Between Certainty and Loyalty

Intertwined

While at the camp at night my upperclassman had invited me to meet but I refused because I was afraid to be known by the teacher and the committee. When the second night the relaxed atmosphere of the race had been held all just the closing event in the morning suddenly he and his friend came to my tent while carrying a guitar, he said, we chatted about the excitement of the race that we had done and my upperclassman looked at me as I laughed loosely and drifted into the conversation, I was silent for a moment when our eyes met and he picked up the guitar and played it while singing sheila on 7 "make me smile" after he was satisfied singing some songs he took me to the back tent "de come with me to the back of the tent yuk" asked him I was surprised "what's wrong" asked me "just a moment" he asked me again "alright, okay, but don't be long this brother is already night" I conditioned him. I also went to the back of the tent, spread a wide view of the sky studded with stars "beautiful" chirped me "beautiful" he replied to me "yes indeed beautiful in the star-studded sky" said I "your face is beautiful and sweet, especially when you smile dimples your cheeks look and make your face sweet" he said I was shocked, I think what we discussed was the view of the sky is not about my face I became silent blushed embarrassed. I didn't say much just looking at the star-filled sky and occasionally seeing his face, he looked so much at the sky and interspersed with seeing my face when our eyes met I tried to turn my eyes when I stood my face suddenly he kissed my cheek my face reddened and my eyes immediately stared intently at him I'm angry at what he did to me "what did you do?" ask me "i can't stand the sweetness of your face want to feel the softness of your cheeks, forgive me" he explained to me I want to be angry but afraid to sound my friends who are in front of the tent "bad brother" I got angry with him and I got up from my seat and left him but his hand pulled my hand and I fell on his body, she hugged me I got angry and my heart pounded hard my cheeks flushed I tried to get up from her body but the upperclassman held me and still held my hand I tried to let go and get inside the tent and asked Meri driving me to the toilet with mixed feelings I went into the toilet and held back the angry resentment and crying in my heart pounding fast I washed my face so I could forget it and so that my friend did not suspect what was happening just happened, when I came back from the toilet, my tent was quiet and we fell asleep for the last event, which was the closing ceremony and the announcement of the race. After returning home from camp we were allowed one day off to rest and the next day back to school as usual. When I arrived at home my eyes did not want to be closed even though my body felt tired but I could not sleep because I had to help my mother when the prayers were sublime arrived I rushed ablution and wanted to close my eyes and lay down my body in the room, I fell asleep until the time of the Ashar prayer arrived I woke up to shower and eat while watching tv with my brother and sister. Even after the night came after the maghrib prayer I cleaned the equipment tomorrow school saw whether there was PR or not and I have done it or not after the prayer my eyes are not strong to resist sleepiness but the shadow he can not missing the events of that night always loomed over me. Tomorrow I go to school if I can face him if I meet him, I hope tomorrow I don't see his face, I don't know how to deal with it.

The next day I woke up as usual my routine at home cleaning the house first and selling my mother, while my sister washed clothes and my mother cooked, after my work was done I rushed to take a breakfast bath and went to school. When I arrived at school I tried to forget the incident with a sense of annoyance and anger raging. Lesson after lesson passed the time to rest, I was lazy to leave the class feeling tired and sleepy enveloped my body, I just leave snacks to my friend Meri. While waiting for snacks I tried to sleep to relieve my drowsiness and fatigue. Meri came with the snacks I put in,

"Monica! eat kok daydreaming why the hell are you so lethargic today?" ask Meri

"engga know that my eyes and body can not be invited to compromise, sleepy and tired still pegel my body" I replied to Meri

"hey Meri lo is rich in not knowing Monika only she is the queen of sleep,hiii." sidelines Fina mocked.

"well, what is a python?klw udh full stomach can sleep a year"I reply to Fina

'Did I want to go to WC first, mo go with g?"

" don't wash your face just want in the anter, spoiled loh" mocked Meri

I went to WC to wash my face and avoid their conversation I was lazy to bedebat.

The doorbell rang I was going back to class after WC suddenly there was a teacher who called me to pick up textbooks at the office, I rushed to the office so I wouldn't miss class, as I ran suddenly "the bus" my head was hit by a basketball "bbraakkk" textbook toss as I fell, my head felt dizzy I shook my head while I pinched the temple so that the pain disappeared, students who play basketball came to me and apologized and asked my condition.

"sorry I accidentally threw a ball at you, how are you doing what needs to go to the UKS room?" ask the student to worry about my situation

"i'm fine, you're just a little dizzy, don't worry, brother" I replied while cleaning up the scattered books, I also stood up to hand over the textbooks that Bu Yulia ordered.

Before returning to class I was about to wash my face that was hit by a basketball a little dirty and still feel dizzy, when I bowed my head suddenly I felt a warm liquid running down my nose and dripping in my hands, nosebleed blood came out of my nose and I washed it quickly and took a tissue to wash the blood. After the blood did not drip again I went back to class to follow the next lesson, fortunately no one knew this incident, it could be dangerous if it was known by my friends. During the lesson, the pain in my head gradually disappeared and what I was worried about was the blood flowing from my nose dripping again. I didn't tell Meri and Fina about this, I'm afraid they're worried about Meri and Fina.