Choosing Love !?!?

My Heart's Outpouring....

Alex enters the dressing room with lethargic steps, last night's events still filling his mind. He didn't know what to do, Chris didn't contact him at all.

"Hoi, how grim is that his face, smile dong, " said Nayla cheerfully. It must be because his work hours are over. "Today there are no bosses so the work is relaxed, " he added.

"Why could that be?" ask Alex wonder.

"Yes, Mr. Radit today is indeed a holiday, Madeline continued there is a duty abroad that is a week."

"Oh yeah?. No prior notice." Jane who just came along.

"Suddenly he said, Mr. Radit had come here briefly to notice. He said that if there was a direct phone problem, ", Naila explained.

"Out of the country?. It must be with a big boss. Wah-wah will be exciting. Nay, do you know which country they're going to?" ask Jane to be curious.

"Whose big boss?" alex asked, even though he can guess, but still need certainty.

"Who else if not Mr. Chris. They have work affairs to the PP State, a country famous for its romance. Luckily, Madeline is invited, not the other branch managers. A business trip with a handsome Boss, it's like a novel story just "the fantasy of Nayla is everywhere.

" You're new kids anyway, so definitely don't know yet if they were dating. He said it's broken up now, but who knows."Jane who is a senior began gossiping.

" Waaahhhh really??? Maybe the big boss really wants better, so he keeps coming here. This business trip is a real reason. Surely they will enjoy the romance of their business trip, " Cerocos Nayla is not aware of Alex's facial expressions are immediately mixed between sad and angry.

Alex immediately went to the toilet, his tears could not be held again listening to the reality he just knew. Yesterday's incident hit his head again. How could it be that just yesterday Chris expressed his feelings and now he is already with another woman. Is this because he turned down Chris' request so he now prefers to be with Madeline. Surely Chris will get what he wants, they used to date, and they seem still close. There was an unbearable tightness in Alex's chest that he had to breathe with his mouth open rather wide. Tears continued to pour even though he kept wiping them off. He has to control his emotions. How can he work if his tears keep flowing.

"Lex you're done? I went to the resto first yeah, " Gabby said from behind the door. No one thought Alex was crying inside.

That day Alex really felt like time was going slow. He could not focus on his work and occasionally had to run to the toilet because his eyes were hot and teary-eyed. His co-workers were worried because Alex didn't usually behave like that, but no one got a definitive answer when they asked. Alex simply replied that he was not feeling well, or that was okay, but of course everyone knew that was not the real answer.

*****

After work unknowingly her feet took her to the ice cream shop she always went to when she was sad. He actually did not want to go there, but his mind was chaotic and without feeling he was already there. When she was about to turn home at the sight of Ryan was waving at her from inside the store. Alex was forced to come in to say hello.

"Look who's coming, it's been a long time since we had dinner last night. I thought I was making a mistake so you didn't call me at all. How are you?" cerocos Ryan is happy.

Alex could not answer Ryan's question because he could feel his eyes were getting hot again and the slightest bit he opened his mouth for sure he would not be able to hold back his tears.

Ryan who seemed to know the situation that was happening immediately invited Alex into a small workspace where the financial statements are usually checked.

"Sit down, no one's gonna come in here so you can cry here, "there's still something Ryan wants to say, actually, but seeing the girl in front of him was already shedding tears and as unwilling as she chose to be silent. Hand her a box of tissue to wipe Alex's tears, and a glass of water to calm her down a bit. Then she just sat there stroking Alex's soft back hoping it could also calm her down and stop crying. After a while Alex seemed rather calm, Ryan ventured to ask, "What happened?"

"I.e.." The tears came back from Alex's eyes, though not as hard as before.

"No need to answer, later if you are ready. But if you have any friends or family you can talk to, you better tell them your problems, get all your junk out. That can help a lot, not on your own. Wait a minute, I'll be right back. " Ryan walks out and before long returns with Alex's two bowls of dark chocolate ice cream.

" Rather than being sad, it's better to eat ice cream. "

Alex smiled a little at Ryan's ice cream and didn't forget to thank him. So that Alex no longer thinks about the problem Ryan tries to find another topic of conversation and chooses to return to protest about Alex never contacting him at all after their dinner at a Chinese restaurant,he thinks Alex doesn't want to see him anymore. But it turned out that it was just a misunderstanding because Alex actually did not contact because indeed he never had a male acquaintance so he did not dare to contact first. They both laughed at the misunderstandings that occurred and continued chatting casually until the closing hours of the mall which means the ice cream shop must also close.

Fortunately, Ryan said that his heart was now a little calmer, even though he was not talking about anything.

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At Ryan's suggestion, Alex contacts his two best friends, Ratna and Stefi. Alex only told his two best friends that he missed meeting and wanted to talk, because if he told them on the phone they would both go home no matter what time of day, or day, it can even be certain that they will permit a work holiday so that they can meet as soon as possible, and Alex doesn't want it to happen because his family can be suspicious and maybe his best friend can get into trouble at their workplace. As soon as they find their free time meeting at Alex's house, and in the locked room, be sure that no one is cheering in as Alex recounts his problems with tears. Ratna and Stefi were angry at their emotions, but still remembered to keep their voices from being heard out. Those who initially supported Alex and Chris' relationship now instead want to meet Chris to scratch the man.

"But thankfully the bad nature of the sneak is quick to say. It's a pity that he keeps pretending to be sweet and plunging our innocent girl into the abyss of darkness" grumbled Stefi. "Have not wept over that sneer" he continued.

"Yes Lex, you take the positives, what Stefi says is true. And again you finally kiss also ciieh ciiieh. How did your first kiss feel. Ouch!!" Ratna grimaced stroking her head which was in the pit of Stefi.

"By the way the fart is a mouth, still talking about a kiss," Stefi said.

Alex recalled his first kiss in this room. Somehow there was a speck of warm pleasant feeling felt in his chest. Maybe however sad and sick he will be treatment Chris, can not be denied if he does have feelings of love for the man.

"Tuuuuuhhhhh see who asked again bengong smile, here you I'm back."

Alex's daydreams were spoiled by Ratna's squeaking sound.

"Well, take a lesson, so if I meet another guy I'm expecting at least I've had a kiss experience" Alex joked.

"Ni's a heartbroken child once his brain becomes tilted huh. Should have said that if I met another guy had to be more careful, this was even his kiss in the

discuss. "

" What's weird is you Stef, usually among us the one whose nonsense is always that of you. Tumben is smart. After spending the philosophy book yes, "joking Ratna which was immediately accompanied by the laughter of his two best friends.

" You said his business trip a week, right, means tomorrow they're back. You've got your heart ready, haven't you, Lex?" ask Stefi to worry. This friend of his used to be a bully in school and he was strong to deal with it, but love affairs are another story. He didn't want Alex to be sad too deeply.

" Remember Lex you can't point to the sneak if you feel sad let alone heartbroken. In front of him you have to suppress your feelings, show that you are ordinary and happy, "the advice of Ratna was heard well by Alex.

"True, you can cry as much as the screams in front of us, but if in front of the clap you have to wear a happy face mask. Wanna?" ask Stefi who replied with a reassuring nod from Alex.

"Okay, since tomorrow there is a possibility that you have to act happy, let's now have fun. Pretty good tomorrow you so there's fun things to remember." Stefi came up with an idea.

"May you, I can ask you one more, okay?" Alex asked for permission. He wanted to take Ryan as a thank you because he also helped Alex calm down. Always telling funny things that make him laugh and accompany him chatting on the phone until late at night so Alex is not too sad. And Ryan did not protest even though until now he did not know what problems are being faced ex. "His name is Ryan, he's my friend, the kid who owns my ice cream shop" Alex explained.

"Lex is a matter of heartbreak that is not yet widespread you are willing to turn to the affairs of the New heart."

"It's not that Stef, he's just a real vow."

"Hmmmm kayak dejavu yes. The same time that Chris was the first you knew to us was also just a temen, "said Ratna. "No, ladies only, "he continued.

And they also spend time having fun in a simple way, shopping-shopping is not clear, shopping for beautiful clothes, spinning food samples in the mall, pretending to look for items that are not actually lost at all, and making sure they are not lost at all, and many other unimportant and unclear things.

I hope I can face the day of battle tomorrow. I can and I can't seem weak because it means I lost. Alex in the heart.