WOUNDS AND LOVE
Wounds and Love
chapter 138
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Rans was dumbstruck by staring at Revia who was also staring at him, Several times Rans swallowed his saliva as if he could not believe what he was hearing.
" i've been harboring this feeling for quite a while.I'm sorry, I can't help it. Awe turns into love that keeps pestering my mind.." said Revia as she lowered her head. he really couldn't look at Rans.
Rans who was shocked with disbelief slowly shook his head.His heart was already fixed on Zakia, even though he had not been in a relationship, but on the other hand, he did not want to hurt Revia who was so good to him.
" Revia.forgive me.." replied Rans in a soft voice. Rans squeezed his fingers trying to compose a word so as not to make Revia hurt.
Revia turned her gaze to Rans.
" i appreciate how you feel about me, but I'm not the kind of guy you deserve.. Revia, I'm sorry before, I.I can't accept your love.sorry.." Rans said briefly.
Revia closed her eyes.the pain in her heart was so felt with Rans reply.
as if not wanting to make the rans uncomfortable, Revia smiled with a few breaths.
" don't apologize.I just want to say the feeling of my heart alone.Honestly I feel disturbed by my race.meaning I think if I have said it will definitely feel relieved.." revia said, not forgetting that she published a smile.
Rans can see the grievances of disappointment and sadness in Revia's eyes, even though it has been covered with a smile developed by Revia herself, but still clearly visible.if only her feelings can be easily changed, she said, Rans will happily accept Revia's love, but Rans doesn't even have any taste for Revia.
Rans grabbed Revia's hand and grasped it tightly. Revia tried hard by staring at Rans. although her eyes were sore, but Revia still survived not to shed tears.
" i'm sorry Revia.if only feelings could be easily changed, I would try to accept you. But I don't want to give you a false hope.Forcing love will only make us disappointed.." rans said with a wistful eye directed at Revia.
A smile was published Revia so that Rans did not feel guilty here. "just relax Rans. I do not matter. My heart is now relieved after revealing it, for the matter of your heart, it is up to you.."as if fine, Revia took off Rans' handhold to him.
" there must be a better man than me waiting for you somewhere." - Rans..
Revia was downcast with a forced smile "I realized Rans, I'm not a good woman, even you know how my life was in America, I didn't expect to get the best, I didn't want to, but I wish I could be accepted with all my bad circumstances."
the two replied to each other's smiles, although the meaning of the smile was different.
" then I'll go home first, thank you for the time.." Revia stood up from her seat
" are you okay ??" ask Rans to make sure.
" what am I ?? you take it easy Rans. I'm always good.." timpal Revia with a small laugh that was balanced with a gaze in the other direction.and then turned her body, turning her back to Rans. held back tears for too long, she said, enough to make Revia feel tightness in his heart.
several times Revia set her breath so as not to sob.
" Revia.." call Rans
Revia did not want to look, her eyes were sore, she just looked down and muttered.
Rans who knew how Revia felt walked up to Revia and chose to stand in front of the faithful Revia lowered her head.
slowly Rans raised Revia's chin, clearly the eyes inundated with sorrowful water.
feeling unbearable Rans pulled Revia into his arms.
" we can't be lovers, but we can still be friends." said Rans lirih.
instantly, Revia's defenses collapsed, her cries breaking, filling the silence of the night.
" hikss..hikss..hikss... i. I'm okay Rans.. don't pity me..hiks...hikss...hikss.." said Revia in her sobs.
" cry, cry here, so that I don't feel guilty later." Rans replied as he rubbed Revia's back.
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