What's My Wrong
Eps. 02
“Kok home? I promise you I will ja—“
“My son is sick, we have to go home this morning as well.” My words are firm and can't be bargained anymore.
With a frown and a little stomping his feet up to the bathroom.
Along the way there was no meaningful conversation, I saw clearly his face was not willing to go home quickly. No problem, from the beginning he who wants to be the second so must be prepared with all the consequences.
The distance of Bone-Makassar is only 4 hours drive. After taking Sari, I immediately met my little family.
“Daddy ... Father ...” Bayu and Tasya race up into my arms, I lift up my two children with happiness that rises, tired because the journey seems lost already. Kuciumi both of my heart with guilt.
“Kok Daddy came home fast? Said to arrive afternoon”
“Iya bun, it just so happens that the business is faster done” I grabbed my wife's head and kissed her forehead.
In the days that followed I spent more time with my wives, I took care of my old office work. Sometimes they just give instructions from home.
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“Mas, lately you changed.”
“Change how?”
“You rarely have time for me, more to your wife”
“You will know my status from the beginning, you must understand”
“Ya but will at least keep up with the news as well even though at home”
Hmm, the more demanding this woman is, I must quickly raise capital and get away from her before our relationship gets any further.
“At home my time and attention belong entirely to my children and wife. You also certainly do not want if Indah suspicious of our relationship”
“Mas Raka dear not to me?”
“Ya dear ...” sahutku a little indifferent while menekuni weekly report sent by email by admin staff through laptop.
“Mas ...”
“Ya?”
Sari closed the laptop in front of me just like that, her eyes demanding attention, making me take off my glasses and put them in my shirt pocket.
“Mas, I miss ...”
Both of his hands were cupped to my cheeks.
“Sari, remember we are in the office. You have to keep the attitude, in the eyes of our people this is only a coworker.”
I let go of his hand slowly, headed towards the small refrigerator in the corner of the room and took out a bottle of mineral water. I gulp the contents at once to wet the esophagus that suddenly feels dry.
“Until when mas ..., until when am I in this position?”
“....”
“Mas Raka can imagine not how I feel all this time, I eat the heart of Mas. I love you and I do not care about your status, every time tormented imagine how you spend the night with Beautiful.”
I was silent to let him spill his emotions.
“Mas, I was wrong for loving a married man. But I can't choose either. I'm just following my feelings.”.
Clear liquid started filling his eyelids.
“Sometimes I feel unfair, why does god give me the wrong feeling of love. Why am I not as lucky as Beautiful to have you.”
“So I have to how baby,”
“Leave your wife ...”
Crazy, my wife is a diamond I wouldn't be able to exchange for a woman I don't think has the self-esteem to be willing to be in a relationship with a married man.
“You'll know for yourself I can't leave Indah. We have a kid who is but—“
“Trus how about me Mas? Will forever be your savings”
His voice was a bit emotional.
“Let me time to think things over, you patient huh dear?” I tried to calm him down, I didn't want him to get more emotional and destroy everything.
Hugged my body tightly, afraid of loss.
“I love you Mas,” whispered despair.
“Iya dear ...” I kissed her forehead gently, whether since when she was trapped with her feelings it. All I knew from the beginning was that he was trying to get close to me, giving me more attention. Until finally I welcomed all his attention, until one day when we were attending the annual camp event happened something that made our relationship unusual.
From then on I tried to stay away, not wanting to have a more serious relationship, but as I told you before my company went bankrupt and he offered to give capital so I could start again, inevitably I have to establish a closeness back to him, so that everything goes smoothly.
Once everything is normal as usual, I'll find a way to get away from it.
“Mas, today you have to accompany me huh?”
“Iya darling, where are you going?”
“Ayo, Mas Raka come along. Today I drove.”
He snatched the car keys from my desk, then grabbed his red handbag that was on the sofa and set foot out of the room. I followed.
Half an hour later the car we were riding entered the parking lot of Hotel Arya Duta, a 5-star hotel which is only 400 meters from Losari Beach, the pride beach of Makassar.
Sari chose a room with a view facing directly to the sea, presenting a romantic feel that made us dissolved, I honestly admit I was also happy to spend time with him.
“Al afternoon. We go home, right? later Beautiful suspicious”
“A further half hour can? want to shower first Mas, gerah”
“Baik” sahutku, it's okay to be late for a while, the traffic jam could be the reason for my delay later.
“Don't be long huh babe?”
“Iya” shouted from the small room.
We were on our way to the elevator when my gawa rang. Scroll that flat object, phone from Indah. Immediately I raised after gesturing by attaching the left index finger to the lips to Sari. He complied without a sound. But holding tightly to my arm and getting closer together as if to steal our conversation.
[Well, where else?] I heard my wife's voice
[It's over the meeting, get ready to go home]
No reply sound.
[What's bun? Want to drop something?]
[Gpp well, just want to check the whereabouts of the father. Be careful on the road, Dad?]
[Oke bun, dad walk first huh?]
I kept the phone back in my pocket and returned Sari's grip to reduce the tense feeling from the phone. I don't usually call my wife just to ask where I am.
The elevator door opened, and the figure caught in my eyes then seemed to make my heart stop, there stood my wife Beautiful looking at us with judgmental eyes. I can imagine how surprised he was, I immediately shook Sari's hand.
"Bun, -why is it here?" Tanyaku.
"We're talking at home."
He walked faster, and I ran small to keep pace, leaving Sari still glued to where we were standing.
I took the car and drove to our house, all the way not a word out of my wife's mouth, I didn't dare start a conversation. A new marriage this time I died lice facing my wife, even sighing feels wrong.
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“Mother, please sort out the chance I want to explain the truth. Mother misunderstood.”
“Mistake understand what it means? I see clearly you guys walking hand in hand.” His mouth with a stingy breath as if holding back emotions.
“Mother misunderstandings. Dad to the hotel it's not both, we're meeting there.”
I tried to lie hoping my wife would believe me.
“Dad, I'm not that stupid to believe your words, I saw with my own eyes you guys walking out while holding hands.”
“Not as you might imagine. Please believe Bun, mother is the only one—“
I immediately watched him give me the signal to be quiet.
“Right now I don't need an explanation, please for a while Dad sleeps in the guest room, I just want to calm down.”
With my head bowed as if a defeated soldier on the battlefield I headed to the living room, as if the sky was collapsing. I don't know what to explain, deep down in my heart, hoping that our household can still be maintained.
[If my wife asks please don't tell me anything about our relationship]
I sent a message to Sari through the Whatsapp application.
There was no reply, but a blue tick as a sign that my message had been read.
Maybe my request was so selfish for him, but what else? The only thing I want right now is the integrity of my household. Either have to fall poor and start from scratch I'm willing, as long as it's beautiful not to leave me. I know very well Beautiful is not a woman who will leave me because I fall poor, but I am the one who is not ready. Unprepared to make my wife and children feel the economic shortcomings.
Until the morning sunlight entered through the window grille, I could not squint for a second. Everything was so heavy, the normally warm home life was now like hell.
Early in the morning Beautiful has washed the children and dressed neatly, he also wears clothes that are not usually used in the house. Everything was done in silence, the children were still running around in the house. And when they ran hugging and kissing me Lovely immediately grabbed her taking my kids away and taking her away.
Even our only car was also taken away, the more it dawned on me that this time he was really angry.
I wanted to ask her where she was taking the kids, but my lips were cuckoo, I had no guts.
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