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Tonight the sky is dark just like no light can be seen up there, but the universe knows, there are always stars scattered that want to continue to be viewed from under the sky

these.

“already quite berkandanya let's eat first mother has prepared food” mother came to end my match with Appa, “baik bu” replied I agreed to mother's invitation, we rushed to the dish that I have prepared, we rushed to the dish that I have prepared,

there's nothing special on that menu

make it, but it is more than enough to be grateful as a favor that God has given.

“sa finished his meal, after which Appa wanted to talk” Appa ended his dinner and went to the front porch of the house as usual to turn on a friend of his life.

“well ppa, Appa remembers enough ¼ only to be abu” I replied and returned

reminding Appa, he only returned with a dubious smile,

to be honest I am not a woman who is anti-smoking, because it has become a part of Appa's life, I understand it will be very difficult if you ask him to stop immediately, just like that, occasionally I reminded Appa not to overdo it.

Finish eating I help mom clean up and wash her dishes “bu dishes have been washed, I went to Appa first ya”, mother idle while putting my adek to sleep.

Tonight the rain just fell without thinking where it will come down, without having time to ask where it flows, without having a chance to care if it should disappear by itself.

Back I look at the dark sky tonight “what does the sky reveal if it is already unable to be dammed, I understand, I understand you, there is no harm in being sad just if you are tired, I understand, but I'm sorry I couldn't hold you” I muttered back

chatting with the universe and the universe, a strange habit that has always been a material ledge Appa.

“sa sit here” Appa's voice breaks my imagination. “iyah Appa, what's up?”,”Appa just want to chat, it's been a few weeks since Appa came home when you were asleep” I walked over to Appa and sat next to him

“saaa, it's been quite a long time Appa noticed you so rarely socialize with people around here, why? the last time Appa saw you could be familiar with them before you entered SLTP, do not just because you already have a new environment so leave the people around you, this is long enough sa, sa, Appa reminds you of

joking but this time Appa tried to talk seriously with you” did drop a pretty serious question on me

“Appa, I don't mean to keep my distance from anyone, I'm just getting more and more claustrophobic about constantly succumbing to how they behave, how they talk and how they treat others, the more I tried to get inside the more I felt foreign, the more I felt different from the rest Appa, the more confused I had to behave, how, plus I'm more and more disinterested in knowing how they judge our family, so I'd rather hang out with the universe and the universe, then, sorry Appa if I'm wrong” I looked down with a million confusions towards myself but again

Appa just smiled.

”Appa I can ask?”, “katakana” Appa replied to me,

“Appa, is our situation all this time it's just engineering Appa, is, is actually Appa a conglomerate that pretends to be poor or actually that Appa has a legacy from grandfather who will not run out 7 derivatives, try to say honestly Appa?” I asked Appa questions, and you know, Appa just laughed while saying “sa are you dreaming? Why are you asking such silly questions?” Appa asked while not stopping the tank.

”lantas if not so why do some people scoff at us, what is so great Appa, what Appa has that they feel jealous and dislike for us? Back I shower Appa with questions,

“sa heard Appa, their right to judge how we are, our job is to do good and not hurt anyone, we will not be able if we have to make everyone like us, he said, but what you have to make sure is bad talk

about you don't try to do it, let it just be a comment and not a fact, understand what Appa means? and if you ask what Appa has, Appa is great enough to have you, said you daughter Appa” he replied while trying to make me calm.

“you understand very well how your family sa, how your mother and sister, Appa hope from now on and for the future you will be much wiser in acting, more mature in making decisions, and more mature in making decisions, because someday there will be a time when you have to be more patient, you who must be more mature than your other brothers even

your own mother, even if you may say it, Appa trusts more in your maturity than your mother because you are Appa”'s daughter

Appa added to his statement

while anchoring her caress in my head, I fell silent while still staring at the sky and

thinking of the message Appa just delivered.

Who do I often think I am? A girl who just occupied the 2nd grade of the SLTP bench had to think that far, had to be that mature by being Appa's assistant as the leader of a small family and his extended family, my body may be

it will be fine, look at my heart, feelings and how mental I am, what am I? Why do I always feel like I'm different, and only Appa understands me, only Appa can make me open and honest with myself, a thousand times I complain about myself, she said, sometimes I feel like a normal kid, but not infrequently I feel like I'm someone who

having to take responsibility for so many people, the mother of what is near me including nature, as if my shoulders were burdened with responsibilities that I do not understand, but again and again Appa only answered “because you are Appa”'s daughter.

“Appa I passed the regional level olympic selection, from science and mathematics I chose math” I spoke to divert the conversation with Appa “wawahhh great daughter Appa, if so learn more vigorously again, when is the time?” Appa asks back “2 more weeks pa, pa,

starting tomorrow special guidance so it is likely to always go home late” I replied at once ask permission “oke then now rest already night” Appa leads me inside and directs me to sleep.

Tonight time passes with my body and my sense of being, though I never know what, who, why and how I am, can I be one from a different life? My imagination drifted through the dark clouds, the roar of the waves so fierce that it led me to the rain that night.