Wanita the one who got hurt

directly hurt in life

my name is veni young girl who feels her life is hurt by men, I don't know what my fault is and where I don't know but why I have to experience this bitter love life. I feel that God is unfair to my life.I as a woman want to be loved, loved, cared for, loved, even spoiled.

but why do I always have to be hurt in the course of my life

am I a woman who does not deserve all the happiness in this world.

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my first experience was when I was in high school where I was in my teens and I started to influence myself to like a guy, at first I didn't know what I was feeling because every time I saw it my heart was always beating fast, but one of my friends said that I liked it , or you could say at that time LOVE MONKEY in the ABG period.

once I began to get close to him and until at last he expressed love for me. I also accepted the expression of his heart for me. at the time I felt love at a glance love the same him (his presumption was the moment) , but what is it okay to make time not as long as his siding with me. time is only temporarily exhausted, too, her love ends for me. I don't know what's wrong with me so she ends up loving me, but yes it's been her decision. even then I could only cry contemplating what was my fault so I was kept away by the man I really liked. And from that moment on I did not want to know the rest of the men scarang and so on because I feel PAIN that I do not want to feel again to me.

then day after day, time after time, I lived with my simplicity to do what I thought was happy until finally there was a man who came to my life. this guy is quite mature and has a good income, he started to approach me, but I don't want to give hope or response to him because I feel SAKIT in before mrs. I don't want to repeat what I felt before.

a year later the same man still approached me for the same thing before , even though I had tried him, not caring about his presence. until one day the man expressed his feelings for me, I also rejected her in a rude tone if I did not want to establish any relationship with a man I did not know at all..

then he said, "I will wait for you whenever and under whatever circumstances you are and wherever you are I will always wait for you ".. then I did not pay attention to him because to me it was just a SWALLOW of his appeal. but since that day he always expressed his feelings to me until I finally collapsed because he was troubled and tried so that I would accept it.

I also accept it because my best friend said"love he used to have a chance on people, who had nothing wrong to give a chance ".

as long as I was with her 1 year ago we went through the day" together. And suddenly came a sense of comfort when he was on his side, so I felt I did not want to lose him, I love him and vice versa was the same . then we were together for a few years we ran CINTA MONKEY that. at the end of my school approached the exam in time 3rd grade High School , I was sick., too., he was always there when I was difficult he always accompanied me during my illness he who care for me other than family, he was always loyal to be beside me so I feel loved. so I'm happy that he's at the right time.

so one day I felt well and got out of the hospital..

I run my day" and take the school exam quietly and happily. So I also pass the school with good grades, with pride my parents are happy with the grades they get,.

and at the moment I felt like I wanted to continue to college

I was always with a man who loved me very much

he always took the time for me to take me to my college enrollment not far from where he worked so we could be together always.

and one day my father disapproved of our love journey, because my father had to be willing to let go, get away from his life, disappear from him, and give him any news. because my father's fear will be angry if I always meet him.

and that day pu passed..

I carried out all my activities with comfort, so I never thought with the figure of the man lgi, because my father always ordered "run the lecture properly and well because someday the real life you will live so you have a lot to learn from now son" .