you wouldn't know

harsh reality

Andin arrives at the restaurant that will be the meeting place with dian. Andin came down from the online motorcycle taxi that delivered him and gave the helmet accompanied by one sheet of fifty thousand bills. Andin smiled very happily while giving away his fare money.

"great yes yes more, but my doain yes hopefully this meeting brings happy news" said Andin asked for support and prayers to the driver of the motorcycle taxi.

"well mba, thank you. If so excuse me, do not forget the star yes mba." said the ojek driver.

Andin passed into the restaurant, his eyes sweeping every corner of the restaurant. His gaze stopped on the bench on the right corner, seen men waving to andin, andin smiled happily to see the man he missed who else if not dian. Andin rushed to the place where he was sitting with two drinks and several plates of heavy food at the table, andin who saw his smile jubilant because he felt he had ordered a drink which of course his favorite andin.

'gold lamp,, mas dian, um you never change well.' said Andin as he walked to the lampstand.

"sun mas dian, sorry nadin has made mas wait a long time.." said andin while apologizing.

"no papa din, mas also not long until here too.."

"it's all mas messaging, but kok.." andin confused to see the drink in front of her is not his favorite drink even he is allergic to the fruit that became the menu of the drink. "this... dian forgot?" keep andin in doubt

"oh, I'm sorry, it's not for you, wait, what do you want to drink?" said dian "servant.." exclaimed dian to order a drink for you.

Andin was just speechless confused, but andin kept trying to think positive maybe dian came to see him bring his friend. But where is he, the dian friend who had this drink, where? thought andin cuddly looking for the whereabouts of friends who invited dian.

"please leave mba.." the waiter put the drink in the message to andin. Andin who had been looking for someone was startled and immediately refocused his gaze on the dian and drink table that had just arrived.

"why are you din?" tanya dian realized the strangeness of andin.

'not usually mas dian call you, why try this mas dian.' grumbled your heart in wonder but try not to think that is not not not.

"no mas, it was when nadin walked here, nadin like to see friends nadin but nadin search again no." said andin lied. Dian only raised both eyebrows and nodded his marked head he understood what you were talking about.

For a moment there was no conversation between, dian was busy with his phone, andin just stared at dian questioningly.

'why yes I think you changed mas, cold you mas. There's not even a stale base what that is, we'll meet to chat instead of to stay quiet at home like this' your heart is upset to see dian silence it.

"gold dian?" andin ventured to start the conversation

"eum, what's din." dian turned her eyes on Andin for a moment and went back on her phone screen.

"mas dian this why the hell, kok so cold gini same nadin, what because yesterday nadin can not find mas dian, so mas now cold same nadin." andin scowled sad.

"no nadin, mas no angry with nadin, just waiting for someone.."

"who's mas.." andin was surprised to be curious.

"later nadin will also know, wait yes" said dian turned his gaze to the door of the restaurant toilet.

Andin sipped his drink and then spoke again.

"how are you saying that mas dian's father in the village?" tanya andin wanted to know the state of the prospective in-law for her.

"mother father thank God din fine, it's just been almost a year and a half this father's mother is not in the village din."

"lantas now?" ask andin curiously

"the same mother moved to the hometown of the father, because the grandmother had already left all of us this year, the father and mother decided to stay there to guard the house of her parents father's relics..." not finished speaking, suddenly came a woman who was quite pregnant approaching them.

Dian stood up and held the hand of the woman. Andin who only saw them was confused and astonished his mind started to be messed up full of questions that were not no.

"sorry, I went to the toilet for a long time, mum, mummy." said the woman. Dian just smiled holding the woman.

Deug your heart feels smashed with iron that is very capable of destroying everything.

"thank you dear.." the woman sat between dian and andin.

"oh this is yes mas, the friend who made the same agreement with us" said the woman pointed to andin.

"yes dear to know his name andin, andin this sulastri, wife mas dian," said dian with a heart and doubt.

Andin was getting smashed in the iron with a very strong. Andin was silent empty, his mind began to mess up all that he had thought would be beautiful but get the reality that instead made him broken to pieces. Your eyeballs began to look glassy, but andin immediately realized and tried to hold back tears so as not to fall in front of the couple's new husband and wife he knew.

"hi, mbak andin.. I just sulastri panggi I lastri," Lastri thrust his hand to shake hands with andin, andin was slowly and trembling to accept the lastri hand department. "i'm andin." he said briefly.

"mas dian has told me all about mbak andin same me, beautiful yes, indeed mbak andin woman who mas dian loved and her first love mas dian too, so, but now I'm his wife but even so we can be good friends not." said lastri at length.

Andin just smiled at the words of the wife of the man she still loved.

"sorry, I didn't say from the beginning when we first met, I think this way I told you everything, in order for you to be the same lastri also get to know each other and can be good friends." said dian staring andin while holding your hand. Andin took his hand off from him.

"how long have you been married?" ask andin blankly

"almost a year, and now the pastry is pregnant with our first child" she replied.

Andin was silent for a long time..

"how many months?" connect andin while stroking the stomach of the dian's wife.

"it's been 6 months mba andin" replied the smiling lastri.

""it is healthy until the day of his birth" said Andin with a voice increasingly heavy withstanding the cries that he did not want to show in front of them both. Andin scratched his head that was not itchy because of confusion, not long your cell phone rang, one message entered on his phone, he said, and Andin makes the excuse that the one who sent the message was his boss who told him to go to the office immediately to attend the meeting.

"excuse me, I have to leave immediately, because my boss contacted me to tell you there was an impromptu meeting between directors in the office, I'm sorry first yes dian, lastri." andin stood up and looked at dian and lastri alternately by showing a sweet smile on his lips. "thanks for the banquet, sorry to end this meeting quickly, if it's okay for me to go to the office." keep andin.

Andin rushed out of the restaurant by running, after outside the restaurant andin walked along the road in an uncertain direction. The tears that had been holding him back from now on, could no longer be contained, flowed swiftly and made you sob.

"why this, what this is, all this, this is a dream right, this is a dream yes this is a dream, wake up andin wake up." andin said desperately. Andin ran towards the edge of the lake not far from the road he was walking. Arriving at the edge of the lake andin with his floor screaming evaporated all his disappointment, sadness and self-destruction because of the statement from the man he hoped would return to him.

"why god...why do you re-echo the servant with him if the end should be like this." yelled andin let out a whole sense of disrespect. Andin dropped himself and was bowed in a very heavy cry. "why god, why are you dir, why.." andin said in his cry.

The hand that touched your shoulder from behind did not make you wake up to look at him, andin still remained with his cry with his head down.

"you need a shoulder to lean on" said the man holding his shoulder from behind. Andinpun turned his gaze to the back. the establishment of andri behind andin who suddenly made andin stand up and wipe away the tears that washed his cheeks.

"sir andri.."ujar andin with a typical beacon of people crying badly.

"i happened to be exercising around here, I accidentally heard a scream with a voice that was familiar to my ears, and it's true that the person you were playing with" said Andri

Andin yanh was very sad not to care about anything or anything, he hugged andri and buried his face in andri's chest and again cried bitterly. Andri also returned a close embrace andin and rubbed your back to calm him.

"cry, let go of everything. remove everything let yourself be the support of your sadness." said andri kissed the top of your head.

Andripun held the body of the andin in his arms and sat him in the back seat where they stood. In his seat andin next to him, andin did not change the position of his who still buried his face in the arms of andri, andri's body is stocky with muscles that are formed in the abdomen and chest, his, only using a white t-shirt that he now feels wet with your tears, but Andri did not care about it even he was happy because the woman he liked was in his arms even with an atmosphere that somehow made him cry heavily like this.

Andri continued to calm andin in his arms and stroked elus andin's head, andri let you cry until he was satisfied and stopped himself from crying.