" SUDDENLY BEING ARROGANT "

"Fragile Overnight"

Walking alone in the loneliness, I just want me to go back to how I used to be, happy with my dad and my mom who were complete even we were all happy back then.

I kept hoping and always hoping that I would experience back then,now that my heart is broken tonight I want to be devastated and drowned in solitude and do not want all those beautiful things to go from my life.

"THE BLIND LOVE of the old bandit had brought a void in my happy little family back then."

I have to learn and learn to forget all the burdens in my heart that have broken a piece of my heart that hurts so much when I remember my father's cruel and labile deeds.

I don't know if I'm gonna vent my emotions right now,I hate so much the fate that befalls my life and the people I love I hope one day I will rise again from this deep wound.

It hurts so bad it's my day not being able to see the world in the future.

All my friends even want me to forgive my father's mistakes that have hurt my mother, I know my mother is very hurt but she still survives without tears in front of us her children.

With great difficulty my mother accompanied my father from nothing but what happened now father has gone to find young leaves to have fun and forget all the sacrifices of my mother who I consider to be an angel who always guides, always,taking care of me was always there for me when I was fragile and desperate.

"Hey Dek again did not really serous from earlier that face brother saw like he was thinking something that is not good to be hearted."Brother Marco came and sat down next to me.

"It is not good we keep hatred in the heart, brother hope adek want to open the heart for brother let's deck tell all the turmoil that is natural to brother, brother,brother is not an expert but you can love a solution that makes the heart of the only sister calm and make peace with her own adek heart.

Don't burden all those feelings in the heart of pity can be hurt deeply."Marco's brother said at length.

"If you want to shopping say to brother let brother drop to the mall to be able to forget all the emotions buried in the heart adek."Sis Marco continued again who was not satisfied with my situation that did not pay attention to him anymore.

"Adek, here see the handiwork of a very special brother can treat adek liver that is again upset."Suddenly Kak Gian appeared and followed our nimbrung ma both on the front porch of the house.

"Lazy brother, this evening adek want to be alone and do not want to be disturbed by anyone including the two brothers please deh understand the feeling adek now. " Say said as she continued to stare closely at him tonight.

"Well if you want to cry call Kak Gian or Kak Marco?"Marco said as he peeked at Esy's head and passed into the guest room and into his mother's room.

"Mrs...!!"Call Kak Gian while carrying the painting he made earlier.

"What's wrong with that?"Mom from inside her room.

"Look at this mak Gian can paint our togetherness at that time."Said Gian while showing the work of his hands to mama Barbara.

"Dear this is so good how about on display in our living room alone."Bid Mama Barbara with a smile but I was sure the smile was wrapped in deep wounds that only mama herself knew about everything I experienced.

Actually as the firstborn I was also very hit with my father's behavior but after all I should not look fragile because I am the backing of this family.

However, I must be as strong as steel that does not waver in the heat of fire and remain strong in the lunge of the storm and not waver in the wind tornado though.

I know as a good and loyal mother my mother is a noble woman who never neko neko asks for something with her husband.

My father was so guilty of hurting our wingless angel.

One day you will experience the worst in your heart.

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I was so lost in my daydreams, tonight when I thought about what happened a few days ago this heart really felt very sick and fragile.

I can't seem to face this cruel life I don't even want to see the face of my father who has hurt my mother who is so loyal to him.

Because of this I became seriously afraid of Mas Ray, even though he seemed to love me very much but I was afraid of the things experienced by my mother I also experienced it.

I really cannot afford to have to experience it, the thing I fear the most is being betrayed by those closest to us.

I don't want to put hope in people like me either.

At a time like this, I think God is trying to help me and hope that I will come back as happy as I used to be and throw away all the suffering that I am currently experiencing.

And hope that I return to His way, that is to believe fully in Him.

Yes I know I am a sinner,who never remembered my Lord even almost became an atheist because that was all the trials that came to me I had to digest both the good and the loyalty of the intent of the Empyrean Life.

"This frailty I will pass through sincerely, let me try to go through all this."My promise in my heart.

When I was busy dissolving in my sadness, a notification arrived into my phone and quickly reached the phone that I had never seen a single moment today.

It turned out that the notification came from Ray, the man who had made me almost fall in love with him before I tested his loyalty to me.

"I'm sorry Ray I just want to be alone."Whisper me in my heart without replying to the chatter.

The two blue line ticks indicate I have read the message from him but I leave it without replying.

"I need time alone, Mas Ray I'm sorry I can't reply to chat from you Mas whatever you say to me but that's me, my head hard beat every side of my good."I said to myself.

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Meanwhile, Ray can only resignedly see the girl who has become his candlestick cuey with himself without knowing how much he misses him at this time.

I don't know if I have to adjust my emotions and race to the mood of the girl so that there is no conflict in the relationship that I am currently studying.

Yes, hopefully my soul mate is himself even though I experienced various arals and obstacles but I am sure as hard as any stone will be soft also watered continuously.

I will forget my ego for a moment for the sake of a good relationship for that I must remain enthusiastic in living this relationship.

Want to be taken wherever I will always be able to control all the emotions that always stop by and go without saying goodbye.

To be continued

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