Aminah (Between Ex & Future)

Distrusting

Aminah was busy wrapping up orders from customers, when a woman who had just entered the store called her name.

"Amine...!"

Aminah looked at the face of the veiled woman while remembering, then smiled broadly when she knew who the woman was. The cloth covering the woman's head made Aminah pangling.

"Nita? Is this really you?" Tanya Aminah tried to convince herself that there was no wrong person.

The dimpled woman nodded with a smile on her lips.

Nita was one of the friends who was quite close to Aminah when she was in college. One year after graduation she married and Nita went with her husband. Since then the two have been rarely communicating, then eroded by their respective activities until there is no more news between them.

Now Nita was in front of Aminah. His body looked thin, but his face looked calm and happy, both of them embracing each other, evaporating longs. Because Aminah still had to work, they decided to continue the meeting after the store closed. Aminah had already introduced Nita to Naya.

After work, Aminah went home with Naya. Then drive a motorcycle towards the park, a place that has been agreed to meet with Nita.

"You're married?" Ask Nita.

Aminah shook her head slowly.

"Yet. Pray, yes." Reply Aminah.

"Aamiinu. Hopefully soon found your soul mate. You haven't moved on from that traitor yet." Nita chuckled.

"He's back in town. The news is getting divorced." Reply Aminah and then sip coffee. "You how are you? Husband? The kid?"

Then the two fell silent for a moment.

I heard a breath of Nita.

"I don't have any children yet."

"Sorry." Aminah.

Aminah stroked Nita's skinny arm. Aminah understood what Nita felt, visible from the look of her face that suddenly changed.

Nita turned to Aminah, then smiled.

"Just relax, I'm immune, all right." Her speech.

"Your husband still works where he used to?" Ask Aminah again.

"Yes, he .. is married again." Nita's words sounded slow, but deeply pierced Aminah's heart.

"Huh? Seriously? Go on, you ...."

"We're divorced, so I'm back here." Nita smiled bitterly. "I can't share my heart. I've been with him for almost ten years since dating until marriage. Our love is lost by the reason he is obedient to the parents." Nita.

Aminah breathed a heavy breath. It was heartless to see Nita's current state. True people say, getting married is not about the union of two hearts, but there are many thoughts and understandings that need to be united. Especially family.

"Because .. child, yes?" Ask Aminah.

Nita nodded.

"She's an only child and her parents desperately want grandchildren. While I ... can't give it. We were both struggling at that time, all the alternatives, the best doctors, until the traditional way we have tried. Until finally he started to get tired and I stayed fighting alone. Can it be called a house, if it has only one foundation?" Sissy Nita.

Aminah's eyes began to heat up.

"At that time I was sure we were going to have children and live happily, but I was wrong, Min." Nita looked at Aminah with a sad face. "I was wrong for demanding too much of God to grant all my prayers, but my worship is still so much that even often perforated for reasons tired after examination or therapy. I forgot .. if the child is God's care." Nita.

"Nita...." Aminah clasped her best friend's hand tightly.

Nita started telling stories again, resigned and trying to improve herself. Approaching the Most Giver with all his might. Do not forget to beg for forgiveness and please be strengthened if indeed it is a test for him.

"I am repentant while repenting." Nita.

There were no tears Aminah dripped, when she heard the words that made her heart also hurt. Quickly Aminah rubbed the wet cheeks so as not to make Nita more sad.

"When my heart began to calm down and legowo with the problem of momongan, another test came from my husband's side at that time. His extended family suddenly offered Mas Dika to remarry, bringing with him a myriad of arguments about polygamy and basic reasons, because of the bogeyman. I'm not against it, but I can't afford it either." Nita.

"You know Min. ever since I got married, there's only two hearts I have to take care of. Heart of husband and in-law. What can this orphan girl do? Even my brother never cared about me. I was desperately guarding their hearts, but they seemed to have forgotten that the son-in-law and the wife of the child also had a fragile heart. There is no place like a child that will complain to parents when they are hurt. I'm alone Min ...." Isak Nita began to sound.

Aminah stroked Nita's back slowly.

'When you feel alone. Remember that God is always with the prejudices of His servants. Approach and bang on the door of the sky, do not just knock but bang hard with your prayers and repentance. God never disappoints His servant, for we ourselves are created. Too dependent on fellow humans, to forget that all is a deposit that can be taken at any time without your permission'

In that instant I immediately cried, roared for forgiveness for what I asked for, but not balanced with His commandments that I often left behind." Nita said at length.

When Nita said that, Aminah's heart also shook.

"Slowly I began to improve my worship, then put on the hijab after permission with my husband. At that moment the test came. Including releasing my husband who is also only the care of God." Nita.

The tears of Aminah are no longer contained. Aminah hugged Nita tightly.

'Unable to feel if I was in that position.' inner Aminah.

Aminah thought getting married would be as beautiful as it looks on the screen, social media, and the stories she reads. Aminah thought marriage was fate to meet someone until the end of life, but she was wrong. Aminah forgot, if the rest of the world is just a deposit, which can be turned back and forth and taken at any time by Him.

Tonight, Aminah asked for permission from Pak Haris and Bu Wati to stay at Nita's rental and promised to go home early tomorrow.

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Next morning...

The motor had just entered the courtyard of the house, but Dani's voice was already coming in and out of his ear.

"Where have you been? I waited all night for news from you. Your number is inactive Dan ... Oh God. Your ma-ta, what's wrong with your eyes? You're out of brawls?"

Aminah had just turned around to face Dani. Last night Aminah turned off her phone and cried a lot after telling Nita, then fell asleep.

"Well, you're okay, right?" Dani approached and looked at Aminah closely, as if examining her face whether anyone was hurt or not.

"Hmm" replied Aminah while sitting on the porch of the house and taking off her jacket and shoes.

Aminah took a deep breath, closed her eyes for a moment, and looked at Dani who was standing in front of her.

"Why did you suddenly appear again in my life? It was clear you were leaving me." Aminah.

Dani, who had been standing quietly in front, was now sitting next to Aminah, a table away.

"Because I love you so much, I once made a mistake by leaving you, but now I won't." Reply Dani.

Aminah smiled knot.

"You're not ashamed to say that. You left and now you are back. You're even spouting the same love you once betrayed." Aminah.

"I've apologized for the mistake I made with you. Though I know it must be hard for you to forgive me. But I promise that I will make up for all those mistakes by making you happy." Said Dani.

Aminah looked at Dani briefly and let out a long sigh. When going to reply to Dani's words, suddenly there was a roar of a motorbike engine that he was very familiar with.

'Rendi?'

Sure enough, the next second saw a man in a black jacket stop in front of Aminah's house. He took off his full face helmet, looked at Aminah with a smile and the smile slowly faded as his gaze moved to the figure of the blue-tinted man next to Aminah.

They were staring at each other with a difficult look.

"Waaahh early in the morning there are many guests." The door opened, followed by Mr. Haris.

"Lho, there is a prospective 1st ghost and a prospective 2nd ghost. Waduh, waduh, I'd like to have this soul mate contest, Ra."

"Good morning, sir." Rendi greeted as she walked towards Mr. Haris.

When it was close, suddenly out of nowhere came, the figure of Rizal the young man called crocodile oeh Aminah appeared and instead broke through first, and then broke through, precede Rendi even Dani who is close to Mr. Haris.

Rizal then grabbed Mr. Haris' hand and kissed him quickly. He stood his back to Dani and Rendi who were gawking.

"Good morning, Mr. Bray. What style of sleep did you sleep in last night?" Rizal asked as he continued to hold Mr. Haris' hand.

Rendi turned towards Aminah with a confused looking look. Aminah just shrugged both shoulders at the same time.

"Well, now the number 3 ghost candidate is coming too. Did anyone bring anything this morning? Hmmmm... At least vegetable porridge, chicken porridge or what's to make breakfast menu." Said Mr. Haris.

'Hadeh, there will certainly be a lot of drama again after this.' inward Aminah.

Seriate....