Don't Be Afraid of Being Widows, We're Happy

Chapters 15. Baffled

Amara Pov

Right now I am in a rented house that my husband rented for my mother-in-law and my madam and her children.

Very simple and narrow place. I rather mirroringly imagined my mother-in-law who had used to live a luxurious life because of the facilities I had given since our wedding, now had to suffer in this narrow rented.

I was thinking about returning my mother-in-law's house which I confiscated yesterday. I felt angry and upset with them, especially my husband who had so much heart to betray our marriage that had lasted this long.

Although my husband is not a rich man, when I met him. He is a hardworking and kind man. Ah, I don't know what got into him so much that he was so willing to commit treason against me. To this day my heart is still hurting and hurting with the new reality I know.

I was a fool for believing everything my husband did. For many years it has not detected the presence of another woman in my husband's life.

"Your satisfaction? Get the fuck out of here! We don't want to see your rich and pretentious face!" my mother-in-law looked at my face with emotion and pushed my body out of the house.

I don't dispute much about what he said. Right now I need fresh air to breathe. The rented house was very small and cramped, I had trouble breathing while there with a look of sadness on their faces.

'Oh Allah! Am I wrong when I teach a lesson to those who have never appreciated sacrifice? Why are they treating me like a sinner?' my mind feels sad.

Alvin reads the letter Marina left him. I could see tears streaming down her husband's cheek after reading the letter that I knew what it contained.

'Maybe the contents of the letter are almost the same as the message he sent me on my number. I don't know what that woman is doing right now. How can a mother leave her own child under her care?' I still continue to look at Mas Alvin and his children who are still hugging each other. Sadness was so on their faces.

I couldn't bear to see my husband who cared so much for his children with Marina, I chose to go from there.

I drove my vehicle to a park. My heart and mind are troubled and troubled. I was in a stalemate to make a decision on his family's problems.

"Am I going to be kind enough to take care of those two kids? Will my heart be able?" I keep on monologuing with myself.

My heart still feels so painful and has not been able to compromise. Marina may now have left her son and husband for her. Can you guarantee that someday Marina will never return to our family life?

"I don't want to take any chances. What if one day Marina and Mas Alvin get back together without my knowledge? Ahhhh, why is it so complicated?" I even squeezed his fingers in annoyance and anger.

"When my divorce with Mas Alvin was much easier than having to follow the trust given by Marina through her message to take care of their child. I am not an angel who will be able to take care of the child of the woman who has become a thorn in my household with Mas Alvin. There's no guarantee that my husband will forget her." Amara continued to stare at the streets that were starting to quiet.

While I was still engrossed in my boundless thoughts and daydreams, suddenly my phone rang.

Finally with a feeling of laziness, I raised the call from Mas Alvin. "What's up, Mom?" I asked in lethargy.

There was the voice of Mas Alvin who was quite worried about my voice that was not cheerful. "Are you okay, baby?" ask Mas Alvin who is worried about me who is currently still daydreaming alone in the park.

Lately I have been spending more time daydreaming. My husband's affair has really drained my energy to the last point.

"I'd better pray Istikharah to decide the best path for all of us. I hope that whatever result God will show is the best thing that will be part of our family." I finally made a decision for myself.

Although my heart was still doubtful and doubtful but I decided to accept Mas Alvin's son with Marina. For the sake of humanity and my compassion for the two children.

But I will ask my husband to hire a baby sitter because I do not want to be bothered by his son Marina. No matter how good my heart is, I am still a woman and a wife with jealousy and heartache.

It is very hard to accept the polygamy done by Mas Alvin without my knowledge for many years, but to abandon the two toddlers was also my heart hurt.

"Where are you, baby?" asked Mas Alvin when I received his call.

"I am currently in the park, not far from your contract. Why?" I asked Mas Alvin who sounded so lethargic.

"Darling! Stay there so I can pick you up." Alvin told Amara.

Amara was of course surprised to hear what Alvin was going to do who seemed to be worried about her.

"I'm fine I can go home by myself. Did you forget? If I always use my car for personal needs" Mas Alvin did not allow myself to go home from the park and forced me to wait for him.

To be honest right now I feel inferior about my own appearance. I'm so fucked up and for a few days I'd rather be alone. Mas Alvin seems ordinary in living his life, although our family problems still have no definite solution.

Mas Alvin forced himself to pick me up in a park that was already a bit quiet. "Well, later the car I use will be picked up by my driver." I finally can only give in to the wishes of Mas Alvin who like to return to what he used to be.

In the past, I sometimes felt confused about my husband being so possessive. But now her husband was so heart-piercing with such a sharp knife. Amara really does not understand the behavior of her husband who is like a daze and confused.

Amara feels increasingly uneasy because of the problems she is facing with her husband who has promised a much better change for their future marriage if she wants to take care of her son with Marina.