About Miss

Definition of Dating

my day is still the same, undergoing activities as usual, with the hustle and noise created, leaving a trail on the froths of the beach, the beach,

he recorded all the processes of life in the waters, carried away by the currents to meet the waves that raged in the middle of the ocean, until he felt tired and then stranded on the edge, recording all the images he tried to understand until nature finally turned it into beach foam that was blown by the wind towards the land and disappeared before he could understand the story he had passed.

Sad “I don't want to live as sad as God” muttered in my heart while still staring at the sky and wait for Appa's return.

“sa what are you” suddenly heard the sound of Appa memorizing me

"Appa’ Appa is home? Ko I did not see the passing, I was waiting for Appa here” I was amazed because I did not realize Appa's return

“do you think Appa to the sea rose a bird so his way from above? Yes how will you

looking at Appa wong from earlier Appa see you look up just” Appa try to explain.

“gitu ya pa, heheh iyah Appa sorry I did not engeh” I answered Appa's explanation with a crybaby because of shame.

“Appa don't shower and eat first?” I asked Appa, though,

“Appa already ate, if the new Appa bath is finished, wong Appa already nyampe about 30 minutes ago, you are suddenly amnesia or how sa?” replied Appa again while teasing me,

“hah seriously Appa? 30 minutes? Ko can I do not loveh yes, I'm from earlier ngapain” I was astonished at myself

“dihhhhh Arsa you sehatan sa” while holding my forehead and laughing Appa back mocked me.

“Appa ihhhh” ogoanku disease instantly crumpled, Appa embraced and patted my shoulder.

“Appa 3 more days my Olympics start” I switched the conversation,

“wahh soon dong, then how

preparations?”,

“preparation is yes so pa” I sighed while rendering to Appa,

“the spirit of learning, if others try to start from zero, then you must be ready to start everything from a minus state, with circumstances like this natural if you feel more tired than others, then you must be ready to start everything from a minus state, it's a risk if we have a dream bigger than our current state, we should try extra” more

Appa is back to encouraging me.

“iyah Appa, but is it not excessive if we have dreams that are beyond such capabilities?” I was in a dilemma on my own

“indeed you are able to measure the ability that is in yourself if you can try to mention how the formula is?” what answers my question with a confusing question.

“entah” I shook my head while staring at Appa.

“now Appa asks, if it rains and then you try to hold the water as much as 1 bucket, you will know the contents of the bucket is less or excess after the rain falls or before the rain falls?” again Appa gave me a lot about life

“after the rain came down Appa” I replied by trying to understand the intent of Appa's question

“nah so what can be measured is the result or the ability of God to reduce how much rain?” what further asks

“listen to Appa, overdone or not,

whether or not your dream is a result, you can then count and calculate, but in the process, your efforts, strength and abilities come from God through you, can not immediately judge it as excessive or not, nothing is certain in this world except death, therefore keep your belief in what you believe, as long as it is good and does not harm others” Appa again planted an important point in my life.

“well Appa I understand” I nodded my head at the advice Appa gave

“by therefore good study, should be more careful, thorough, keep humble, and remember

to pray” Appa added

“well Appa” I smile nodding assenting Appa's message,

my confidence increased, my confidence rose, maybe actually from there the source of my strength so far, confident, confident and willing to try, until I was able to menorah some achievements so far.

From childhood I always think excessively, consider all good things are obligations, including in education, since entering Primary School I have always got the first rank in my class, from the beginning of grade 2 of elementary school, while my other friends were competing to get a grade in class to be rewarded by their parents, to be granted all their wishes, new toys, new bicycles, new bicycles, take a vacation to a faraway place.

but I felt that getting the first rank when the 1st grade the year before was a disaster. how not, every time the rapot division and rank announcement in my heart class felt like an earthquake, the dagdigdug like colliding with each other, like, each other, my mind floated imagining what reason I would give Appa and Mom if my rank dropped, how I would face my family if that happened, where I would save my face later, messed up, messed up, crumpled like a tangled thread.

Until in the end when I got my grade announcement good, my ranking did not go down my feelings just turned to mediocrity, not to be happier, or amazing, just be more grateful because God still loves me so I don't have to think of a reason when the way home to school later.

No dining, no gifts, no sightseeing or holidays, just question “how is it worth?”, “can rank?”, “good then”, good then, what good is it?, appa's attitude and nature is not always crowded and attention as often told so far if that's the only nature and attitude owned by my parents, he said, then where do I inherit this cuek and jutek attitude.

“sa tomorrow Appa will go sailing for a few days, it's okay Appa is not home when you undergo the Olympics?” Appa asked me

actually I'm quite claustrophobic but what I want to say is already a must for Appa as the head of the family

“lmm iyah Appa, Appa is fine,

be careful, take care of your health, eat do not be late, and go home safely” I hold Appa's fingers

“ready, when Appa comes home later you have got the announcement of the Olympic results, right? Hopefully your results do not deny your efforts yes sa” what re-energize me

“hopefully Appa”

I replied while trying to keep smiling in front of Appa.

“oh iyah by the way was actually doing what, not to realize the things around you like that?” Appa was curious about what I did before

“ohh earlier, earlier I intended to wait for Appa, sit on these rocks, while feeling the wind, see the cloudy sky, observe nature deh pokonya, while feeling the wind, after that I saw the beach foam that flew close

my face, then my imagination like being carried away by that foam on a passage of time, after that do not know anymore, forget I did and thought about what, then Appa called me udah” I tried

explain

“sa sa, you are yes, that is what sometimes makes Appa confused when the crowd who call you smart or something, wong original this is your behavior, this is what you do, your mother also often said that you often forget the things that clearly you yourself did” Appa doubted my cleverness, but I couldn't defend myself because what Appa said was true.