WILL KEEP TRYING

Willingness

This morning was Papa Mirren's funeral day and today was also the last day they saw Papa Mirren.

One tear after another soaked all their cheeks.

"The Spirit of the Way Papa, May Papa be received by Allah" said Alina

"Papa must be accepted on the side of God if we always pray Papa" said Tristan

"It's sister.. Ma.." Call Alina who sees Mama Sabri sitting next to Papa Mirren's Tomb.

"Mama don't be sad continue yes.we should be able to make Papa calm do not make Papa sad and Worry because we continue to cry for Papa" said Alina while removing tears Mama Sabri.

"Dear dear.You also do not cry, we pray Papa may Papa be received by God" said Mama Sabri

"Amin" they said all at the same time

"Yes let's go home" Tristan said

"That.. Alina went home first, If Papa misses Alina come to Alina's dream and later if Alina misses Papa, Alina will visit Papa kok, Alina comes home yes pa" said Alina while kissing Nisan Papa Mirren.

They all went home to Alina's family, and they sat in the living room

"Ma.. Alina could have something?" alina

"Ask what a darling" said Mama Sabri

"Actually what happened to Papa, Alina had not known that Papa had pain, but why suddenly Papa could..." Alina was unable to continue her words

"During this Papa actually has chronic heart disease, all this time Papa survived not to operate because Papa was afraid of surgery and Papa's chance to survive the Operation is only 30%" said Mama Sabri

"Hiks.. Hix.. Why did Al know Ma? Ask Alina

"Papa who asks you not to know, Papa does not want you to worry dear" said Mama Sabri while removing tears Alina

"But Alina deserves to know Mah." said Alina while crying

"Bun Bun don't cry" said Adit, Adit approached Alina and Adit wiped away Alina's tears

"La Bun Bun don't cry, later if Bun Bun cry I will be sad" said Claudia while hugging Alina's body

"Dear mother will not cry anymore" Alina stroked Adit and Claudia's hair

"Bun Bun do you know, I used to be very sad when I lost my Father and Mother but I tried to be strong because I still have Claudia for me to be happy, Bun Bun must also be strong because Bun Bun still has Grandma that must Bun Bun part" said Adit with a warm smile

"It's a pity that mother will continue to smile, As long as you have to be with Mother" said Alina

"We'll always be with Bun Bun, promise" Claudia said.

*Pa. doain Alina, Kak Tristan and Mama here yes, Alina promises to always make Mama happy, Alina promises not to often fight with Tristan. Thank you for being with Alina for 23 years. Alina does not know Alina's life without Papa, but Alina promises to always try to be happy even without Papa." murmured Alina

"Kak Tristan" said Alina

"Yes?" said Tristan who awoke from his daydream

"Sister I want to go to the villa" said Alina

"Why?" tristan asked confused

"Papa once said that Papa has something for me but I can only take it when Papa has left us" said Alina held back her tears

"When are you going there?" Ask Tristan

"Just leave, sister, I can't afford to go there" said Alina

"So I want to talk to you both brother" said Alina and Alina left and Tristan followed behind. They stopped at the park behind the house.

"Sister.. Alina is confused by Alina's life, Alina does not know Alina's decision is right or not but Alina please really love Alina's opinion" said Alina

"What is Alina?" Tristan is confused

"I'm afraid you're angry sister" said Alina

"What exactly are you talking about, Alina, I don't understand" Tristan said.

*Alina took a deep breath and threw it away rude*

"Hurry up and say Alina" Tristan said, gripping Alina's shoulder

"Alina will stay away from Aditya" Alina said as she lowered her head

"Why? What exactly happened to Alina?" ask Tristan

"Al don't want to hurt Aditya's feelings, Alina wants to give Aditya to meet better women" said Alina

"Have you considered it?" ask Tristan

"So, even though Alina will be sick, Alina will still survive the establishment of Alina" said Alina

"Yes if that's the decision you made" Tristan said, stroking Alina's hair

"We enter now yuk kak" said Alina while pulling Tristan's hand.

...*They went into the house*...

When Alina ate she did not touch her rice at all she just stirred the rice while staring at the bench that Tristan was sitting on which Papa Mirren usually wears. No tears Alina came down to remember all the memories of Papa Mirren.

*Maafin Alina because there is no one beside Papa at the last moment Papa, if only Alina could repeat the time Alina just wanted next to Papa. I know Papa loves Al but Al also has the right to know Pa, Al also wants to be next to Papa, Al also wants to take care of Papa, Al wants to sleep at Papa's, Al wants to be like before..* Inner Alina

"Hiks.. Hicks.." Alina nagging

"I.." Call Mama Sabri

*By quickly Alina wiped her tears*

"He is." replied Alina with a smile

"Don't eat it" said Mama Sabri

"La ma.. Al is not hungry" Alina said

"You want you to get sick, you want what happened a month ago to happen again?" ask Mama Sabri

*Alina shook her head, then Alina bribed a spoon of rice into her mouth*

"Al. finished eating later I want to talk to you yes" said Aditya

*Alina glimpsed at Aditya Direction, Then Alina turned her gaze*

"Jel.." Call Alina

"Yes?" answer William

"no papa ngetes, I think your name has been changed" said Alina with a sweet smile

"you are" said Wiliam

They all continued to eat with Wisdom, there was no more talk at the dinner table, only the sound of the pounding of the plate with the spoon