Your Heart and My Heart
You Go
You Go
When I want to be alone and away from you from every
sororities. Where my heart is restoring my heart, soul and feelings
it's cloudy because he's gone. When I want to go back and say hello to you, you
trying to avoid me like you don't want to see me because of my ego
makes you feel uncomfortable. Are you wrong if I say hello
you from the beginning? What's wrong with staying away from you for a few days? What
my fault? Why are you like this, am I not worthy of you or you
he has gained another heart. Which makes you happy, if that's what
happen. Then I will release you and seek another happiness. Possibly
this is best for us, if our hearts are not destined together.
Maybe someone else noticed my fragile feelings. But I
don't know who he is. Will he come to me or just like you
they are looking and looking for another.
Do I know him?
Who he is and what you came here for. I don't want to
if you come to break my fragile heart with this sweet word and
the attention you're throwing. I
it takes real certainty for me not to play with paper. So what do you want to do now? If
you've come all the way from there to my heart but only to play
just heart.
This heart will be hurt by you who do not know me, because
I just recovered from the pain that pierced my heart. So how?
Forgive me for hurting your fragile heart because
my insensitivity. But I also judge from the various aspects of people who will
being my bidadar. Not just looking at your attitude and your behavior.
So that was your choice? Yes, it is a choice
myself. Sorry if I hurt you this fragile one, because I thought too
all kinds of unresolved issues. I understand you, if
that's your answer then I won't force you. May you be happy with
what you choose. I pray for you with her to be happy and forgive me
it also makes you suffer.
If it's sunny today maybe I'll calm down, but today
tonight a black cloud came and soaked my face with flowing tears
on the way home. But I endured the pain, because I was together
he went home to a destination to a friend's place. Even this heart
hurt when you left, I could only hide that feeling from you. I
defenseless in front of you.
The rain that night was so heavy that he didn't know I was
crying in pain because of him. My already fragile heart aches with moans
it rained that night until my destination told me I was fine
if I was alone. On a cold and rainy night I was alone
an invitation from my parents. In silence I just stared at the night sky
tonight will be my last night with him. But it can't be because of the time
I was with my parents carrying luggage, I saw him coming again. And
she was looking for me if I was okay, but it was just a worry because
I'm the woman he respects, not the woman he loves. When luggage
come I just smiled like nothing happened, as I took
her luggage only helps my friend who she likes.
He didn't come for me but he came because of that girl
he likes to ask for his help, my heart aches when he hears the word
the presence of him with the intention of helping the girl he loves.
In the car, I was silent and closed my eyes. What else
my heart hurt and I was hurt too. But he doesn't know if I
hurt by a fall, all I thought about was going home and
immediately clean my body and lie down on the bed. With pain
the one in my hand and mind.
What do you think of me?
I would guess a person who is selfish, shameless, ugly, stupid, has no stance, troublesome, bullies. Is that what you think? Because from the beginning you ignored the message I already knew your answer.
I don't want to say the same word to different people. So I asked why you were so good to me. Is it just Kasian or do you care about me being this stupid?
That's what I ask you shadow. Who always accompanied me and calmed me down in a state of sadness.
But your answer is a friend who cares for a group friend. Behind your face you also muffle the anger that you cannot show by that person and others. I know that being selfish is my nature, but I help even if it's a little help for her.
Wh why?
What's the why?
You go with someone else?
Because it's my choice, which you can't know. So forgive me for making you hurt because of me. It is better for us to live each other's lives until fate finds our partner.
We're all grown up to let go of each other.
Are we adults? That word suits you, not me. I am older than you, but I am not yet an adult to live this life. There are many things I do not know about this world of pain and suffering.
The world we live in is the same, but our view of the world is different. I'm sorry I'm not an adult. Since it's a choice we have to make then I accept, you go with him that you like.
Life sometimes has its joys and sorrows together because we have different thoughts and opinions. But what it will make us can't step up because of that difference. No, we have to make us more than we are now. The road is still long for us to go through, but the age has increased little by little. Making our outlook go further into a time when we fear the world.
My feet continue to move without looking back. Looking for a way and looking for shelter for me can continue this endless future.
Where should I go again, where should I lean in this darkness. Is there a light that can illuminate tonight, even if it is just a small piece of light I will smile for him who is invisible.
Goodbye to the past that I have lived, I will step into that little light to make my heart smile. I will come to you who are invisible. You also have to show my presence.
