Cidro (Between Love And Wounds)

Chapter 11

Arga berdiri di balkon rumahnya. Matanya menatap ke arah langit yang bertabur bintang. Tak ada yang dilakukannya kecuali berdiam diri memandang langit malam.

The sound of breathing occasionally sounded. The young man seemed to be thinking of something.

"What should I do now?" ask in the heart.

"Do I have to be silent to see my loved one lying helplessly?"

Arga took a long breath. His chest felt tight at the thought of the state of Citra, the girl who had secretly stolen his entire heart.

"If you love me, reveal it. Don't keep kayak gini pendam," said someone from behind.

Arga turned his head and found Nanda walking towards him.

"Gue has also experienced what you are experiencing now. So I understand how you feel right now," he said again.

"Elo must reveal what's in your heart now. Don't you just be damned. I'm sure Citra wants to hear the expression of love lo," he continued.

Arga was silent to the brother's words. Not because he has no guts. But he's done that before. He had already revealed what he was feeling. He had already revealed his heart to Citra. But Citra did not accept his expression of love. The girl chose someone else as her lover.

"Ga," call Nanda.

"Gue knows you've long loved Citra. I know you love girls, too," said Nanda.

"If you can be honest. I also like girls. I want to be his girlfriend too" he said.

Hearing the brother's words, Arga turned his head and stared intently at his brother.

"Why Lo?" Nanda asked while looking at Arga's changed facial expression.

"Elo jealous hear me talk just now?" nanda.

Arga didn't answer that question. He turned his face in the other direction. Honestly, his heart was very jealous. But what can he do? The image of no one to him. The image is not his girlfriend or his partner.

"Don't hold on to love for too long. Ungkapin. Although the answer will make you sick later, elo have tried to express what is in Lo's heart." Nanda said as she patted his sister's shoulder gently. After that he walked away from his brother.

Arga is still in his original position. The young man remained silent as he stared at the sky tonight.

Not only Arga who is enjoying the night sky. Azwan is the same. The young man seemed to be enjoying the night sky in his backyard. In his hand was a book of poetry anthology.

Azwan smiled as he read a poem by someone he loved so much. The poem titled 'Merenda Luka' was the work of Citra, the girl who had become the queen in her heart.

"Wan," call a middle-aged woman.

"Eh Mama's. Just be surprised" Azwan replied.

The woman smiled at the child's answer.

"Eat first yuk. Papa and Anne are waiting in the dining room," invited the woman who still looks young.

"Entar again Ma. Azwan was still full," Azwan replied.

"What did you eat when you were full?" ask the woman.

"Know that Mama you have not eaten anything since," said the mother.

"So Azwan ate Ma's snack. So yes now it's full." Azwan.

The woman seemed to take a deep breath hearing the child's words.

"Yes already. Mom went inside first. Later if you're hungry, you ask auntie yes" said the woman.

Azwan nodded his head. Then the woman went back into the house leaving Azwan who was still faithful with his nightly musings.

*****

The image seemed to be preparing to go home. Yesterday the doctor said that the condition of the image has improved. He was declared cured by Dr. Avita, the young doctor who handled it.

"Well glad you're going home?" doctor Avita said during a visit to Citra's room.

The image smiled hearing the beautiful Doctor's words.

"Remember the sweet boy. Don't eat late. Don't eat the bad ones first. Drinking soda is as much as reduced coffee. And the medicine continues to be taken until it runs out, yes" said Dr. Avita told Citra.

"yes Doc. The image will remember the doctor's message really," Citra replied.

Avita smiled sweetly at Citra's reply just now. Then he said goodbye to continue his work again.

"Doctor Avita is beautiful Mas," Citra said suddenly.

He looked straight at his sister. His forehead furrowed in wonder hearing Citra's sudden speech.

"It's very compatible with Mas Tegar," he said again.

"Where is the Deck. Where would the young doctor want the same Mas," replied Tegar.

This time it was Citra who was staring in wonder towards her brother. He nodded perfectly.

"Why not Mas? Mas Tegar's work is also cool," Citra said.

Harder smiled hearing the words of his sister. The young man then walked closer towards Citra and scrambled his sister's hair in a frenzy.

"Mas Hardcore, will be a mess again my hair," cried Citra.

"Sorry Deck. You're shaking after all," said Tegar.

Silence enveloped both. No one speaks one bit. Only occasional sighs could be heard from the two.

"Mas Tegar why is it still single?" ask the image suddenly.

Rigidly turned his head and looked at the very face of the sister in wonder. Why did Citra suddenly ask about her singles status? He usually never asks about it.

"What's that anyway?" He asked Citra.

"It's okay, Mom. The image of just a pep to know. Why Mas Tegar does not find girls," he said.

Tegar let out a long sigh before answering the very question of sister. Then he crouched down in front of his sister and tightly grasped Citra's hand. His eyes stared at that sweet face fixedly.

"Lagian Mas does not want to hurt the feelings of women. When Mas fell in love, Mas would love all of Mas's heart for the woman. Mas will also make the woman as the first and last woman in Mas's life" said Tegar.

The image was stunned hearing the elder brother's words. It turns out that the brother has his own reasons for not having a lover. Citra felt proud of her brother. He also secretly prayed for his brother to be happy.

The day has gone by noon. Image and his family prepare to leave the hospital. Ms. Aminah and Mr. Hamzah deliberately closed her stall for a few days to accompany the princess in the hospital.

"Is everything Deck?" ask Wiwit.

"Udah Ma'am." The image replied with a friendly and warm smile.

"Whoa! I'm ready to go home apparently," said Dr. Avita.

Everyone in the room turned their heads and smiled hearing Doctor Avita's reprimand.

"Eh, Doctor." Ms. Aminah answered the reprimand with a smile on her face.

Doctor Avita returned Bu Aminah's smile with a smile as well.

"Are you ready to go home?" The doctor repeated his question.

"Yes, Doctor Ma'am. The image is bored, he said. I want to go to school again" replied Mr. Hamzah.

Doctor Avita smiled at Mr. Hamzah's reply. Two dimples appeared on both cheeks as the woman smiled.

"Remember all my messages Yes Citra. Don't be violated. Busy can be, but do not forget to eat beautiful," said the young doctor.

"Yes, Mom." Citra answered Doctor Avita with a smile.

"That's what doctor Dek said. Don't forget to eat," said Wiwit who had been silent since.

"Yes Ma'am. I was horrified," Citra said.

"Yes already. Then excuse me first. If you need anything the image can contact me." Doctor Avita thrust a business card on Citra. The girl accepted it with a raised smile.

After everything was sorted out, Citra and her family left the hospital. The family came home in an online taxi.

*****

Tonight, Avita is enjoying her dinner at a cafe near the hospital where she works. Sometimes he looked towards the entrance. Looks like he's waiting for someone tonight.

The beautiful woman seemed to take a long breath. Muffle a sense that the last few years have been very torturous in the mind.

In the moment he felt despair, a subtle clap made him jump in shock.

"I'm sorry I'm late" said a young man who was none other than Satria.

Avita smiled at Satria's words. "It's nothing Sat. I just arrived too" replied Avita.

Satria smiled at Avita's reply. "I'm sorry I asked you to meet these nights" Satria said.

"It's nothing Sat. I also finished my work" replied Avita.

"What would you like to order?" tawar Avita's.

"What a hell. But if it may be iced cappucino aja," replied Satria. A sweet smile spread across his face.

Avita was fascinated to see Satria's smile. The woman momentarily forgot her offer.

"Vit," call Satria. His hand touched the woman's hand.

"Eh yes. Why Sat?" ask Avita gelagapan.

Satria frowned looking at the surprised expression shown by Avita.

"How are you dumb? Why?" ask Satria.

Avita looked into the eyes of the young man in front of her. There was a sudden sense of pain in his heart when he realized the young man's attention was no longer for him.

"It's okay. I'm just tired," replied Avita lying.

"If there's a problem, tell me the same story. I'm ready to hear your curse. We are good friends" said Satria.

Avita looked at Satria with teary eyes. His heart ached when he heard the last sentence spoken by Satria. There was a sudden sense of tightness whack his chest.

"I ordered your drink first." Avita said as she got up from her chair.

Satria nodded her head in response. Avita immediately stepped towards the cashier and ordered a drink for Satria.

"Please be ushered into table five yes Ma'am. Thanks" said Avita. Not forgetting the sweet smile adorning her beautiful face.

"Good brother. Please wait" replied the cashier.

After ordering a drink for Satria, Avita returned to her desk. He smiled as he saw Satria was still there waiting for him.

"Have you heard about him today?" avita asked as she sat back in front of Satria.

"Yes. I'm glad he's healthy again."

"So why didn't you pick her up?" ask Avita again.

Satria let out a long sigh and shook her head slowly.

"Why?"

"I'm not ready to see him yet Vit. I am not ready to accept rejection from him" replied Satria.

"Have not tried to be pessimistic? What's wrong with you meeting him. Just meet me first. Don't talk about anything first. The important thing is that you meet him" said Avita.

Satria again let out a long sigh before answering Avita's question. He didn't know how to answer Avita's words just now.

"Sat, you better be honest with him. Don't let you mess up because you haven't said anything to him yet" advises Avita.

Satria was speechless hearing Avita's words just now. He wanted to do what the girl said. But he doesn't know how to start. He doesn't know how to reveal it all to the people he loves.

"Can I be honest with you?"