Dilemma (Between Friends and Love)

Expressing feelings

I really enjoy the fresh air here, rarely can I get this air in the city, which is just stifling pollution.

If only I had a lot of money, I would buy a house and build a business here. It's nice that every day you can breathe fresh air and see beautiful scenery like this.

I'll invite Mom and Dad to move here. Yes, Mother and Father. I haven't contacted them in a long time. How are they now.

"Talia, how do you like it?"

"Yes, I really like it. The view is beautiful."

"You taking a picture?" I nodded quickly at the words of President Zukril.

Snap....

I was shocked when President Zukril suddenly photographed me. "Eh, I'm not ready yet."

"It's okay, look you're beautiful." He said with a sweet smile.

It was as pretty as I was in her eyes. Surely I must still be far less beautiful than her ex, Kanaya.

Kanaya and I are completely different, and so is beauty. If again both ways, of course, which is always the center of attention of the men is Kanaya. And me? I'm just a shadow that won't be glimpsed at all.

Like, Kanaya is light and I am just a reflection of her shadow. And I think it will forever be. I will never be sure that President Zukril will have feelings of love for me.

"You're thinking what the hell, from earlier bengong Mulu. Be careful of being possessed by love." His bracelet.

"Again, I don't want to joke, I'm suddenly in the mood."

"What's the mood? The intention is we're here to be happy, please don't be sad today."

I mean, I even feel guilty about it. I felt like I had ruined her wonderful vacation. Sorry President Zukril, I really didn't mean that.

I slowly approached President Zukril, then slowly touched his hand. "I'm sorry for making your holiday so chaotic, you shouldn't have invited me. I'm the one who doesn't know myself."

Uh.... When suddenly he hit me, I would be stubborn. I hope he doesn't hear my heartbeat. Ouch.... Scrub the head again, the weaker the heart.

Want to be removed but really comfortable, so want to continue to be in a position like this. Thank God, maybe you knew that I would never be able to get her, so you made her hug me before my heart broke knowing that she could never have it.

Lah, this is why more tears come out. "You crying?" It's getting caught. I shook my head strongly, and then President Zukril gently wiped my tears.

"I feel useless."

"Huh?"

"Why am I by your side, but if you still feel sad and hurt. I want you to be happy, live happily with me."

Wait a minute, I'm really confused right now. What does that mean, he....

"I love you Talia, love you so much. Whether you feel the same way or not, I don't care. All I care about now is that I love you."

Duaarr!

It felt like there was a lightning bolt above my head. What did he say? Loving me. Is this a dream, or may I have acute hallucinations.

Help anyone, wake me up from this beautiful dream. The impossible dream will be achieved by me, but somehow I really like this dream.

"Why bengong? You must be surprised." He laughed wryly. "I also know, where maybe a woman as good as you would be with a disabled man like me. It feels impossible."

I wonder if he thinks like that, it is even I who feel unworthy to be with him. It is precisely I who dust grains here, and you are a jewel.

"I know I'm useless, I'm...."

"Why?"

"Because I feel unworthy to be with you, I'm just a grain of dust." I looked down listlessly at my own babbling.

"Stupid!"

Whahuh?

"Why can you think like that, just try if you have previously revealed it maybe today we are happy together."

Why did he even blame me anyway, he was going to be the man here should be the one who expressed his feelings first. Not me.

"Stay you're a man, so...."

"So should I express my feelings first?" I nodded in response.

He laughed, then hugged me tightly. Comfortable, that's how I feel when he hugs me. This is how it feels to be loved by those we love. Happy, very happy.

I can feel a very sincere love from his touch and gaze. God, thank you so much. That's the happiness I feel now.

***

Dusk accompanied the speed of the car driven by President Zukril. I could see his face, he was very handsome. Whether I ever did any great good, I got the love of a man who was almost perfect.

I don't know how many times I'll say I'm really happy. I happy....

In front of the house. President Zukril opened the car door for me. Though I've been treated like this many times, but why this time it feels so different. Is it because I know that he loves me too.

"Smiling all the time, like a little boy was taken for a walk." Ledek.

"You're cheating on my Mulu, nyebelin."

"Haha...."

Even laughing, did he not know that his laughter made my heart dance. Don't stop, why is he so sweet.

"You're so sweet, Talia. So I want to get married." I glared at her words.

I don't want to take any chances if I keep serving the leds. If I pass out, I'd better get inside the house before he launches another attack.

Inside I had seen my grandmother reading a book, with thick glasses on. "grandmother." Excited President Zukril who turned out to follow me from behind.

"Hey, Zu. How, did it work?"

"Successful dong, grandma."

"Success what?" I'm confused.

Grandma and President Zukril immediately laughed, of course it made me more confused. Then I saw them with toss.

"Don't Granny and President Zukril...."

"Yep, you're right. We have been planning this for a long time, which is to express my love for you."

"So Grandma and President Zukril worked together."

"Yes my grandson. That Zu was a shy man in terms of expressing feelings, so grandma helped him in this way. But grandma is so happy that you really love each other, and you're a happy couple."

President Zukril came up to me and immediately hugged me in front of grandma, actually I was embarrassed. But again this comfortable feeling overcame that shame.