Choosing Love !?!?

Bereft...

Alex recalled that the Old Library building had begun to be remodeled into the Black Grill Restaurant. How stupid and funny Alex who feels calm when he knows the location of the restaurant is not close to the campus or where he lives. It is impossible if Chris came all the way here just to go to the former Library and not visit other places.

Why is Madeline with Chris? Are they back in a relationship? What about the woman in the hotel room?. Was he just one night's impingement? Questions popped up one by one in Alex's head.

About how Madeline's expression would have been if they had met earlier. It must have been their winning smile on his face, seeing now that he was next to Chris.

Alex immediately retrieves the phone from his bag, himself looking for the name 'Ryan' in the contact list. But he stopped contacting Ryan because maybe he is currently with Amel. Alex decides to contact Ben, though the place stays further away than Ryan.

Luckily Ben arrives before his boss leaves, so Alex doesn't have to wait by the side of the road. He doesn't know where Chris and Madeline are, it could be to the bar next door. Besides why they're trying to come here, this isn't elite territory. Werent they only visited expensive and luxurious places.

"It's rude, it's been a long way to pick me up at the drop," Ben protests seeing Alex daydreaming all the way.

"Sorry, I have a lot of thoughts."

"How about you play in my apartment, I'll massage your head to relax."

"No, I just go home and rest at home" Alex refused.

"Then I accompany you to the apartment, even if I'm a man, I can be a good listener."

"Not to."

"alright... All right, right said the others, I'm suitable to be just a driver," said Ben pretending to sulk.

Alex, who initially thought only of Chris, realized that he was disrespectful to Ben who had bothered to pick him up. Alex then took Ben to eat somewhere a little far away, because he was still afraid of seeing Chris or even Madeline again.

At midnight this is a place to eat that is still open only bars and fast food restaurants. Since the two of them have often eaten fried chicken in front of Alex's workplace Bar, Ben then takes Alex to Rooftop Bar which is located on the top floor of his apartment building.

As the name implies, the bar is located on the roof of the building. Although there is an indoor area, most of the bar area is outdoor and only roof the night sky. They ordered a light menu, because Alex was not really hungry, he just felt bad for Ben who had helped him, even though Ben was just joking. After the meal they ordered a beer and sat down to chat.

"I'm already this sleepy, go home yuk," Alex asked. Without feeling he had spent 4 bottles of beer.

"Drink another one, I've had 5 bottles" Ben said, handing over the last bottle.

At first they only ordered one promo package containing 5 bottles of beer, but they were busy chatting when all the bottles became empty so they ordered one more package.

" No, my stomach is full" said Alex to pull over the bottle that Ben gave him.

Alex was not strong to drink, at this moment he felt his body as if it was a little floating, even though his consciousness was still there. Therefore he refused Ben's beer, because he did not want to get drunk and could not control himself.

"If I drink this means you have to sleep in my apartment, because there's no way I can drive." Ben gave an excuse.

"My apartment's in this building, just 5 floors down." said Ben preparing to drink their last beer.

Alex stops him and takes the bottle from Ben's hand, then drinks it slowly. He doesn't want to have to stay at Ben's apartment. Alex feels lately Ben's nature is changing, as if trying to approach and seduce him. Although they were not drunk, they were under the influence of alcohol. Alex doesn't want anything uncooled to happen. Especially at this time their relationship status is still limited to friends.

"Look, I won't do anything weird." Ben's convinced.

"Not so, tomorrow I'm off and I want to get up for lunch, so I want to sleep in my apartment. I'm also not used to staying at people's places" Alex said.

They were there a little longer because Alex drank his beer very slowly so that his consciousness was still there, he even left him more than half.

Arriving in front of his apartment building Alex immediately said goodbye and exited the car after saying thank you. He tried hard to stay conscious even though his steps felt very light as if he was walking on a cloud.

The elevator stopped on the 4th floor. Ryan's figure is seen standing in front of the elevator door that is opening.

From the look in Alex's eyes and the smell of beer, Ryan can guess Alex's current condition. Pressing the 10th button, the floor where the laundry and gym are for the apartment dwellers, Ryan said, "Who are you drinking with?"

"Ben, it just happened to be out of work together. What do you want to do on the 10th floor?"

"So I washed the blankets, kept forgetting. Now I'm cold I can't sleep, 'cause there's no blanket."

That all? Is there nothing you want to ask Ryan? I told you, I had a drink with Ben. Why aren't you angry? Why don't you ask me to go have a drink with you next time? Why are you acting so ordinary, when I go with another man?. Alex protested inwardly.

The memicing of Alex staring at Ryan due to the influence of alcohol and drowsiness made his eyes heavier and harder to open. When his mouth opened to reveal all the irritation that had been in his head suddenly the elevator door opened. They reached the floor of Alex's apartment.

"Where's your apartment key?" ryan held out his hand asking for the key.

Alex ransacked the contents of his bag and placed the keys to his apartment in Ryan's hands.

After opening the door of the apartment, Ryan pulled the key child and placed it into the keyhole on the inner door. He told Alex to come in, then he went to the 10th floor after making sure Alex locked the door from the inside.

When he returned to his room, Ryan relentlessly condemned his stupidity. Why did he choose to wait until Alex's heart wound healed, now again he was in front of another man. Is all this time his kindness is not enough, so Alex prefers others. Ryan who initially went to pick up the blanket left so that he could sleep well instead became unable to sleep at all.

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Alex's throat felt very dry like a desert the next day when he woke up. While sipping cold water he tried to recall the incident last night from seeing the figure of Chris and Madeline, to meeting Ryan.

Ryan still cares about her. The proof last night could have been that he went straight to the 10th floor, but Ryan made sure he went into the apartment.

I don't know since when his relationship with Ryan became tenuous. Has it been since Ryan and Amel were close? What kind of relationship do the two of them have right now. Are they really dating? Then why wasn't he told. Even he should have been in the dining tract for the anniversary, because the two people were his best friends and best friends.