Certainty of Love

56

“Nay, even in my hallucinations you want me to forget you?”

Risam who was with father Riyad to see the state of Afnan stopped hearing the sentence that came out of Afnan's mouth. Nayya who realized the arrival of the husband looked at her husband with a guilty look. Risam smiled then shook her head as if saying she was okay.

While papi Riyad, mami Rana and Ivana can only be silent as well. They feel guilty to Nayya's husband, “Sorry son.” said papi Riyad.

Risam smiled, “Gak nothing om. He is not aware.” said Risam.

“Nay! You're not my hallucination? Are you really here?” asked Afnan to wake up.

Nayya did not flinch at Afnan's question and kept staring at the husband who was standing not far from him. It felt like Nayya ran away and hid in the arms of her husband rather than having to get caught up in a problem like this. He became a man who went awry, “Kak, don't talk too much and think too much. You just realized. You better eat mami.” porridge first said Ivana then take the artificial porridge in the hands of her mother.

Afnan shook his head, “I won't eat until you answer my question. Am I right to see Nayya here or is that my hallucination?” afnan said she shed her tears.

“I'm here. You are not hallucinating. I was right here. So now you eat the porridge.” said Nayya without looking at Afnan.

Afnan who heard Nayya's voice smiled, “You came Nay. Your husband's a good man Nay. He even allows you to take care of a man he knows wants his wife. I have indeed lost completely to lose.” Afnan laughed at himself.

“Kak, let's eat!” ivana.

Afnan shook his head, “What am I eating my sister for. Who do I have to live for? I want to just go.”

Nayya immediately turned around, “Are you stupid? Why do you want to die just because you lost one girl. Do you think the girl in this world is just one. Why do you want to leave. Why not rise up to find a better girl and kill yourself with alcohol. What do I want to prove with that? Either you can forget all your pain or you want to prove that you're a great man who can drink all kinds of alcohol or you want to prove that you can afford alcohol expensive with your money. What you want to prove by doing this. Why are you soaking up in your grief. Why don't you prove that you deserve better than me. We are not meant to be together, but your destiny is still going. Why do you want to end your own destiny just because of me. Do you think I'm the girl who deserves your grief. What do you want? I love you as a friend. Do you think I'm not sad to see you like this. Don't you think about Rana's mom and Riyad's sad papi seeing you down. Aren't you sad to see your sister worried about seeing you? Why do you want to leave those who love you. If you still want to go, go as far as possible but never think about ending your life. Honestly, I'm sick of what you're doing, but I'd be sicker if I saw you or heard you wanted to kill yourself. Don't stupid. Use your brain to think.” Nayya said annoyed.

“Nay, forgive me.” Afnan said after realizing his mistake.

“Why apologize to me. Apologize to your family and one more never mention my name if you still intend to kill yourself with that alcohol pile. If this time I come as a nurse doing her duty then next time I will come as an intermediary for the angel of death. I will realize your desire to leave this world.” said Nayya then she immediately approached her husband and hugged her husband tightly.

Risam smiled, “Nothing dear. You're great!” risam.

“Nay, please let me talk to your husband.” Pinta Afnan later.

Nayya and Risam looked at each other, “What do you want to talk about. Just talk in front of us.” Nayya said firmly.

“Nay, please!” please Afnan.

Nayya also looked at her husband and Risam nodded with a smile sign that he was willing to talk to Afnan, “Alright. You can talk but later. Spend the porridge first.” said Nayya pointed to the porridge held by Ivana.

“I'll eat it later.” Afnan.

“Terup to you only.” said Nayya. After that now in Afnan's room lived Risam and Afnan alone.

Afnan smiled behind that pale face, “Emm, forgive me! I'm sorry for bothering you. You and Nayya willingly came here this night just for the sake of a stupid loser like me. I admit I lost to you. I promise I will forget Nayya and release her for her happiness. I could see that happy look in his eyes. I do not deserve to say this because after all I am a third party among you. But what Nayya said was true. I was stupid. I forget that there are still people who love me with all their heart. I was short-minded to end my life with alcohol when there was a girl who forbade me to do that. Thank you for allowing him to come here.” said Afnan.

Risam smiled, “I didn't allow her to come here because of you but because of your mom who was worried about you. I am a normal husband and man who will be jealous if his wife is close to another man especially if that man is the man my wife once loved. I wanted to be selfish as a husband but after I thought, I had to trust my wife. I admit you're a great man who loves a girl so deeply. But I also don't justify what you're doing. I'm guessing the girl who forbade you to drink alcohol was Nayya. Honestly, I'm jealous of that, but I can't stop you from forgetting Nayya. I'm just asking to replace him with another girl. I am her husband.” Risam.

“I'm sorry. I'll try to forget it. I hope I can, but one thing I assure you. I won't trouble you guys anymore nor my family. I won't make people worry.” Afnan.

“Well, you have to move on with your life. We are destined to be love rivals for now but who knows if someday we will become true friends. Just like my wife wants you to move on with your life then I want you to move on with your life. Our lives are long. I'm sure you'll find a girl who can make you happy.” Risam.

Afnan nodded, “But I just want the girl to be Nayya. Sorry if I'm still selfish.” Inner Afnan stared at Risam.