
I don't know what this time Rizky felt, seeing Aldo holding tightly the tiny hands of Qila that Rizky had been expecting. It was a pain to see Aldo so close to Qila with no distance at all. If she was holding Qila, perhaps, but not Aldo, Qila comfortably held Aldo's arm.
Indeed last night Angga told Rizky that Qila had rejected Aldo, but how could Qila reject Aldo and now has held Aldo's hand very tightly. It even seemed like they were reluctant to separate from each other his hands.
Even knowing Qila was a friend of his group, Rizky protested because he did not want to add more wounds to his heart by continuing to meet Qila. But all that is nil, Mega ma'am did not give any reason for Rizky to protest.
Honestly Rizky likes Qila, but he is reluctant to ruin his friendship with Aldo, until now Rizky does not talk to Aldo, not hate it just somehow every Rizky saw Aldo there is a strange taste in his heart, disappointed yes Rizky admitted he was very disappointed but again what right to feel it all. There is no right he was angry and even disappointed in Aldo anyway his relationship with Qilapun only limited friends no more.
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Actually today Rizky told Qila to wait for him in the library at 2 o'clock, indeed now the hour has shown at 14:00 But somehow Rizky still kept quiet in the back shop where he and his friends spent time, it feels like Rizky was reluctant to go there, he did not want to see Qila's face which would make it harder for him to get away from Qila. He was reluctant to meet Qila because he did not want to be a barrier between Qila and Aldo.
"Lo don't want him Ky?" asked Angga, indeed Angga always knew all about Rizky because Rizky did not hesitate to always say anything to his best friend Angga.
"Gua doesn't know Ga" said Rizky coldly
"Ky gua knows maybe this is difficult for both of you but the cave has said the same you if Qila nolak Aldo so you do not get rich gini dong Ky. They're not dating Ky trust the same cave"
"Where might he refuse if in fact they are still near Ga. Gua is not sure if the two of them have no relationship" Rizky said as if asking
"Caves...."
"Kasian Ky must have been waiting for you there. Do you want to make a rich child? Wait it doesn't feel good Ky" cut Angga
"Gua knows maybe your feelings that make you rich gini, but if in fact it's not as far harder for what you keep telling him, even the rich luck is not on your side, even, every time you want to stay away from him there must be a barrier that actually makes you more desperate as he Ky. Gua tau is indeed difficult for you to meet him but plis lah Ky you also already mature you also have often dated. You can differ which one is actually dating the same. Gua believes Aldo sana Qila is not dating Ky" explained Angga
True what he said Angga, it seems the situation is always not in favor of Rizky. he really wants to stay away from Qila, but the situation always wants them for both. "Go there kasian he Ky may have been waiting from earlier" said Angga
After weighing long enough Rizky decided to go back to School and go to the Library, right said Angga Qila was already there no matter what he was doing now, covering her face with a book but why did her body shake what Qila was crying over there, Rizky started to approach Qila, she patted Qila's shoulder, she said, at first he was hesitant but he did not want to see Qila like this especially if Qila was crying right now.
"Yes?" call Rizky very slowly
There was no answer, Qila remained with her position.
"Yes?" call Rizky again this time a little louder
Qila began to move from his position and opened his head to look at Rizky, right she was crying even her little eyes now looked very red.
Don't cry Sya, the heart of the cave hurts to squirm your rich inner gini Rizky
"Am I starting now?" qila asked in a voice that was still shaking making Rizky want to hug her soothe Qila who was inexplicably crying. But there's no way Rizky's doing that right now. He did not want to make Aldo misunderstand later.
"Whatever" Rizky replied very coldly
Qila did not answer he chose to stay there.
While Rizky is busy with his thoughts, is it true that Qila rejected Aldo, then why yesterday they looked so close, he said, if Qila refused Aldo there would be some distance between them but not what Rizky saw. They were still the same they could still talk to each other, so Rizky was very doubtful that Qila was right to reject Aldo.
"It's not so I want to go home" said Qila wanted to tidy up his book but at that time Rizky pulled his hand, making the distance between Rizky and Qila closer, honestly Rizky really missed Qila's face, longing for his nose, longing for his bangs that go up and down while talking even misses the ravings of Qila that make Rizky always smile.
Rizky began to release her grip on Qila's hand and chose to neutralize her heart again. Yes, his heart was beating so fast this time.
"Polio paper?" said Rizky cold for some reason even though he missed Qila but that cold attitude that Rizky always let out.
"The cave hasn't bought yet" Rizky said again
"I brought it" said Qila immediately opened the polio paper he had brought.
"Aldo's not angry?" somehow Rizky immediately spoke like that to Qila
"Aldo?" ask Qila
"lya lo's girlfriend?" rizky asked still with her cold attitude
"I...."
"I....."
"Gua does not want to see jealous cave friends because" cut Rizky
Seeing Qila's nervousness makes Rizky more convinced that Qila has accepted Aldo as her lover. If he refuses for sure he will loudly admit but not by now he looks so nervous.
"I'm not dating Aldo" Qila said
You can digress from the cave Sya, but your heart is not inner Rizky
"Where would you like to make the chart?" rizky said to divert the conversation. He is reluctant to discuss the love of others which actually makes it even more crowded.
Qila pov's
Getting such an answer made Qila bow her head, she was eager to explain everything to Rizky but what right? Even Rizky acted as if nothing had happened between Qila and Rizky before. He was like a stranger who came back to Qila. The closeness that they had created like a cravings meant nothing to Rizky.
Qila's eyes hurt again, he wanted to get out of here leaving Rizky who somehow always makes his heart tight lately.
"I'm not going out with Aldo" Qila said again as if he wanted to explain everything to Rizky.
"What cave's the same thing?" rizky's next answer again made Qila sick, it's true Rizky said this has nothing to do with him, inexplicably Qila also spoke like that until now his heart felt tight again.
Qila did not answer he chose silence and entered all his books and then moved from there, not his heart was not strong if it had to linger alone with Rizky.
But as he was about to get out of the Perpus that burly hand pulled Qila into his arms, Rizky hugged Qila very tightly, she said, either because of being carried away by the situation or what was clear Qila also began to return Rizky's embrace, she cried so badly in Rizky's arms even now her body was trembling.
Qila also did not know exactly what Rizky was planning which again and again made Qila feel pain in her heart.
Qila chose silence to feel her heart beating faster again.
Long enough Rizky and Qila were in such a position, until now Rizky began to break his arms and turned to look at Qila.
"Gua apologized to me" said Rizky
Qila did not answer he chose to bow his head.
"Sorry if the cave speech just made you rich in gini" said Rizky again
Rizky pulled Qila's hand towards the table she was sitting on.
"I'm sorry I shouldn't be rich" said Qila this time because he had brought his feelings in schoolwork.
I don't know what will happen next if Rizky is more courageous like Aldo expressed his love for Qila, of course Qila will immediately accept it, but in fact, Qila did not know that maybe Rizky did not really like it because until now there is no feeling that Rizky expressed to Qila.
I was too hopeful for Ky Inner Qila.
"Where do we start?" Rizky's asking is still cold.
"Ky I want to talk seriously with you" said Qila this time.
"You must never cut me off before I finish speaking" Qila said
"I'm sorry if I was too baper before, I was too whiny but I just want to be clear as clearly as you are Ky"
I don't know what was in Qila's mind for sure he just wanted to make everything clear without any misunderstanding between them no more than that.
"Yes yesterday Aldo revealed all his feelings to me. Maybe you know that too, but honestly I don't accept him at all'
"I just don't know why he revealed it all to me so soon Ky when he himself knows if actually we are also close"
"Ah yes but our closeness may be nothing to you. Back to the topic even though Aldo has real love for me but I refuse him Ky. I don't like it when I think he's just a friend"
"Why am I still able to get close to him when I refuse him? Yeah, he asked for that. I apologized to him I was clear why I rejected him and he sorry I, he's not mad at me. He also apologized for revealing all this. He asked me to stay friendly with him. There is no way I refuse his invitation, because honestly I want to add many friends not enemies, ' explained Qila
"This has nothing to do with you at all. But I just want to be clear that it's up to you to believe or not the same explanation I'm sure it's true that's the reality" said Qila again
Qila decided to come out first from the perpus he was reluctant to hear Rizky's answer which would later make him complacent which would actually make him cry, so he preferred to go out first.
But again as he walked along the corridor the hand blocked him the hand brought him all the way to the rooftop.
"Gua apologizes Yes" he said
"Sorry again the cave behaves like a child, the cave just does not want any misunderstanding between us"
"Yes if indeed you accept he cave does not want to make Aldo jealous cave friends let alone disappointed with the cave"
"The guru just wants to keep his feelings. Because honestly jealousy is not good Sya"
His words this time managed to disturb my heart because I also once felt jealous and jealous was very not wearing in the heart.
"The cave does not want the friendship of the cave is also destroyed because of the rich gini thing. The cave has never fought with its own cave friends just because of the problem of girls" he said
Yes who would want to make their friendship destroyed especially maybe because of Qila. I didn't expect all that to happen, if it can be lost from the world Qila also wants to disappear between Rizky and Aldo even Qila also had time to think he should not meet with Rizky if it will eventually happen like this.
"I'm sorry Ky if maybe because of me you are so far away from Aldo, I also don't want this to happen Ky" said Qila
"You don't have to apologize, we're the same. Equally selfish are equally as unwilling to budge and equally immature"
Qila nodded yes even though his heart was still sore but he was a little relieved because he managed to explain everything to Rizky.
Qila knew there might not be any reason for him to explain everything to Rizky but Qila just wanted to straighten out everything that Rizky thought was wrong.