Aira And Aria
12. Dear Diary—Note Aira
Sunday, August 12th
From tomorrow, I'll be a high school boy. Honestly, I was still afraid and wanted to run away if I could. But Lord Sisters sent me a message. He said it's a good opportunity for me to start a new chapter. The words of Brother Dewa always managed to give me a little courage. Even though I don't know if tomorrow I can still be as brave today?
Monday, August 13th
Ospek's first day was busy. Gotta get up early, bring a lot of stuff, and a lot of fierce-faced senior brothers in front of the school gates. Ospeknya smooth anyway, I also do not admit mistakes. But, somehow I just got angry with my upperclassman because he hit her constantly. I'm scared, but more scared because I haven't been able to apologize properly.
Friday, August 17th
It just so happens that today new children have a job to make love letters. I'm sure I'm going to write to a sister I don't even know whose name it is. Not a love letter, more properly called an apology letter. I hope he accepts yes.
Saturday, August 18th
On the last day of this ospek I have managed to give a letter that I wrote to a brother who I still do not know his name. I am so ashamed of my time. You see, I heard from the friends that he was one of the famous upperclassmen. I hope my letter is not lost on him. He must have received a lot of letters from other people as well.
Monday, August 20th
Who would have thought that the sister I hit accidentally went to the bus to meet me? I don't know why he bothers. But clearly, I know that his name is ARIA. I was surprised because our names are similar.
I thought he was a fierce upperclassman, but he was a soupy guy. He's not even lazy to talk to me. I did not think that my first friend in High School was not a student of one class.
Saturday, September 1st
Very cool, I met with Aria more and more. He also goes to the library every hour of rest. Sometimes bring me the same food drinks. There are no writings on eating and drinking. But he said as long as it's not caught, it's okay.
I don't know why I feel like my days as a high school kid are fun. I almost forgot all the things that scared me. Now, I'm not worried about any of that.
Monday, September 3
I'm getting bored with the library. So, I deliberately went to school until I finally knew that beside the building there was a small garden. It turned out that the place was very comfortable to use for rest and painting. I decided that it would be my second secret base.
But I had forgotten about Brother Aria who usually found me in the pylus. I didn't even realize he was perfect for me. I don't know what the story is, but he was suddenly near me when I was painting again. I was embarrassed when Aria knew my dream was to become a painter. I thought he was going to play, but he praised me. It made me feel excited again. Even Kak Aria up to the story of his dream bolt became an astronaut. Only now do I meet people who have such cool dreams.
Friday, September 7th
Today suddenly got really bad. Worst since I went to school. When I came home, there was a 12th grader who called me. Though he looked good, to the point that I would be dragged to the warehouse behind the school. I never felt I made any mistakes. But it turns out he said he did not like to see me with the same grandchildren, Aria.
I don't know who he is. Is he probably Aria's boyfriend?
Wednesday, October 10th
For a few days I did not rest in the perpus or the side garden. I saw it like Aria's sister wanted me and wanted to fight. But my feet immediately spontaneously moved. I was so afraid that my older brother who hit me was angry again. In fact, I'm starting to feel lonely.
Thursday, October 11th
Brother Mira who at that time found me, today angry again. I don't even know what I'm doing. I've made a long way for Aria. But he said Aria's sister still nyep aja nyariin me. Though I also want Kak Aria to go all the way. But Mira still does not want to understand.
Tuesday, October 16th
I was really shocked by Brother Aria who suddenly appeared in class and pulled me to the park. There he meant I didn't stay away from him. I want to be honest about everything there is. But I think it will make Aria feel guilty.
Truthfully, I also can't stand having to keep Kak Aria. I miss talking to Aria. All of her stories about her dreams. To the extent that I did not think that all of it managed to defeat my fear of Brother Mira. I thought, It doesn't matter if you have to feel pain rather than lose it
kayak Kak Aria's.
Thursday, October 18th
Brother Mira again found me. Maybe he couldn't get angry until he hit me so many times. But somehow I just don't have the same problem all because it's normal. A little unexpected because I actually feel much braver than usual. Sister Mira talked a lot and kept on ramming me. But I choose not to give any response.
Friday, October 19th
Today I became more courageous until I did not refuse when Kak Aria went to the cafeteria. Though my feelings have begun to feel bad because it could be Kak Mira and her friends there. And it turns out my guess is right. Even he deliberately came close to just making me feel depressed. I don't know why my hunch tonight is that I'm going to get my punishment back from him.
Sunday, October 28th
A few days back, I lost my spirit. Even writing a diary feels inadequate. I felt ordinary when I suddenly realized I was in the hospital. But I was more afraid of my father's reaction afterwards. And it turned out to be my gut feeling, she must have wanted to do something right away. From earlier he insisted on moving me to another school that was even out of town.
I am grateful that there is now a God Brother who cemented me. So I don't have to be scared alone. But this time, I still can't feel calm. Because I really don't want to move to a new place that will be foreign to me. Because I know that there will be no Aria.
Brother Dewa even tried to persuade father, but did not succeed. Until whenever I can never persuade dad. Maybe because you don't care about me.
Is it time for me to start sleeping, Aria?
Does this mean I should start dreaming my dreams too?
