Wanitaku Great Warrior

My mother misses me

For almost two years I left home without any news. Even I always send a message wa to Bu Siti even if it is just asking my family news. How they are, how healthy they are, Even in my heart I want to give them some of my salary money. But my guts shrieked when I remembered being chased away by my father and mother not defending me at all. What this is called numbness

Even the love given by Mr. Aslan is not so memorable in the heart.whatever the gift I always refuse. For me being an independent woman is more important than being a spoiled woman and struggling with men. That's been my principle since I was fifteen. Maybe it was my family's treatment that shaped me into this tough woman. Or my trauma of their attitude that makes me independent in every way.

She was seen coming home from the market at around two in the afternoon. Since the departure of zahra, the mother stingy smile to anyone, even to the father. If asked, answer yes or no.

Even the father saw the change of mother, who was once chatty now quiet. Who used to like to make clean up the house on mbak Siska and mbak princess, now whatever he did himself. Mother began to speak in a soft tone when the father began to discuss the misfortune of his family. And again I blame it as the reason. But today I dare to swallow all that bitterness and speak firmly in denial of all the words of the father.

At that time I drank coffee made by the mother, unconsciously the mouth of the father issued a word that very pierced the heart of a mother.

"This misfortune is because of your son the image. Why this family always gets in trouble. The Rofiq was always wandering around the night so it had no capital and to get married. While the Siska and the princess no one wants to propose to be a wife. Zahra was sick and died. Damn our family yes ma'am" said the father while smoking his cigarette.

Slowly the mother replied but made the father realized by saying the wrong thing.

"Our misadventures are not from the image. It is from the father himself, if the father can distinguish what is right and what is wrong our family will not be like this. Rofiq didn't marry because he hung out the night and played chicks out there. Where there are women who want to be like men like that".

Again with mom.

"For Siska and the princess may be a spinster, no man wants to have a lazy wife and his behavior is not polite with parents" both times the mother spoke.

"For the image, if he's the unlucky carrier. Why pinter school and can find their own fees for school. Eleven years old has worked for his own money. We give him accept we don't give him anything he accepts. Even I feel the image of my son you made babu for his brother's brother" explained my mother again.

Mother's eyes began to cry and her voice began to hoarse and brick because of crying.

"You know mr. zahra's death is unnatural, people say he died of depression.usually people can be depressed because of stress and trauma. Some say the zahra may have been abused out there, considering that she was found in front of the house with a fainting state" the mother said and could not bear the burden in her heart anymore.

I want to refute my mother's opinion.

" But Mbah pariyem says you're the unlucky bearer and all this can happen in our family".

Not losing, I spoke up.

" Mangangang Mbah pariyem that God can talk like that. I heard his son was sick Samapi liver broke he said shaman the same person. And talking to people can save their children. But in fact his son died too, because it was a medical illness".

You start to shut up, this time all the words of the father have been swallowed round by the mother. If I had heard mother's defense at that time. How happy I am. Because my mother still loves me.