Decuruh Tak Dewuh

LTE | FIFTY (Extra Part)

One year later....

Indra ventured to open the item that became his 'phobia' since one year ago.

Ruhi's Cellphone.

Apple's phone has long been untouched by both Indra, Rendi and Rajendra. The three men still felt deep sorrow when they saw Ruhi's beloved item. They feel that Ruhi is not dead and is still somewhere that will one day return. But it was only their wishful thinking that had turned obsession.

Rajendra decided to return to India and settled there with Ali who some time ago decided to take off his uniform alias quit his job as a doctor. They also changed their citizenship to become Indian citizens. That they do because they can no longer resist the emotional urge in themselves when millions of memories with Ruhi arouse longing in the hearts of all. Actually Indra also wanted to come but he could not leave Tito alone.

Indra thought he was the one who lost Ruhi the most. But it turns out the assumption was wrong. Even Indra is still better than Tito. Almost a year ago, Tito was rehabilitated in a mental hospital for depression after losing Ruhi. He seems to have let Ruhi go but it turns out wrong. Tito often cried and locked himself in the room. Saif often caught Tito talking to himself with a photo of the late Ruhi. And the next morning, Saif can see Tito asleep while hugging Ruhi's photo. At first Saif let the behavior of his son only wayang because he thought Tito was still grieving and had not given up Ruhi's departure. Until the peak is when Tito began to rampage often and did not hesitate to hurt himself and continue to concoct that he would catch up with Ruhi in any way. And from that Saif decided to send Tito to a mental hospital.

Indra, Riko, Aziz and Adi often visit Tito. Like yesterday, Tito seemed better and said the psychiatrist who handled Tito, Tito slowly began to recover from his depression. It made everyone relieved.

Back again on Indra who started Ruhi's phone. And the phone still works well when when Ruhi's accident, the phone was thrown quite far from where Ruhi fell. About five meters from Ruhi's body. The phone was found by a student who accidentally found Ruhi's phone because of an attached hardcase, which says " ⁇ ⁇ ⁇ " or "khaan parivaar kee ladakee" which means Khan Family Girl.

Indra managed to unlock Ruhi's phone because the password of Ruhi's phone was Rajendra's long name, Rajendra Hayyat Khan. He opened a gallery. There are several folders with each name. One of the folders that attracted Indra's attention was the folder with the name "Meri Bhai" which means "Brother".

Indra clicked on that folder.

The photo is dated July 30, 2017, which means this is a photo taken during Ruhi's seventeenth birthday surprise party. Her sister looks adorable. Indra remembered that Ruhi was exhausted after being invited to a scouting event at High School.

Indra chuckled as she recalled how introducing the candles with the numbers one and seven had almost melted all because of the too early Rendi lighting them up. Rajendra is busy nagging Rendi while Indra opens the door to Ruhi's room. And you know what? Apparently in Ruhi's room there is Tito who also brought Ruhi's favorite tart with the words " ⁇ ⁇ " or "janmadin mubaarak ho" which means "Happy Birthday".

The question of Indra, since when Tito could casually sneak into the residence of Rajendra, in Ruhi's room as well. And what had that perverted young man done when as long as he could sneak in?

Indra chuckled again. When he saw his childhood photo with Rendi. Looks adorable. The photo was without Ruhi's presence because Ruhi had fallen asleep while on the way to Faris' house.

"Abang kangen Ru," whispered Indra as she hugged Ruhi's smiling picture frame towards the camera. At that time, he was the one who took a photo of Ruhi.

People say, if we photograph someone, it is the same way we photograph his soul. Indra believes it is because every time he sees a photo of Ruhi he feels as if Ruhi is still nearby. He felt Ruhi hugging him while kissing Indra's cheek. Indra's tears are back. The pain of losing Ruhi was still lodged in his heart. Though Indra has been hard-earned to let Ruhi go. But it turned out to be very difficult for Indra.

Indra looked at his watch, "Jam eight. I have to be ready," he said. Today Tito was discharged from a mental hospital after a year of treatment. And Indra along with Aziz, Adi, and Riko took the initiative to pick up Tito. Indra again keeps Ruhi's phone in the nightstand and then locks it.

***

"Hi."

Tito sat down beside Ruhi's grave which looked very well preserved. He placed Ruhi's favorite bouquet of roses on the tomb and kissed Ruhi's headstone for a little longer.

"I'm sorry I didn't see you this year" Tito said.

"I was angry at you at first because you gave up so easily. You're not thinking about how our story goes Ru. You don't think about how devastated everyone, especially me. I just got out of that damned place Ru. Papa put me in that godforsaken place. I am not crazy. I just haven't accepted your departure Ru. You believe me, don't you?"

Tito chuckled, "I still love you so much Ru. Honestly, I can't stand the pain I've received when I'm away from you. You are my life spirit Ru. I love you but you never repay me. At first I was disappointed because you prefer the love of Bagas which I have said if the love of Bagas is just a falsehood. But you didn't listen to me. You stupid Ru! But I'm more stupid because I can't hate you even the more I love you."

"And I'm not strong if I have to be far away from you. I'm coming with you, Ru."

Tito's gaze began to blur, he smiled.

"May we meet. Just me and you Ru. There was no Bagas or anyone. It's just the two of us," he said.

Tito collapsed right beside Ruhi's grave with blood continuing to flow profusely. Tito caught up with Ruhi in his own way.

Indra, Aziz, Adi and Riko came to the tomb after they were told by Saif that Tito had escaped from the mental hospital half an hour before he was released.

"BUTTONS!" yelled at the four young men. Indra, Aziz, Adi and Riko limp when they see Tito has become a corpse with blood soaked Tito's body and Ruhi's tomb with a dagger in Tito's hand that is also covered with blood.

"Oh Allah Tito!"

Break the cries of the four young men who are also friends of Tito. They're late to Tito. They lost a precious person in their life. Indra survives in Indonesia to encourage Tito to continue living his life as before Ruhi died. Now Indra has lost Tito. Aziz and Adi lost friends. Riko lost a friend who was already like his own brother.

***

Tito's funeral was accompanied by a drizzle. Tito's grave is right next to Ruhi's tomb according to Tito's wishes which he wrote on a worn sheet of paper.

*For : Papa and whoever found this letter.

I apologized because I was selfish. I choose to catch up with Ruhi in any way. The pain of losing Ruhi still torments me every second of every day. His face often greeted me through dreams. He looked sad and he seemed to miss me because I hadn't seen him for a year. It's because papa sent me in this godforsaken place. I am still sane. I just haven't accepted Ruhi's departure.

My love for Ruhi is too great compared to my passion for life. Thanks to Indra, Aziz, Adi, and Riko who often give me the spirit to live. Thank you for seeing me almost every Sunday in this motherfucker's place. But I'm sorry I couldn't if I wasn't with Ruhi. Sorry, Indra, we were not a brother-in-law like our guyonan at that time. Not that I didn't want to but the person I wanted to marry instead chose to leave. And I chose to follow him.

Please tell Bagas to keep my words well. I still hate him so much that even when I die I will not forgive Bagas. I pray for him that Allah SWT will avenge me because he is the one who made my Ruhi go away.

I will forgive him when he has already gotten the same pain as Ruhi felt. Don't kill him Indra. Sure, but it'll make it easier for him. Oh, my God, I'm sorry I was so sloppy. Me, I'm sorry.

For Papa, forgive Tito because Tito chose to leave papa alone. And remind that woman not to come to my grave. Not even looking. Let him take care of his own life. Papa immediately looked for another woman who was better than that woman.

Ah yes, one more. If I'm gone, please bury me next to Ruhi's grave. At least we can always be close.

Thanks everyone.

Greetings dear, dear,

**Tito Vilanova***

Indra squeezes Tito's handwritten letter. Not yet healed the wound for the loss of Ruhi, now plus the wound for the loss of Tito. He was like his own brother. Indra loves Tito even though they often fight because of each other's attention.

"Con******* To! Sissy! You're not me! ******! Tito ******! Tito fucking! No ngutek! Your formula is your lek dead ngene will meet Ruhi, ngono? Doso To, doso ya Allah Tito! Abaghfirullah!" Shouted Indra in frustration. (You stupid To! Sissy! You left me! You idiot! Stupid tito! Tito fucking! Not bald! You think that if you die like this, you'll meet Ruhi, right? Sin To, sin, O Allah Tito! Achaghfirullah!).

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***The story of "The Whole No Dumb" is really over.

Thank you to those who read this story. Although there are still many typos here and there, the vagueness of the story and the many shortcomings. At least I have finished this story***.