A Will From Mama

C-50

(✿^^) NABILA (◕ ⁇ ◕✿)

I am happy to be married to Mas Gilang. He always cared about me and was kind. If I ask for help he will help me.

But not with today. In college I attended an organization called Kopma. In this organization there are 4 communities.

I'll go up to the second semester. Must follow the activities organized by the organization I follow. After following this activity. I can get into the community that is in the kopma.

If I don't come, then I'll be considered resigning from kopma. I don't want to get out of Kopma. I got a lot from this organization. And I also want to join the community in kopma.

Inevitably I had to convince the goldfish to allow me. Because each participant is given a circular for permission to their respective guardians. And each participant must also get permission from the guardian. By submitting a letter that has been given by the committee with the signature of the guardian.

I see Gilang is busy with his work. Because it's the end of the month, so we have to look at this month's report and hand it over to the central hospital, more precisely to papa.

"You why the deck. There's something wrong with the mas, or you want something." asked the cross who did not take his eyes off the laptop

I approached the gilang and prayed that this time it would work. I stood beside the Gilang.

Because mas Gilang always do his work in the room. So he prepared a table for her. Although in this house there is room for him to work. But he prefers to be in the room, watching over me.

"Mas Permissionin I participate in this activity yes.." I said with a tone that I made as soft as possible.

"If you go, who will take care of the mas at home. And who will take care of you." asked mas gilang who is still focused on his work

"As it is already big, it must be possible to take care of yourself. And I can take care of myself too. I don't go alone, a lot of friends are coming."

Suddenly he pulled me. Yes I fell down, but calm down I didn't fall on the floor. Because I pulled him to sit on his lap. Isssh mode, really not.

"Isssh why the heck pull.." said I was upset and tried to get up but mas Gilang even hugged me tightly.

"Don't move much, if you don't want anything else to happen."

"Take me off... I'm heavy"

"No, why do you want to leave the mas alone" asked mas gilang in a sad tone

"My activity period is only 3 days, after which my friends and I will return again."

"Stay you'll leave the mas alone at home."

"Why mas became like this, I used to say to allow me to continue my education and not forbid me to follow the activities I want" I said with a slightly disappointed tone

Well I'm disappointed in Gilang. In the past when he was going to marry, he said he would allow me to continue my education and not forbid me to do the activities I wanted. He will also allow me to enjoy my youth like my best friend.

But now what, he didn't keep his word. Speech alone is not kept let alone his promise so far. It was so disappointing, sad, and scared to be one.

I was disappointed, because. Gilang could not keep his words.

I am sad because I cannot be like my other friends. They are free to choose what they want. They are also free to play with who and go where.

I was afraid, because the words alone could not keep Gilang, let alone the promises that he had promised to me. What if one day he breaks that promise.

I don't know why after my words. Silence came to us. My mixed feelings and my soon-to-be eyes will drop water.

Before the water fell I immediately tried to escape from the Gilang mas. After I got out, I went out and went to another room. I don't want to be with Gilang for now. I want to be alone.

I went into the guest room below. Indeed, this room is usually used for my friend or friend mas Gilang if staying overnight. So this room is clean. I locked the door from the inside.

I sat on the bed, all my tears came down. A few regrets and mixed feelings made me like this.

I want my old life. I want to be like my best friend. I want to go wherever I want. I want to enjoy my youth.

At first I tried hard to accept this marriage. I followed all the messages of mother, father, Abah and also ummi who advised me how the household life. And whatever my duties are.

But today, seeing that all my friends have obtained permission. As for me from a few days ago I did not get permission. Many times I tried to convince them. But what, he stays with his stance.

Several times Gilang knocked on the door and tried to apologize. But I don't care about him.

"Dek open the door, let's talk about this. Let's go in."

"Sorry, open this door and let's talk about it. "

And many more said an mas Gilang so I want to open this door. But I wanted to be alone, I went to the bathroom that was inside this room. I wash my face, and I take ablution water to make myself calmer.

After the bathroom, I went back to bed. I lay down my body, and I try to sleep. And forget what happened tonight.

Mas Gilang is still trying to talk to me.

Next day

As usual, I prepared all my needs and I lost them. When all is done, I'm going downstairs. Because I have to go to college soon.

Today I have to submit my permit. Each participant must collect it back.

This time I had breakfast first. I still refuse to meet with Mas Gilang.

"Morning. "gilang mas greetings are neat.

"..."

"I'm sorry, don't shut up like this."

My food was gone, I went to the kitchen. I washed the dinnerware I used.

"Mas I left first." I said to go to the gold mas and crucify it

"Sit down for a second, let's talk about this first. It's not that this letter you should gather today."

"Hem.." I sat down next to Gilang.

"I'm sorry for your attitude. Because you also can't be like your friends. Which they can enjoy their teenage years. But you are stuck with this marriage. Forgive me for not being able to occupy the mas's speech."

"Here it is, what has happened let it happen. We can't change her. Where's the letter, I have to get going."

Mas Gilang took out a letter from his briefcase.

"You really want to participate in this activity."

"Back with me, I have to leave immediately."

"Jawab the question first, and then I'm back."

"Yes, I want to do that activity. Where's the letter."

"Wait a minute"

Mas Gilang was looking for something in his bag he was looking for a pen. It turned out that he was looking for a pen to sign the permit. I can't believe it, but Gilang finally let me.

"Why did you sign it, didn't you last night you didn't want me to go"

"Here you go, you'll be late. Be careful on the road and if there is a problem tell us. "

"Thank you, I've allowed me to attend the event" I said while hugging the Gilang mas

"Sama-sama, leave gih."

"Yes, I'm leaving first. Assalamualaikum.." I said after crucifying Gilang.