!he stinks"

Always when I walk down the hallway of school I'm always the center of attention by other kids and always spoken with words that don't wear on the heart. As I was walking down the hallway of the classroom, suddenly a group of students walked in front of him and did you know what he was going to do to me.

"I'm sorry if my ice fell on your shoe." she accidentally dropped the ice she carried on my shoe that made my shoe wet,

"Ah fell bad" the boy instead felt innocent of his actions towards me.

they always insulted me to the point of being satisfied with every way, the children who saw this incident all laughed at me with laughter.

"Let's go, man, the mission is done haha." they were excited because what they wanted to do was already successful about my shabby shoes and almost peeling off.

"Hey... Do you think this is funny huh!!do you think this is funny!! Yes, you think it's funny but for me it's not funny." I accidentally vented my frustration at the mob, all silent when I got angry and the kids turned to me.

"Whoa turns out this child can be angry too huh haha" the child who dropped ice on me even more joy and applause when I was angry and he even approached me after right in front of me he said, "Uh your boss knows, right?if I had accidentally fallen my ice into your shoes."

"not intentionally...? what does that mean by accident?" I replied with a bit of emotion to the boy.

"eh boss, hush hush horrified ya! I was holding the ice again but you're stopping me from crashing me so you're wrong." he snapped back at me and also blamed me that because of the nudging of my shoulders the ice that was grasped slipped and fell on my shoes.

(sighs) I want to be calm again.

I was immediately the center of attention from my classmate in the school hallway.

I could not bear to run away from the horde of children earlier than to make a noise in the school hallway, I also walked to the classroom."why am I always like this??" In my mind I always want to shed tears but I keep trying hard from all the problems he faces now.

"Finally, he gave up too haha. let's go to the cafeteria!" said the head of the mob.

the head of the gang was my friend when class 1 he moved from the city when he graduated and he also lived here on the grounds that his father wanted to run for the position of village head in this area.

I went into class gasping for a run and I saw my friends making a fuss over one of my left-hand friends and working on something.

"Hi, is there a pr?? I asked one of my friends.

"Some" he answered briefly.

Teng... Teng... Teng...

The lesson began as usual, the teacher who taught us always opened with a joke pantun.Today the first lesson is Indonesian,this teacher always opens with his funny story that makes the students he teaches so familiar with him. When he told me all the kids were laughing like there was no burden in his life.

But when I laughed, "Haha funny ya haha". All the rest of the class immediately fell silent and immediately turned to look at me.

"....." (the rest of the class is silent)

"you why the hell??possessed huh? mr. Ruqyah please be aware" asked the class leader to me for this unclear behavior and told the teacher to resuscitate me.

"Hahaha" the rest of the class laughed out loud.

I smiled as they smiled happily. I may be a difficult person to have friends because all my classmates look at caste and when teachers give group assignments they avoid me to enter the group.

I always try to get into groups one by one they always answer,

"No" answered group one in short.

"Could you join this group??" ask me to another group.

"No, you're useless" he replied again, insinuating me for hurting me.

I was always cornered when the teacher told us to make a group for group work.I also immediately approached the teacher to find a group for me.

"What's zal?" tanyanya saw me approaching her who was sitting in front.

"I haven't got a group yet, sir, so I have to do it myself?" I asked with a disappointed look to the teacher.

The teacher saw my condition that had not been able to group finally told one of the groups to enter me. here I saw the faces of many of my classmates who did not expect my presence in their respective groups.

"Group 5 enter Afrizal to your group" the teacher immediately pointed to group 5 who were in the back row.

"Hah..why is our group sir not another group? group 5 is already full" The chairman of group 5 felt he did not accept the orders from the teacher.

"Are you not the same as Afrizal who has not been in his own group?" The teacher asked the group leader.

"But there are still other groups that are lacking" he protested because he did not want me to join his group. I was even more anxious because because because I, the teacher and the 5th group leader became noisy with each other.

"the teacher will increase the number to your group, if many members are more confident in learning the group" the teacher immediately dismissed the reason for the instant.

"yes sir is up to you" he replied because there was no material to protest.

"You as the chairman shouldn't choose that kind of love. Come on zal, you get into group 5" sir teacher also let me into group 5. "if you guys like afrizal what will you feel? yes definitely hurt his heart.so, appreciate a friend even though he is in trouble if he succeeds later you will definitely be surprised by his achievements." he continued.

I walked over to the group 5 bench in doubt and I took an empty seat for him to sit at the group 5 table.

"Whose name are you?" I was a little surprised because the group leader asked my name as if I had not known for a long time when we had one class in 2nd grade SMK.

"Ahmad Afrizal" I answered briefly.

"Ok, now you're the leader of this group" the student told me to become the leader of the group arrogantly while revealing his hands on his chest.

"To...why me??" I asked in surprise to her. "a. I'm not used to it yet." I continued.

"Yes because you don't have a lot of money.yes, no friends??" Again I was insulted by his own friend who chuckled with a contemptuous face. Then, I answered briefly "Aamiin".

"Ok, here's your assignment for today" the teacher wrote on the board there.

MAKE A JOKEY PANTUN IN 2 OR 4 SECTIONS

"You can make funny but don't mock or insult someone" he continued.

Instantly I glanced to the left and right of his classmate because he thought that he would be the material for this. I can only obey orders from the teacher and throw suspicion on my own classmates.