Allow Me to Feel Tired

Happy Meetings.

"Why do mothers and uncles cry?"

"There's nothing, baby." Fia invited Abian to sit with her.

In a confused state, Abian looked at Fia as well as Abi's face. There was something that made him wonder, why the two adults in front of him were stripping in a strange manner.

"Abian still want to know who and also the face of the father, son?" Ask Fia.

"Hem, isn't her father busy anymore? When can Bian meet with dad?" So excited when she heard Fia say that.

Breathing out for her to calm down, Fia smiled at Abian. For a moment he looked at Abi's face, which shook his head at Fia. The man felt that he did not deserve to meet his son under these circumstances, let alone Abian growing up without a father figure by his side.

"Let's see Mother, what would Bian do if he met my father?"

"Bian wants to hug and tell a lot of stories with dad. And also Bian wants to show Bian's friends, if Bian's father is back."

"Bian misses father, Bian's face just doesn't know bun." Drooping down, Bian stared at the floor.

The more heartbroken and feeling Abi at that time, hearing from the mouth of his own son who missed him. How bad he is that he has allowed his wife and children to fight for themselves to survive.

Fia confirmed Abian's position, until he looked directly at Abi. Fia deliberately did just that, so that they could face each other.

"Dian want to see Dad?" Fia asked that back, so that her son would be sure.

The little boy nodded his head, it is true that he misses the figure of a father very much. Abi's eyes were already teary hearing Fia say that, he really missed his soulmate too.

"Bian's father is in front of Bian."

Bian's eyes opened wide, as if he could not believe what Fia had said to him. Then he looked at Abi so closely, realizing that the face of the adult man was so similar to his.

With hesitation, Abi nodded his head. Justifying what Fia has said. As always, when we meet the people we miss. Embracing and hugging her was common, but not with this.

"Aragh!" Abi crowed as the small hand pinched both of his cheeks.

"Abian!" Panicked Fia who found her son pinched Abi's cheek quite hard.

The small smile was engraved from the plain face of the boy, wanting to get angry but it was all gone when he saw his smile.

"Sorry mother, Bian gemes the same face of his uncle. How come it looks like mom, Bian has a rival." Answer plain Abian with his manner.

So bad Fia felt with Abian's attitude, but it made Abi happy. He also talked to his son, like a father to his son. Fia pulls herself to be with Grandma Ida, they both witness two men of different ages are cool chatting.

"Think well son, don't put selfishness in us that makes others hurt." Nek Ida told Fia.

Listening to the words of Grandpa Ida, made Fia realize a meaning of happiness in their small family. But there was something very hard in Fia's heart, but she still held everything back.

"Wrong if I prefer this feeling Grandma? Everything still remembered was obviously so painful, wanting me to forget the pain."

"Son, if we think only of pain. Forever we will not feel what is called happy, because everything will be covered by that feeling. Try to make peace with everything son, there is Abian that you must consider good bad. And one more message grandma, do not lie to yourself. "

Understanding what Nek Ida said to him, made Fia reflect on everything. He looked back at the two men of different ages, and tears flowed to see the two laughing together. Abi realizes Fia's gaze to him, and then he invites Abian to bring him to Fia.

"Fi, would you like to start all over again with our mom and son?"

Fia looked at Abi with a sad look, she was so happy to see her son meet her real father.

"Sorry, I can't answer everything right now. Give me some time."