Big Boss Love (Ken's Book)

Don't Be Burdened

Ken walks away after his lunch from the cafeteria, throwing his body on the sofa limp, distrusting his complicated life. He recalls every story Rai and Ruby told him. Adem ayem tentrem, compared perpendicular to the angle of slope of 90 degrees with the story, up, down, turn, cornering sharply, then circling until dizzy.

" Maybe it's true what marimar said, I should have let him alone "His murmur gave up.

Meanwhile Kiran still keeps getting calls from the number she called last night, but out of fear she doesn't pick it up.

Desperately he decided he would go after his mother in the village later after attending a ceremony together and take a few days off, he could not stand the oddities that continued to haunt him.

And again it seems like she needs a calm atmosphere to think about her relationship with Ken. Ken's words were still ringing in his ears.

" Haha... " Kiran let out a long sigh and buried his face in his desk.

" You think you're the only one who wants to kiss, I'm also "Sad muttered.

Kiran closed her eyes, and a tear managed to slide down the bridge of her nose.

It's not that Kiran didn't force herself to come into physical contact with Ken, but that her experience was almost a victim of Ganung's rape, as well as being almost a victim of a sale by his former lover made him very traumatized by his name of intimate physical contact. Although in the end he knew that what Ganung did was to protect him, it did not change the fact that Ganung had kissed him and groped his body forcefully. It made her subconscious like making her own conclusions that any intimate physical contact was another form of evil, and it made her feel disgusted and nauseous.

Kiran had already consulted a psychiatrist and got some sedative prescriptions, but no matter how the drug still had side effects, and it would not be good for her body, she said, so he decided he would only take his sedative when pressed.

" Why do men always think that way ? Is it not enough just to love and have each other ? Or am I being too selfish ? " His murmuring again, his tears fell down again.

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All the teachers were gathered in a contemporary restaurant that specialized in selling various kinds of seblak with various levels. The restaurant that is famous among young people was quite crowded despite the daytime.

Not the tongue of 62 citizens if not immune to the name of spicy taste, as well as Kiran. He confidently ordered the highest level. He'll release his stress this time.

Not long after the waiter came to bring the order of each of the teachers. And only Kiran's is looking so creepy. The thick red sauce with the contents of the chicken claw that looks very tempting it makes him swallow happy and horrified.

Kiran saw Mr. Doni look back and forth, making her wonder.

" What's wrong sir ? " Task Kiran in wonder.

" No, it's tissue in the box, but no waiter passes by "His answer while still looking for a waiter.

" I'm the only one who's going to ask for tissue at the cashier counter "Answer Kiran smiled and stood up to go to the counter.

But someone in front of him turned around without looking until he hit Kiran's shoulder, making his luggage fall.

" I'm sorry "Say them at the same time.

" You ? " Pointing them together again. Then laugh together.

" What are you doing here ? " Task Lucas as he bends down to pick up his fallen package.

" I was gathering with the teachers " replied Kiran pointing to her desk.

" Aah office event ? " Guess Lucas smiled.

" Yes like that, "Kiran replied with a smile.

Lucas turned his head towards the table Kiran pointed at, where his friends were gathered. With a probing look he observed one by one the faces that were there. And then frowned in wonder.

" Are you no longer working at Loyard High School ? " Ask the origin.

" Okay, why ? " Tanya Kiran was confused.

" Why isn't your boyfriend there ? " Las pointed at the group of people with his face.

" He was not invited "Askiran replied lazily and the smile on his face now changed with a frown. It made Lucas smile.

" Want to accompany me to drink some juice ? " Ask later.

" What ? " Tanya Kiran was confused.

" We haven't seen each other in a long time, I'd like to have a quick chat with you " Lucas replied casually.

They then went to the table in front of a large glass window, which was located a little far from the table.

" How are you doing ? " Task Lucas pleasantries.

" Good "Answer Kiran casually.

" I was scared earlier, I thought Ken would run over to me and hit me for daring to hit you "He chuckled.

" He's not there "Answer Kiran turned grim, as expected, Lucas knew Ken and Kiran were in trouble.

" Why did you again drop out of psychiatric class ? " Tanya Lucas whispered so that no one else would hear her.

" I don't know, I don't feel any progress, I still see the shadows of Ganung in my head, even worse since his death "Askiran replied, unknowingly telling Lucas the problem.

" Hey you know, I'm now in college again and majoring in psychology, yes as a prevention if my disease relapses "The story is timid.

" Let's tell me your problem, so I can apply the knowledge that I got in college, whether I will succeed in becoming a reliable psychiatrist or not "Here is excited.

" really ? Well congratulations yes, of course you must be a reliable psychiatrist, you will always be excited every treatment session "Askiran replied excitedly.

" Alright then tell me your problem "Cecar Lucas is confident.

Then Kiran recounts all the problems she had with Ken, from trivialities to a time bomb that had just exploded the other day.

" Hm... " Las nodded his head understandingly.

" It's not my will, I myself am just as helpless against my trauma" replied Kiran sadly.

" Kiran "Call Lucas softly and then lean his body towards Kiran.

" Why don't you just do it reflexively ? " Seriously next.

" Hm ? " This time replace Kiran who raised one of her brow confused.

" You think too much about it, you always imagine kissing her which only makes your trauma continue to appear. Why don't you do it reflexively without thinking, just imagine it's like you're forced to stick your lips on someone else's back while jostling on the bus. Just do it, quick and thoughtless "Suggestion Lucas is sure.

" I don't know I'm not sure " replied Kiran.

" Ei trust me already, don't be too burdened with the problems that exist, it will only accumulate in your mind and make you trapped "Las holds Kiran's hand when Kiran is off guard.

Kiran just looked down and thought hard. But when he realized that Lucas's hand was holding his hand, as fast as lightning he pulled it and hid it under the table.

Lucas laughed at Kiran's attitude.

" Look right ? When you do it reflexively then no trauma will arise, because what ? Because your brain will not have time to display bad images that can trigger your panic attacks "Obviously still with a rash laughter.

Kiran smiled shyly and lowered her head. In his heart he also confirmed what Lucas said, and also the other day when Bambang reflexively held his hand, Kiran also felt nothing. Usually he would immediately scream in fear when it happened to him. Only with Ken can he hold hands and embrace, and that's because of the terrible incidents he's been experiencing lately. A sense of security and comfort makes it normal when Ken hugs him, but for more than that, his mentality is not ready.

" You know when I decided to go to college again and get excited about receiving treatment, I was more and more regretting my stupid past "Lucas Nilar's Story, his eyes were blank as if he was back in the past.

" I shouldn't put off until tomorrow what I can forget today "Later on, a hint of regret was clearly on his face, but a second later he regained control and smiled again.

" Thinking too much of an ex can send you to a mental hospital "His advice again while chuckling, and is greeted with a wide laugh Kiran and a nod of justification.

" Yes you're right about that one, we think too much about the ex, so we're sent to a mental hospital" Kiran replied.

" Just let them be clouds, because that way, when they disappear it will even make your sky bright, right ? " Say Lucas still with his warm smile.

" Prepared doctor "Answer Kiran teased and made a sign of respect with her palm.

" Alright then, I go first, once in a while go on vacation, you look terrible "Ejek Lucas before finally actually leaving Kiran.

Like a rainbow that was created after the rain, Lucas transformed into a better and wiser person, able to laugh at his own mental illness. Doesn't that mean his maturity is growing.

Gaining enlightenment from Lucas to bring Kiran's confidence back, he will try to follow Lucas' advice not to be too burdened with physical contact problems, instead he will do it naturally, let the time that shows the right timing for him be reflex without any hesitation.