Dilemma (Between Friends and Love)

S2. I Relieved For You

In the morning I started saying hello. I lazily tried to open my eyes, then rolled around in my spacious bed. But I suddenly fell silent, sensing that something was strange. But what is that strange. It's like I'm forgetting something.

After thinking hard, I finally found the answer. Kanaya's.... Yeah, he should have slept next to me. But now where has he gone so early, why is he not in my room.

I got out of my bed to look for Kanaya, maybe she was in the bathroom. But after I checked the results for nothing, he wasn't there at all. I try to check in the kitchen, the middle room, and the backyard of the house also remains absent.

Then I stepped into the front yard of the house. Yeah, my door's unlocked. That means someone just came out. I opened the door and then I came out of the house, looking for Kanaya who had gone somewhere this early in the morning. Maybe he wants to run in the morning? The hum.... It's probable.

But still I was worried about her, especially now that she was pregnant. I'm afraid Kanaya will be too tired and it will affect the condition of the baby.

"Kanaya, where are you anyway?" I continued to walk down the streets of the village with a view that was looking for the whereabouts of my Friend Kanaya.

Suddenly I heard the voice of a woman's cry, a cry that was so heart-slicing. There was a tone of anger, sadness, and disappointment in the shout. And I know that voice.... Yes, that is Kanaya's voice.

I quickly ran to find the source of the sound. Worried about Kanaya's situation, I hope nothing bad happens to her.

"Kanaya, where are you? Please don't worry me, Kanaya!" My screams call out Kanaya.

Not far from where I stood. I saw a woman standing on the edge of the abyss crying. His hands were unceasingly beating his stomach.

When I sharpened my vision, it turned out that the woman standing on the edge of the cliff was Kanaya. Step by step he began to approach that steep and deep abyss. What's he gonna do? Is he trying to end his life?

No. gabe.... Kanaya can't do that, don't tell her to do something so desperate. "No, don't do it Kanaya!" I screamed while running towards him.

Kanaya was surprised to hear my screams, and she quickly ran and tried to jump into the abyss. But fortunately I was able to pull his hand first, so that he did not get into the abyss.

"Take me off! Release!" He shouted while thrashing wanting to release the check of my hand on his hand. "I want to die.... I am no longer strong with all this life, it hurts so much. Huhuhuhoo...."

"Kanaya, you know your life in this world suffers, and do you want your life to suffer in the hereafter? Suicide is a despicable act, don't you do it!" I shook his body.

"Then what should I do?! TELL ME, WHAT SHOULD I DO!!!" Kanaya Shouted.

"If you were in my position, I'm sure you wouldn't be able to live this life either Talia! You can talk like that because you don't feel what I feel.... Now say, what should I do? What about my life and the child in my womb? Let's say Talia.... Hows it? WHAT ABOUT MY LIFE?!!!"

"K-Kanaya...."

"What about my next life? What about my son's future? How will our lives be without a man called husband and father...." Kanaya stared straight at the rice fields that were across the river. "Mockery, seclusion, and disgusted looks from everyone. Huhuhuhoo...."

"No, Kanaya, it's not gonna happen." Tukas.

"You're sure that's not going to happen, then how? I'm pregnant without a man willing to take responsibility, so how can I not make it happen?!"

Zucril....

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After saying goodbye to Mom and Dad, Kanaya and I left for town this morning. It was sudden, but luckily I was able to convince Mom and Dad to let us go. I did all this for Kanaya.

I looked at Kanaya who was closed beside me who was driving. His face looked tired and there was a look of sadness there. Oh, Kanaya. My best friend, why is your fate so unfortunate.

But I promise all this will be over soon, all your suffering will be gone soon. You just need a man who will be a husband and father for your son, right? All right, I'll give it. I will give in for your happiness and your son's future.

I'm sure it's gonna hurt a lot, but how else. There is a child's future at stake. However the child in Kanaya's womb is innocent, he deserves to be happy. Gaining recognition from everyone, not insults and scorn.

After driving for hours, I finally arrived in front of President Zukril's apartment. The apartment looks so quiet, maybe President Zukril is now in the office.

I looked at Kanaya for the first time. He's still asleep, not awake. He must be so exhausted. Tired of all the trials of life that seemed to play tricks on him, who seemed to deliberately want to test how strong his shoulders.

I took out a phone, tried to contact President Zukril. In one call President Zukril immediately raised it.

"Hello, dear Talia. How are you?" There was the happy voice of President Zukril across the street.

"Hello, Zu. I'm good...."

"Thank God you're good. I miss you so much, baby, I want to hurry to the village to see you."

"No need to go to the village, I'm in front of your apartment."

"Are you in front of my apartment? All right, I'll be there now." Her speech.

"If you're busy it's okay, I'll probably wait at the hotel."

"What to the hotel?! I'll be there now, you just wait, yeah, I won't be long. I love you...." Then President Zukril disconnected his phone.

I looked towards Kanaya, without me realizing it turned out that she had just woken up from her sleep. I smiled at him while stroking his head, and he smiled back at me.

"Talia. You have sacrificed so much for me, I am so ashamed. With a breastplate you gave up Zukril for me." He hugged me tightly.

"I'll leave Zukril to you, for your happiness and your son's sake." I said with a flat face, which is actually in this heart crying bitterly.