Assalamu'Alaikum, Yes Habibi Qolbi (REVISION)

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"I love you very simply, enough to make you smile happily even though I know maybe your happiness is not because of me.

Because your happiness is my happiness, and vice versa..

your pain is my pain.

I wish I wished for more of you but what power, wish me to you just make you further away from me.

Your presence in my heart is enough to make me happy even though you may be just a guest who stops for a moment until the true heart of the heart comes.

It is enough to keep your name in every prayer so that God knows how much I love you..

And let it be now that I love you myself in my silence, let the rest of God have the right to decide how our story ends..

Though I always wish that your name Allah wrote as my destiny in His Lauhul Mahfudz."

*Al Hafizy Tsaqib Son

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"If my presence near you will only make you hurt, then let me be the one who is hurt because of the distance between us.

To me, keeping your heart from getting hurt is one way I love you, simple is not it..

It's not that I don't want to wish for you but I know very well how painful it is when I wish for something other than Him..

It is enough to keep your name in every prayer so that God knows how much I love you.

And let God determine what our story will be, though I always hope that your name is what God wrote as my destiny in His Lauhul Mahfudz."

* azqiya Hayfa Azzahra

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Zahra's body was shed on the floor with her body leaning behind the bedroom door, her right hand not stopping to press against her chest as tears continued to pour over her beautiful face.

His heart ached to accept this fact but what power he was unable to resist. Because the happiness of his parents is the main thing for him. It may also be true that this man was deliberately sent by God to complete his life, but why is it painful, sick until he is unable to speak.

The wounds inflicted by the choice of his parents were still felt until now, what if he had to get hurt again because of the choice of both parents for the second time?

"Astaghfirullahal 'adzim. forgive Zahra, O Allah. For Zahra has not accepted the destiny you wrote for me.

God, there is no right for me to choose who I want to spend the rest of my life with.

If this is Your choice and my destiny, then create love in this heart for my future priest, and keep me away from him from the one who is now in control of my heart and love."

Zahra rose from his seat and immediately took ablution water because the adhan maghrib had been heard reverberating.

With a flogging heart, he rested on the prayer mat after the Maghrib prayer. Tears that actually did not want him to drop after his prayer after his prayer was back to bloom when the chanting of verse by verse from the sound he knew filled his sense of hearing was clearly heard coming out of the flat object above nightstand.

He deliberately made the chant into an alarm that he installed between Maghrib and his prayer isya'nya. I don't know, it feels cool to hear the chant when completing his maghrib prayer and waiting for his isya'nya time to arrive, but not with the moment. His heart is now getting more painful.

"Did I wish someone a second time too? This is the recompense that God has placed upon me because I have turned back from His love.

Forgive me, O Allah, that it hurts, O Allah."

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Zahra had no idea how Hafiz felt about her so far but as early as possible she had to dispel the feelings that could have grown in her heart at any time because of the closeness of the two. And he was also well aware that a woman who had been preached and received her proposal had to keep her distance from any man, he must respect and appreciate the feelings of men who will justify it. Let him be the one who is wounded himself, for perhaps in this way no heart is hurt by it.

This morning Zahra asked Lintang to pick her up even though they had to go to school using an online taxi because Oom Hendra was also just as busy preparing business papers in preparation for her boss's move to Japan.

No conversation came out of Zahra's mouth or Lintang during their trip to school. Lintang deliberately gave Zahra time to wrestle with her own thoughts because she knew very well how her best friend if the mood was bad, Zahra only needed someone beside her.

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The break bell rang, and some children came out of class. Zahra tidied up a pile of English assignment books belonging to her friends that she had to take to the teacher's room. As class secretary, it is already part of his duties.

"I helped bring ya, Zah."

The voice of someone he memorized very well without having to look at him.

"Thank you, but no. I can take it myself," Zahra replied in a polite tone as she lowered her head and immediately left the man.

"I'm sorry, maybe with the distance between us now is able to dispel the wounds that you might later feel. I don't want you to get hurt any deeper, Hafiz. Due to the fact that I soon belonged to someone else, "the inner Zahra further left the still silent man staring at his back.

"Are you trying to carve the distance between us, Zah. Because of the fact that your heart is already filled with other men. And as if aware of our closeness, you immediately took some distance because you did not want me to go deeper into your heart. Isn't that right, Zah? I just want you to smile happily even if I'm nothing beside you. But please don't push me further than you. Let me be near you to make sure that you are happy even though you are happy not because of my presence," Hafiz said as he looked at the back of the girl who had gotten further away.

"Woy, why Fiz? why even bengong here," asked Gilang who saw Hafiz silently sculpting.

"It's okay, Lang,"

Hafiz tried to dodge and was about to move his legs leaving Gilang but swiftly Gilang held him back.

"Marahan with Zahra?" guess Gilang.

Hafiz exhaled deeply while shaking his head.

"Fiz, don't get too carried away by what's going on between you two. Remember, it is you who said that you will give up all this business to Alla, so let God govern all of it. If indeed the soul mate will not go where, you will certainly be united in a halal bond.

Come on, where's the Hafiz I used to know. Who is always thinking mature and full of soothing and soothing words of wisdom. If you think gini mah you are no different from bucin," said Gilang a little joking.

"You're the bucini. Didn't see Sisil just a day crazy you immediately crumpled."

"Ha. ha. ha. ha. you could have switched the conversation."

"But what do you think, if one day God will unite me with him but his heart is not for me?"

"Patience, Fiz. That's a test for you. But one thing you need to remember is that God turns the heart of man upside down, so pray to the owner of the heart that it falls on you."

"Astaghfirullahal.." Hafiz rubbed his face, feeling reminded.

"You're right, Lang. Thank you, I didn't think you could say this."

"Eits.do not get me wrong. This is the result of 3 years of study with al Hafiz. H. ha. ha. ha..."

Hafiz laughed as he slapped Gilang's shoulder.

"Already, already.let's go to the mosque," asked Hafiz while stepping first.

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