Wound Spot

Single-minded

Ikhlas is a word that people echo to give up all kinds of life things. Heartache, languish, not according to expectations, the end path is sincere. But again, theory is easier than practice. Slipping is not that easy to realize. It takes a big, legowo heart to get that word.

To be sincere means to give up all the ways of life that have been outlined by Him. And that word is also now or call it has been the last two years Aira did. Trying to recap all the chapters that have passed in his life. Aira goes to great lengths to far-forget-and forgive all that the Fahreza family has infused into the recesses of her heart. The pain is certain, but not with the crying drags on. Perhaps that was the destiny line God had written for him. Parting with the man she loves most & loves.

Aira tried to suggest in her that, the decree of God is the right and worthy of faith. Continuing to drag on in grief will only make it more cursed. Aira did not want to share her sorrow with her loved ones. It is enough that he feels it.

"Mir!" Sintya's call awakened Aira from daydreaming that afternoon. Aira closed her eyes for a moment and shook her head from the sanguine. He turned his head and saw his friend walking closer with a tray he held in his right hand.

"Why, Sin?" he asked while looking at his best friend who he noticed put on a face that Aira could not explain.

Sintya approached and stood right beside Aira who that afternoon leaned her back against the restaurant wall. Sintya stood parallel to Aira while facing forward at the crowd of happy guests after the announcement of the gender of the child of the descendants of 'old money' in the city.

"If you are not strong, mending you backwards, ra. Let me, Vito & bang Ben take care of the guests." Sintya's words successfully made Aira turn her head to look at her best friend

"Gue's not a sick person, Sin. It is my duty as a servant to serve guests well." He answered after taking a deep breath.

"Lo know what I mean, ra. No need to deny and pretend to play a role as a super woman. I know you must be sick." His words that made Aira instantly silenced and bit her inner lips. After a few seconds of silence, Aira finally normalized her expression and again tried hard in front of her best friend.

"In the world of work, we must be professionals, Sin. I guess every morning, Mr. Boss, there is no fatigue talking about it with us. And that's what I always hold. Whoever they were in the past, whatever hurt me for what I received first, I don't think I deserve to not work according to the salary I receive." Aira answered with great sincerity. Trying to convince her best friend that experience has taught her many things.

Sintya can only breathe to see the kink of his best friend. Anyway, Sintya knows all about her best friend's actions with her ex-husband first.

"But right, ra..."

"Sin, I'm used to it. I'm a grown woman who's no longer the time to be alone. I am so sincere." He said trying to cut the action of not accepting his best friend.

"Out there are still many men times, Sin. No one wants to be with me." He joked with a laugh where his laughter finally caught on to his best friend.

Aira patted her best friend's shoulder and asked through a head gesture.

"Boss's brother glared at us from his room, huh!" Aira who heard it also followed Sintya's view.

"etdahh. our dead, Sin. work."

Aira and Sintya returned to serve the guests and tried to be professional. Although a few pairs of eyes were staring at Aira blatantly. But Aira tried to ignore him and as much as possible he did not look into the eyes of the guests who that afternoon openly questioned his work and maybe laughed at his situation.

Aira and her co-workers prepare desserts at all tables. But his back was already steaming and overheating from the sharp gaze that Azka had placed on him. It's not that Aira doesn't know. Aira was very aware of the gaze of her ex-husband who had been watching her. Aira several times did not consciously steal the view because she felt noticed earlier by her ex-husband. When their eyes accidentally meet, Aira can see the flames of hatred from her ex-husband accompanied by his solid jaw hardened. Aira shuddered in horror at imagining it. If he could disappear, he wanted to disappear.

"Mas, I want to add water" said Maudy Azka's wife who now. Azka poured mineral water into his wife's glass painstakingly. After doing so, Azka rubbed his wife's hair fondly. All that did not escape the gaze of the big family of both couples who were happy with the presence of the first grandchild of each family. A marriage that has not been even a year and quickly endowed with future grandchildren. Their happiness is complete.

Aira witnessed it all. It felt like his chest was being stabbed by an invisible dagger. Aira was trying to swallow the bitter pills of life. It turns out that sincerity is not that easy. He desperately tried to smile at the happiness of the people ahead. To be honest, her tears seemed to have been broken. Be ill. What Aira said in front of her best friend, was just an alibi in order to be free from her best friend's questions about her feelings.

Azka seemed to love and love her wife. Seen from all the treatment and attention given. It should be like that. Who is not happy if what has been anticipated is finally confused. A child he did not get from his ex-wife. For 4 households but not given. He got it now and it wasn't from him.

Azka - the only man she ever loved. The man who first introduced the name fell in love, but left without teaching the antidote of heartache.

Aira immediately turned away from there in as many invisible steps as possible. The tears finally spilled. GET SICK. It was like millions of tons of rocks had hit his chest. Aira swung her feet towards the toilet room and shed her tears that no one else could hear. Crying while pressing on his chest. The sick person saw the person who was still residing in the chest along with the others. The two years he believed he had been able to erase his heart-pains, he collapsed today.

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Huffffff, finally after a full moon I continued writing this novel. For those who do not know, this novel was written from 2021 tp he continued only now 😬😁 but it's ok. I really hope this novel will be as successful as my previous novel². Thank you reader 👍 love youuu