Between Certainty and Loyalty

Set-off

From that day on I was a little scared every time I met him I tried to dodge, but Meri and Fina always mocked me and betrothed me to Cloud, they had no idea what had happened, they had no idea what had happened, I also keep it a secret from them. Because of that I sometimes prefer to be with Andi rather than Meri and Fina, at least they and people think we're dating even though the fact is I just diverted Meri, Fina, to be with me, Clouds and princesses.every time Cloud asked Meri and Fina to deliver her letter to me, but I just read not replying to her, she said, if I reply to a letter from Brother Awan I'm afraid Meri and Fina think we really have a special relationship. Meri and Fina sometimes lie to invite me to meet Brother Awan on the request of Kak Awan himself, Meri and Fina pretend to want to be among them to go to the cafeteria, school hall, to the UKS room, the Osis room, and Fina, Library even toilet, at first I do not know but over time he increasingly use Meri and Fina, I'm afraid Meri and Fina were hit by the rampage of the Princess, and it turns out that the Princess also over time found out that Meri and Fina often invite me to meet with the Clouds, The princess thought I was the one who asked to meet when Kak Awan asked Meri and Fina for help to be reunited with me. During the first break Brother Awan left a message on Meri and Fina wanted to see me for the next time, and I only met him a few times and it was accidentally because I lied to Meri and Fina, I still refused the meeting I asked Andi to help me to accompany me if Meri and Fina insist, Brother Awan wants to meet me in the UKS room when he comes home. The bell rang to mark the time to go home from school, Meri and Fina were excited to bring Me and Brother Awan together, I asked Meri and Fina to let Andi come with me, and they agreed. We deliberately waited for friends to go home first, waiting for the quiet school atmosphere so that this meeting was unknown, he said, suddenly from the direction of the door someone came with two friends behind him and looking for me pulled me and pointed his hand at me while talking something unpleasant to hear, she was the Princess and her two friends Siska and Desi. Meri and Fina were shocked suddenly I was accused of being a snatch guy girlfriend, they did not accept me being accused like that and Andi tried to release me from the Princess' anger I just kept quiet without a fight, Meri and Fina have a fight with the Princess and her friend. Meri and Fina did not know that Princess is Kak Awan's girlfriend, Andi ran out of class and called Awan who was in the UKS, Awan also ran with Andi. The clouds tried to stop their fighting and separate Me and the Princess, Clouds also pulled the hands of the Princess and talked to the Princess that she had no relationship or special things the Princess is just a friend in the eyes of the Clouds, and as the son of her papa business friend. The daughter and her friend left our class with a sense of annoyance and anger that still stirred in her heart. The clouds approached me and apologized to me and he felt guilty for everything that happened wrong, I stood up and asked my friends for time to talk to the Clouds, I spoke to him "Brother Awan I ask that you do not have to try to see me again and send me a letter, I am afraid this happens again and my friends are involved, I am afraid that someone will get hurt later" I said to him, "I understand it's all my fault, but I don't have anything to do with him, I'm just an ordinary friend, we're close because our parents know each other and our business partners, that's all" he explained to me. "I don't care if you have anything to do with him or not, it has nothing to do with me, I just assume Brother Awan is my upperclassman, it's nothing more, that meeting brother asked permission to love me but I haven't answered it yet and I'm currently answering, that I refused brother to love me", I was about to leave the classroom and end this conversation but his hand pulled me and prevented me from going out because our conversation was not finished, he stood at the door and held me back from going out, I asked him to sit down and calm my heart. I went out for a while asking that Meri, Fina and Andi go home first, they didn't want to leave me at first but Awan assured us that we would keep Monik fine and that we would take him home. Before returning home, Awan asked Meri and Fina to buy drinks and snacks to the cafeteria, and brought them to Monik, saying that they went home first and asked me to stay with Awan. I asked to come home with the brand but Meri said to solve the problem first can only go home. While carrying the bag I said "I want to go home with Meri and Fina, we've got nothing to talk about anymore, and we're just regular friends nothing more" I asked him to walk me down the door when he suddenly hugged me from behind and said "I don't force you to love me or love me but at least I can force you to be with me right now". I was shocked as he hugged me from behind and tried to untie his hands from my body, but his arms grew bigger and I felt like he was lonely and had a problem. "well I'll sit down and accompany brother not like this, release me brother" I asked him. Brother Awan sat next to me and then he shifted the chair into three rows and then suddenly he put his head on my thighs and said "don't move, I want to sleep for a while" I replied "if you want to sleep at home, we better go home" his index finger touched my lips and said "ssssstttt don't make a noise I want to sleep for a while" I said "just five minutes after that we go home" he closed his eyes over my thighs I was embarrassed to see his handsome face once in a while, "it's been five minutes time passed quickly wake up my thigh big brother's headache is too heavy" I told him, he got up and sat back down next to me and I said "from the beginning my brother and I had nothing to do and nothing would happen, I assume today our problem is over, I apologize and I have forgiven my brother even though he did not apologize to me, I went home first" he replied " when we had nothing to do but friends, we hugged and I slept on your thighs?" I said "we? who's the hug? it wasn't the big brother who was holding me from behind and the big brother who suddenly put his head over my thigh! on what basis did our big brother do it!?" my anger returned to him "I've been twice in the labarak Putri because of my brother, I'm already embarrassed in front of my friends, my friends, I lost and now I regret staying in this room with my brother so much more loss because hugged by brother and sister have slept on my forehead and hold my lips!? it's so rude!!" my anger overflowed on him suddenly he hugged me again and said "now we're hugs" I tried to get out of his arms but he was getting weak hugging me, talking that I loved me and loved me. I wanted to get out of my arms but my legs lost balance and I fell right on top of him, I was more embarrassed and scared, I hurriedly got up and he pulled me and my hand was holding his head and our eyes clashed with each other. I immediately turned my eyes away from his eyes I wanted to hurry home because it was late afternoon I did not want my parents to be angry. He also carried his bag and we went out of class to the school gate to each other's homes, before parting she apologized many times and wanted to keep loving me and want to be like today again, both with you".