Chasing Love Vera

I just have a heart

It's night time

Arian just walked into the room. Closer to the glass wall, then stand still. Both of his hands were in his pants pocket. The focus of his eyes was on the ornamental plants of flowers that swayed because of the wind. But his mind somehow drifted where, aka daydreaming. After being imagined with a meeting at the cafe this afternoon.

That afternoon at the cafe.

Arian had just come from outside the door to the agreement table. He who had wanted to meet with his future fiancee in a few weeks, finally accelerated. I don't know why only Arian knows.

The girl he wanted to meet waved her hand when he saw her coming from a distance.

"Good afternoon." Arian said hello pulling the chair then sat face to face. Both hands were placed on the table. "I'm sorry for keeping you waiting."

"Sir, I just came too." Shamefully Fani replied, while inserting her hair behind her ears.

"Look closely, it turns out you are a very beautiful girl yes, your face is almost similar to my sister. But the difference is, you're feminine and your attitude is as gentle as you look." Hearing her compared to other girls, Fani's reaction looks strange, there is real jealousy tucked away from her smile. "Ah, I'm sorry I compared you to him."

"No papa kak, just relax. I'm even happy if I'm judged the same as Brother Arian. That means Arian can love me like Arian loves Vera."

Degh, Arian's eyes are wide

"Where do you know if I love her?"

"From the way Arian talks about it is also clear. If actually Arian was thinking about Vera again. Don't you?" Smilingly

"Hhh" Arian sighed then rewinded his body leaning back in his chair. "If you already know that I love Vera, why still insist on getting engaged to me?"

"Because I love Brother Arian. That's the only reason that represents everything. And don't ask me why, because I only have a heart."

Crazy one! I must be crazy. Because he answered so boldly. I've really gone crazy. Fucking mouth! Why are you so honest like that. I was ashamed.

Fani wanted to cover her face with the bag next to her hand because she was too embarrassed. He hurriedly bowed his gaze to the cup of coffee on the table. Sip it a little while glancing at Arian once in a while.

Why is his reaction silent. Come dong answered, don't make me more embarrassed. But let it go, maybe he's thinking. Whether or not he wants to accept my love. I don't give a shit. After all, he will still be mine hehe. Fuck up! If I love this is how it is. Stealing his body is the best way rather than just staying silent expecting the uncertain. Heart business, that's just lately. And I'm sure she'll love me soon.

Seeing Arian still silent a thousand languages Fani cleared his throat then sipped his coffee again. Put on a shameless face.

"How, Brother, is Brother Arian willing to accept my love?" Crazy one! What a woman am I, right? Even I'm the one who was impressed to shoot his heart first here. Oh God. I lost my self-esteem.

"Then you make me forget it."

"Huh?" Fani stuttered in shock and almost spilled her coffee."What does Arian mean?" In a hurry he put his coffee back on the table. Put his ears wide.

"It's clear what I just said. I want you to help me forget it." As soon as Arian thinks, maybe everything can be forgotten if you start a relationship with the girl.

"Oh, Brother Arian just calm down. The problem of diverting the world I'm the expert. But promise me one thing. Arian's brother has to obey whatever I want to do. So that Arian can forget completely and move on to loving me."

"All right, I agree."

"Hehe, thank you" Smiling Fani spoke inwardly.

Oh my god, I'm happy. Eventually all my plans went well. I can't wait for the results.

"And now, before Kak Arian leaves, please enjoy the coffee first. I purposely ordered it specifically for Brother loh."

"Hemm, thank you." Arian immediately grabbed his coffee just delivered by the waiter. Sip it a few times. "Hhh, even you know my coffee taste. It's amazing."

"Hehe.." Fani just grinned

Such is the shadow of Arian in his eyes, a little creepy also after knowing the Fani turned out to have a lot of connections. Underline that the girl is not an easy person to beat. Like the previous plan he had painstakingly outlined. But ultimately he himself also gave up on his destiny.

Especially after Arian finds out his sister loves Vera. His soul spirit disappeared, everything felt weak and unfounded. Standing up straight is not possible. I don't know where he should be leaning. Pouring out all the accumulated feelings in the heart.

And yes, he can talk to Aliya. To speak all the desires of the true heart. But what power if it's too late. Protest is useless, too.

In the end I could only swallow the bitter that I kept wiping as a result of my stupidity.

Arian squeezed his fingers, enduring the insignificant annoyance. Just now he was about to step into the changing room. The door was heard from outside the room. In line with the voice of the girl who asked permission to enter.

"Come in." Arian said with sumringah. The door opened, and Vera stood smiling and closed the door. The vexation around his face disappeared as Vera was already sitting cross-legged on the sofa while putting her pillow on her lap, smiling. "What's up, baby? As for tumben, you come to Brother's room at night like this." Arian sat down, next to Vera.

"Nothing," I just want to talk to you, Brother."

"What conversation?" Seeing Vera's hair dangling from the view, Arian slid it behind his ear.

"Brother's engagement."

"Hhh, you finally know that." Arian tried to smile at all the regrets. While Vera was a little surprised as Arian dropped his head on her shoulder.

Oh my God, what is this really about. Why did Brother suddenly lean on me. His breath sounded tired too. Could this have something to do with the girl that Big Brother loved. But, how else now, even a little gap of hope does not exist, because soon Brother wants to get engaged. So free if I suggest Brother express his feelings right.

While thinking, Vera rubbed her arms strengthening.

"Who told you?" Even Arian's voice was a little different today, a little slow but depressed, like holding back a cry.

"Mama told me this morning. But, why did you keep it a secret to me before? What's the matter? Try if you tell me earlier. Maybe Big Brother's feelings won't be this weak. Because he's too tired to endure his own pain."

"But Ve, even though Big Brother did, Big Brother still can't run away from reality. Because the girl that Big Brother loved, trapped his heart in another man. In the end, Big Brother could only give it up for the sake of seeing Mama happy. That's enough."

"But Brother,"

"It's Ve, respect Brother's decision. Brother doesn't want to talk about it anymore. Now all you want to do is lean on your shoulder. Let Brother stay like this for a moment." It was like Arian was crying in his heart as his face was already sinking on his shoulder, his eyes were closed. All the feelings that were piled up were poured out slowly.

The girl immediately embraced his back, while occasionally rubbing his arm. Still reinforcing.

"Sister must be strong. Although it hurts, Brother should not be this weak. Ve sure really, one day Brother must be happy with Brother's fiancee. And slowly Big Brother must be able to forget it."

"How can Big Brother be happy with him, if what Big Brother touches, what Big Brother kisses, as warm as his hug, as gentle as his beak, cannot be the same. Because Brother's heart is filled with a million shadows of himself. What Big Brother is afraid of now is just disappointing him."

"But in my opinion, if Big Brother really has come to terms with Big Brother's decision. Open your eyes and heart wide, let go. Don't get too drowned in regret. Better, Brother pray, so that the girl you love finds her happiness as well. That way you can forget him. It's a weapon that people generally use if they're hurt. Praying is better than hoping to come back."

"You're right Ve, the more hope it makes the wound in Brother's heart go deeper. No matter how hard you try, you still can't reach it. Let alone the girl that Big Brother loved, his heart was already in the possession of others."

"Well, it's a good thing that I immediately resuscitated Brother. Otherwise, Brother's heart is even more broken. Big Brother's mentality can also be damaged later Hehe..."

Arian chuckled as Vera mocked his mentality. Because of anxiety he just pinched his right cheek until pulled. But amazingly, Vera's reaction was silent at the time, letting Arian vent his feelings.

"What do you think Big Brother is mentally ill. Until your brother ridicules everything. Hemm?" Arian just took off the pinch.

"You mean?" Arian sounded sewot

"Yes, I saw Brother like a man who has lost his spirit."

"Then?''

"I just mock you for smiling. Because ever since Brother leaned on me, it felt like Brother was going to cry."

"Who wants to cry?" Vera's cheek was pinched again."Just not you!"

"That's right, just try and expose everything to me. I'm willing, to be the material of Brother's impingement."

"Who took it out on you?It's delicious!" Arian did not want to lose, but his hand pinched his cheek again

"Still denying! My brother pinched me twice." Arian let go of his hand and smiled, admitting defeat."Shit, basic!" Vera sneered

"Hehe.." Arian just grinned

"Oya Kak, by the way Kok Kak can know Fani anyway. Know where? He's my classmate at college."

"Yes Brother certainly knows him Ve, the man he's his friend's son Mama. When Brother's birthday friend's event in Raja Ampat, you see he is also present."

"Huh? Goddamn time. How can I not see ya."

"Yes even though Big Brother knows, but we are not close. Not even talking ever. Every time we met we just threw each other a smile and exchanged greetings."

"If you have known him for a long time. Why is the attitude of Sister like this, even though as far as I know Fani is very beautiful, feminine again. His heart is as soft as his appearance."

"Either Ve" Arian placed his hands behind his head, then leaned on the sofa sighing Perhaps Big Brother's heart was already filled with the shadow of his face. And every sister sees another girl's face. It feels ordinary, nothing special. It felt the same way as that."

"What! So you've had a meeting, huh?"

"Yes. We just met this afternoon. You know Ve, why does Big Brother feel he is so different from all that Big Brother got from his information. Brother doesn't understand."

"Listen, brother, you've only met for the first time. Maybe you need a more approach. Tell each other about personalities through short messages for example. My sister only knew his habits. After all, writing a message face to face is not the same, right."

"But to be honest, when he said his love feelings to Big Brother. The older brother looked at his funny face. But in an instant Brother immediately brushed it off."

"Huh? Why is sister tepis. It's not like brother just pinched his cheek. Like you always do to me."

"That's the problem Ve, if Big Brother does it. Brother remembered you. So you can only pinch him in the heart."

"Huh? Fuck up!"

"But you know not Ve, before we met Big Brother had time to think, maybe he's someone like this and that. But when you meet him in person, it always feels different. There is a sense of peace that cannot be expressed with words. It's weird."

"Hhh," The Vera tepok jidat "It's not strange, but Brother is a little impressed with her." Arian twisted his brain, confused. "So don't want to hear the same song as Brother's heart doesn't ?"

"Which song?"

If I don't meet, I can be worried. When meeting the view in the stolen. What is happening to me.

As soon as Vera sings while shaking her head left and right. His hands were on his lap, following the melodic rhythm of his song.

"Hahaha" Arian only responded with a laugh.

"Well, brother laughed. It's good to see it."

"Hehe, thank you, because you've comforted Brother."

"Together." Vera answered quickly and smiled "Oya Kak, I actually came here to invite Brother to dinner together. Because Mama and that crazy criminal are waiting for Brother in the tv room."

"Yes, then, I'll take a shower for a while." Arian stood up from sitting down, loosening the tie while walking towards the bathroom.

While Vera sees that Arian has entered through the changing room, she walks towards the bed. Lying on his side, hugging the bolster while thinking.

At the value of Big Brother's attitude, it seems like my guess is correct, Big Brother is lacking attention towards me. Different from that crazy criminal. Just looking at my face, she could tell I was sick. But unfortunately he is difficult to talk from heart to heart. And I need it.

Vera let out a long sigh while stretching out her hands, the pillow beside her until pushed up. Then he accidentally touched the object under the pillow.

"Eh, what is this? Looks like it's like Brother's diary." While back and forth the book in his hand Vera spoke.

Out of curiosity he opened the book. Smiling after seeing his first sheet, there was a photo of him when he was five years old. The one is purposefully outboarded at the very front, decorated with some beautiful writing underneath. And the next sheet he just reads the title without reading the whole. In order to maintain privacy, of course. He kept doing the same thing on every single sheet he didn't.

Until in the end he stuttered in shock after reading his daily title that was deliberately given quotes.

"I love you Vera Nindya"

The girl covered her mouth holding haru, hastily she kept her book back where it was originally because of hearing Arian's footsteps that had just emerged from the changing room.

Why Brother, why Brother won't reveal it to me. I chose another girl to make me happy.

No, I can't be weak. I should look happy in Brother's eyes. Because you sacrificed everything.

But why was it that when I saw the fake smile from Big Brother's face, my heart ached. Oh God. Is this what is called love. Or am I just feeling sorry for him.

"What's wrong with you Ve, why are you looking at Big Brother with such a sad face?" While buttoning his long pajamas Arian asked.

"Ah, no. I'm okay anyway. I'm just happy, finally Brother will soon be engaged hehe.."

"lik! Must be something?" I don't know why Arian was panicked to say his words. The focus of his eyes was distracted at the thing under his pillow. Then he immediately grabbed it in a hurry. ''You didn't touch this diary, did you?" Vera shook her head "Thank God, I think you just opened it."

"No, sister, anyway, how dare I do it. That's Brother's privacy." You lying man Ve.

"Why is your face so sad. What's up ?" While talking Arian kept his book back under the pillow

"I'm sad because I've been holding back hunger. Not the others hehe..."

"Yes, let's walk into the dining room now"

"Okay boss." Vera salutes the captain

Seriate.........