Bad Girl Meet Karma's

24 | Hypocritical Girls

Sebastian Pov

"So how am I supposed to be?" tanya I was confused and a little frutated because their opinions are both different.

Gavin seemed to think. "Jude, the gas continues! Shoot Catherine again, there! You're still in love with Catherine, right? Why confused?" he channeled his opinion.

"Lo sure you're still in love with Catherine? You're not gonna treat him like he used to?" takumi said to make sure, "Honestly, Lex, even though I'm sorry, but I still doubt if you can keep your promise." honestly. It was because he had regarded Catherine as his own sister.

Takumi doesn't want the same thing to happen again, and ends up hurting Catherine the way she used to.

I was silent for a moment, it was only natural that Takumi was hesitant towards me. Because anyway, my treatment of girls was very difficult to accept, and I was also the one who had made their friendship at that time almost extinct.

It all happened because of my own stupidity.

Although the nickname of a jerk is not enough to represent all my actions, but I am determined by all of it. "Gue promised not to do it again" I said while recalling his shadow.

Yeah, I really want to fix it all. I will not repeat the same mistake.

I will promise to treat him as best I can, and will give him as much feelings as possible.

At first, I wanted to forget all about the girl.

Her beautiful and sweet face, her genuine smile that made me feel like I had no need for anything else in the world, and the tears that flowed down his cheeks were able to make me lose my sanity.

But no matter how I can't.

No matter how hard I try, I can't forget it all. Yes, I'm selfish, I admit that. I can do anything and give up everything as long as he can be in my arms.

As I do now, to keep him near me.

"Lex! How to fuck?!" gavin told me from my daydreams.

"Oh, sori. What did you just say?"

"Ck" Gavin chuckled, "Gue said, if you're sincere with Catherine, you're trying there. Wait what else?"

A wry smile was immediately engraved on my face after Gavin spoke like that. Trying said?

To make him sorry I had to lie, to not hear the insults from his mouth I had to beg his father every day, to try to make him care about me is like climbing a thousand stairs.

Impossible.

How am I supposed to try again?

Do I have to die first so he can love me as I used to?

If it could, I would be happy to do it. Anything for him, as long as I can get back to filling his heart and getting a place in his heart.

And, as long as I can see the genuine smile that he throws at me, I sincerely give my life as payment.

But it seems impossible, want me to die or whatever, if indeed he has filled his heart with hatred directed at me,

I can what?

I want to die, it feels useless.

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Catherine Pov's

I am sitting on the sofa in the middle of Sarah's house. Yeah, the girl allowed me to stay in her place.

Good thing the girl was living alone, so I happily stayed over.

I don't know what else to do now. All this stuff, finally I don't have to pretend anymore.

But how do I deal with Giselle tomorrow? Will he be disappointed? Or even he does not want to reprimand me again?

Will everything be the same as usual? Will Giselle hate me? Is he going to move on from that guy? Or does he just want to like that guy?

I don't know, I don't know at all.

Why is everything so complicated? Every problem came to me one by one after that.

And when I get lost in this forest of confusion, why can't I stop thinking about him?

Why couldn't I escape a hug that night? Why can't I get him out of my mind?

Ah whatever, I'd rather sleep pretty first than get back shackled in this endless confusion.

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The next day, I had class. As usual, I went to college, work, and home. Nothing new, right?

I also ordered an ojek online, after a while the ojek I pesen has arrived. A few minutes into the journey, I reached this house.

The garage was attended by a motorbike, which indicated that the man was still at home. Because the door was locked, I rang the bell that was right next to the entrance.

After a while, the host of this house opened the door. And his face was still the same as usual, flat.

"There's something I have to take inside, can I come in?" ask me as calmly as possible.

The guy just let me in without saying a word, and because I didn't want to linger, I went in and climbed the stairs to my room.

After I took what I needed, I walked back outside. But before that, I had a chance to cross paths with him and he said, "Am I really a stranger to you?"

In an instant, I stopped my steps hearing his statement.

"What do you mean?" tanya I try to make him say clearly about the meaning of his words.

And from there I felt a heavy hand curled in my body from behind.

"Gue must how else to dapetin lo?" he said that sounded soft in my ears, I could hear the roar of his warm breath hit my neck.

That tone again managed to make my heart as if slashed. Damn, why when he hit me like I feel so comfortable and safe?

But I have to let go of this quickly, because I'm afraid I can't help myself to stay in his arms.

"Lepasin," said I was full of emphasis while trying to release the decapitation, but he instead strengthened the hold so that I could not take it off.

"Gue said pelein!"

*Toward.*he said makes me not able to do this much longer.

"Why?! Why are you being so gentle now?! Why didn't you like this before, why?!?!"

Uh.

Finally, the awkward feeling that had been in my heart for a long time, now disappeared suddenly.

Even tears of anger mixed with sadness flowed straight from my eyes.

He seems a little jolted because of my sudden words, I can feel it from the arms that are now loosened.

I also found my body turning and ended up facing him, I looked down. However, he instead lifted my chin to look up and look at his face.

"Lo...crying?"

Ah.. Only this time I saw that expression on his face, honestly I was drowning in the sight of his eyes staring at my worry.

To avoid this, I took my eyes off his face.

"Mmphh!"

Before long, I straightened my eyeballs. He kissed my lips. I tried to push the chest of his field to let this kiss slip, but he immediately grabbed both of my hands to stop to push him away.

However, the touch and gentle movements on my lips, make me can not refuse to accept it all and my eyelids became adorable until finally closed perfectly.

Even his hands, which were holding my hands, have now been switched on my back and on my nape.

He tilted his head and pressed my nape even more, as if he didn't want to let this pangutan slip in the slightest.

My tears kept flowing as the gap deepened, I don't know anymore now it's the tears that represent what.

To be sure, I can't resist for every move he's put into this ring.

And, I can't lie, that the feeling that I've buried for so long has re-emerged and peaked in my heart. 

Since there was no sign of him taking this off, I cupped his face with my palm and began to slowly distance his face from me.

At first, he was not willing to let go. But I kept pushing to keep him away slowly.

He began to look at me with a deep look and began to wipe my tears with his thumb.

"Gue please don't cry, I'm going crazy" he said and lowered his face on my shoulder.

I can go crazy, he said.

I think that word is also suitable to describe my current situation. Furthermore, I don't know what basis I even hold it.

Maybe to fulfill something called longing.

I'm a hypocrite, right? In the beginning I confidently told my own best friend, if I might not have this feeling anymore towards this guy.

But at the end of the day, I will never take this taste away from me.

Hey, can I ask you a question?

Why compared to my friend who is sincere in love with you, you even choose a selfish and hypocritical girl like me?

Of course I don't dare to go directly to you.

Because, this selfish and hypocritical girl is afraid of losing you for the second time.