About A Taste

Must Strong!

Yesterday there was still Anisa who accompanied the communication. This time it felt very quiet. Since marriage, Umi also rarely calls to ask for help. If you take the initiative there, Umi more often ask to return home.

"Don't leave your husband Ndok, accompany him, if you're here to be lonely. If Aibil is no longer in the room and the home business is finished, then you can play here," That's what Umi ordered.

Why am I at home if there's no conversation at all. I always start the conversation. It was answered with just two words.

Like tonight, after returning from Mas Aibil mosque immediately busy with his book. While me? Of course, I am a liar of the Quran. In fact, my dream with Anisa was not much different. Want to ignore the Quran every day by listening to Kang Husband. Ututuu...

I finished the traffic after seeing the wall clock showing at 12:00 in the morning. I see, Mas Aibil has fallen asleep in bed. I don't feel like I've spent too long. Even my husband didn't rebuke me for reminding me that it was too late.

I replaced mukena with a scarf. More comfortable to sleep. I did not show my hair at all, which Anisa said was very beautiful to my husband. Not that I don't want to, just that I want Mas Aibil to ask for it himself. Even a week from the wedding, she hasn't touched me at all. He seemed to avoid every time I would have a casual conversation with him.

Our bed was also capped by a roll. I want to sleep hard. So that I can get past that barrier unconsciously. Wake up hugging or hugging the man. But why never? In my entire life, I never crossed that line. As for Aibil, he slept as if he were dead. His sleeping position did not change at all. Sleep with that position, wake up with that position. Wonder me.

To cross the line with my conscious state, still not mental enough. I don't dare. Just looking into his eyes I didn't dare. Cerems... Where attitude. Sweet before entering this room at the reception? Gone! Vanished out! Just like that. We also held each one. What's the matter exactly, that guy?

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"I'm sleepy, I'm going to sleep,"

"I am again a book of tadarus, discussed later yes,"

"I'm called Abah,"

There's always a reason to ask questions. Today he stayed for 3 days. Take Abah away. He must be happy that he doesn't have to make excuses anymore.

Okay fine! I will discuss this seriously during the pilgrimage journey. Anisa said, will give a lot of time to be alone with Mas Aibil. Both of those times, I have to use it to the best of my ability.

Okay fine! I don't feel lonely even though there's no Mas Aibil. There he is I am lonely too. I am immune to the word loneliness. In this way, aky can be satisfied playing to ndalem. Talk to Umi. Fortunately, Umi never mentioned the state of my household. If I offend, I don't know what to answer. I would not lie, I did not dare. Afraid cursed.

Honestly, it would be nice to say this mouth to Mother, Umi, Kak Yusuf, about the state of my new family. But, I was afraid if I could not see their disappointed and sad faces later. Let me feel the pain. I've got to make an effort. Don't cry Wardah! Just two weeks married, I complained.

Comeing! Rise up. You can definitely hold on. Until when I can survive. I don't know either... 😢

Seriate....