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"Do you know Shuan?" Daffa paused his words. Then she took her breath, "Mas jealous of her."

Daffa is jealous of Bang Chandra? How can?! Is it because I'm feeding this to Bang Chandra? Or because there's something else?

I lowered my head in silence, I was saddened to hear Mas Daffa's words just now. Perhaps Mas Daffa's feelings were more or less like mine being jealous of Ms. Annisa.

Sorry Shuan Mas, I said in my heart.

Mas Daffa's hands wrapped around my neck. She held me while putting her chin on my shoulder, "Chandra is always there for you. Even when you do it, he's like he's playing your husband."

I froze in Mas Daffa's arms, "M-mas know? Do you know where Shuan got into an accident?"

"From Mother," said Mas Daffa while tightening his arms.

"Mas, Mommy's already told ap-"

"Mother has told everything, to the detail though. When you tried to save Ranti, then you had a mild brain gag. Until Chandra, who always worried about you, drove you to the hospital until he became a surrogate husband for you" Mas Daffa answered questions I hadn't finished asking him.

"Mas! don't talk like that! there is no substitute husband, Mas Daffa is Shuan's only husband."

"I'm your only husband, but I've never been there for you, Shuan."

"Mas Daffa is angry with Shuan?" I'm afraid.

"No, I'm angry with the doctor's mother" he replied.

"Well, how angry are you with the doctor's mother?"

"So she called people's husbands wrong. It is clear that your husband is me" said Mas Daffa in an annoyed tone.

"Mother doctor just misunderstood, Mas don't be angry with Mother doctor well?"

"Not angry yet. But Shuan has to promise, if there's anything to say to Mas. I don't want to be like yesterday, I'm not there for you. Mas sad," said Mas Daffa sincerely. She felt sad that she failed to take care of me. "The anger is not the same as you, mas angry with yourself. I feel guilty for you, Shuan."

"Shuan I'm sorry, don't feel guilty. Mas Daffa why don't you pick up Shuan early? Do you know everything?" My toot.

Mas Daffa let go of his crib. He slowly twisted my body so I could face him. His two large, warm hands cupped my chubby cheeks, "No courage. You look like you're angry at me again, Mom."

"M-angry? Who's angry?" I glanced back and forth because I was nervous.

"Try saying that again while looking at Mas" Mas Daffa brought his face closer to my reddened face.

"A-anu-"

"uh right? You can't" he said, releasing his hand from my cheek. He hugged me tightly, "you're angry, aren't you?" Ask Daffa again.

I returned Mas Daffa's embrace. This comfortable feeling made me drown my face in his chest, "yes," I replied briefly.

"Why are you angry at me hm?" I felt a soft caress on my hijab.

"There's no time for Shuan. Shuan is just lonely." My eyes feel sore. I wanted to cry, but I held it.

"Mas was not a good husband, but Mas tried to be fair. Now Annisa needs more attention."

I let go of the hug that had made me comfortable, "but, Shuan also needs the attention of Mas Daffa."

The deg!

I am ashamed to admit my selfishness. But this feeling I can't suppress forever. Daffa may be disappointed in me, but let it be. What matters is that I said it.

"Try here near," said Mas Daffa. He pulled me closer to him.

Our distance was close, to the point that my head almost touched his chest, "sorry that Shuan is selfish" I said.

Slowly but surely, Mas Daffa took off my hijab. My hair is shredded and disheveled. I purposely didn't tie him up because I just finished shampooing.

"The wound is here, isn't it?" Mas Daffa touched my forehead which also had a scar there.

"Yes, what's wrong."

"After seeing you hurt like this, I'm sure that this is all my fault" he said softly.

It was all wrong. If I were to become Mas Daffa, I might as well be like him. Dividing the attention of two people is difficult.

I was wrong, too. Mas Daffa tried to be there for me, but I also didn't want to bother him. When I can count on myself, I demand his attention. Angry for no reason and also scolded back to Mother's house. I was not even honest with Mas Daffa.

What kind of wife am I? So childish.

"Shuan is also wrong Mas, sorry Shuan," I said. My apology is sincere from my heart. I am so sorry to have behaved like this. "Shuan is sorry," I clasped Mas Daffa's hand and kissed the back of his hand.

"Shuan," he called her down. The back of her hand was on my forehead, I still held her hand.

I still haven't let go, "Shuan promised not to lash out and was angry no longer clearly. Shuan promised Mas permission before doing anything, hiks!"

Collapsed already. The tears that I had been crying from now on are overflowing. While crying I apologized to my husband. Hopefully he will forgive me, otherwise God will be angry with me.

"Mas was also wrong" said Mas Daffa. He hugged me back. But his embrace now feels more possessive. "This incident should be a valuable lesson for us. To improve myself."

We hugged long enough, until I finally let go of Mas Daffa's embrace. Then I asked him, "I'm sorry about Shuan, right? I haven't answered yet."

Mas Daffa smiled sweetly, "You didn't understand?" Then without me expecting Mas Daffa to kiss me gently on the cheek, "how could Mas not forgive Mas's crybaby wife hm? Already crying like this time is not forgiven?"

"Dimaafin is sorry. But don't bother Shuan cengengeng dong." I frowned.

"Can you take hm?"

"Shuan is not snooping! Just be a sebel. Not Bang Chandra, not Bang Nabil and Mas Daffa! You guys really like sneaking around with Shuan."

"You can't be angry if you get mocked." Daffa pinched my nose, "the reason is that if you are angry you will give me punishment."

"Punishment is like ap-"

Not finished I said it, Mas Daffa pulled my waist and pressed his lips right over my lips, "this is the punishment."

My heart feels like it's going to get out. My body pecked at the sudden kiss from Mas Daffa. Remind me to breathe this time, otherwise I might faint.

"Darling? How do you shut up hm? Less punishment, huh?" Mas Daffa pulled me back into his arms, then the lips kissed my lips several times until my cheeks felt hot.

I did not expect that Mas Daffa would be this aggressive. Is this something he's been craving all this time? I started to wonder to myself.

"Honey," she called him spoiled in a heavy tone, typical of men. "Mas has a request," he continued.

Hearing Mas Daffa's spoiled voice like that gave me goosebumps of seven roving around, "A-what Mas?" I bowed in shame.

Daffa approached me again. It was hard for me to give a distance so that I could calmly face it, Mas Daffa even seemed to remove the distance between us. Mas Daffa was about to grab me again, before a knock on the door came bothering.

Geck! Geck! Geck!

"Assalamualaikum! Shuan! Where is the food you promised?! I'm so hungry!" Bang Chandra screaming.

"Mas, Bang Chandra's coming for-"

"Yes, I know, I read Wa you. Let me give it to you" said Mas Daffa, carrying a bushel and crackers.

Before Mas Daffa actually opened the door, he turned his body towards me. "Don't go outside, you just go into the room. Wait for Mas there," Mas Daffa's speech sounded more like a command.

I finally went into the room. I held my chest which was still pounding because of Mas Daffa's actions. I touch my lips slowly, the shadows of the incident in the kitchen are repeated.

The blush!

I imagined it myself, but I was ashamed of it myself.

....

"When will Mas get out of Shuan's room?" I asked Mas Daffa.

It was ten o'clock at night and Mas Daffa was still comfortably lying on my bed hugging me. It's nothing, I'm just afraid if Sister Annisa wakes up later there is no Mas Daffa next to her.

"After you go to sleep" he answered lightly. "You sleep. Or do you deliberately not sleep so that Mas Temenin continues hm?" Goda.

I throbbed, his firm hands hugging my body I pinched intentionally, "oh!" Mas Daffa grimaced.

"It's not serious, what if Annisa's sister wakes up and needs something?"

Mas Daffa sighed, "who said he also needed attention?" Mas Daffa looked at me as he put away the rambut boy that covered my eyes.

"S-shuan," I replied embarrassedly.

"You do have a habit of being considerate of others. Yesterday too, you were more concerned about Ranti than yourself. To the extent that you are injured," said Mas Daffa who sounded like Abi while scolding me.

"Wrong is it?" My toot.

"Not completely wrong, you are too kind and also careless."

I admit that my reckless nature is, "Shuan promises to be more careful, Mas."

A kiss from Mas Daffa on my forehead landed perfectly. I closed my eyes and realized how warm Mas Daffa's kiss was on my forehead.

"Mas also promises to take good care of you. Maybe I'm insensitive, so don't hesitate to show your feelings."

"Including feelings of jealousy?"

"Yes. Just plainly saying that Mas is jealous of Chandra." Mas Daffa then pinched my cheek, "you think Mas's kidding? I'm really jealous."

"Hehe, Shuan thought Mas wasn't serious. After all, Bang Chandra is Mas's own best friend."

"Although my best friend but not Shuan's mahram. Especially if you're ever gonna m-"

Chup!

I kissed Mas Daffa's cheek. Almost Mas Daffa brought up the past, I don't like Mas Daffa bringing it up again, "it's the past, Mas."

"Eh?" Mas Daffa's face looked surprised, "again dong!" I thought Mas Daffa would be angry because I didn't want to talk about the past, but instead he asked me to kiss him again.

"N-no ah! That wasn't intentional, "my dear.

Mas Daffa looked at me with a disappointed look, "Judah if you don't want to."

If I see the face of Mas Daffa who is moody like this I cannot bear. I hugged Mas Daffa's waist and smiled at him, "paint Al-Mulk's letter first yes. Shuan will love to kiss as much as Mas Daffa."

Surat Al-Mulk is a surah that reminds us of the grievous torment in hell. If we are manifestly shown the torments that we will get in hell then we should be in a race to improve ourselves, to do good. If we are still unconscious, our hearts are blinded by the world.

I love listening to these verses because they make me remember that tomorrow will come the day of vengeance. Where the world is no longer where we live.

Mas Daffa sang Surah-Al Mulk with melodious. I don't think he memorized the first verse until the last. In the middle of the verse I cried remembering the sins I had once committed.

I hugged Mas Daffa holding back the tears that had already fallen down my cheeks. Mas Daffa returned my embrace. While continuing to chant Surah Al-Mulk, he stroked my head slowly.

"Thank you" I said after Mas Daffa finished chanting Surah Al-Mulk to me.

"Honey together" said Mas Daffa. He hugged me tightly and invited me to sleep.

"In the meantime, Shuan has promised to give me a kiss."

Daffa smiled amusedly, "Not being loved is okay either. Sincerely. Mas Seneng can bacain you Surah Al-Mulk." Mas Daffa hugged my waist tighter and then he brought his face closer, "But if Shuan maksa yes Masa dolak windfall anyway? Aren't you?"

I lightly kissed Mas Daffa's right cheek, "Say I will. Daffa is so complicated!"

Mas Daffa laughed crisply, "haha kan Mas said No. If not more, no more."

I need a lot of courage to do this. Yes, I poked my hand against Mas Daffa's neck. I put my face closer to his, but I hesitated. I intend to clear the distance between us, but I retreat again. Staring into Mas Daffa's eyes closely made me tremble. Her eyes are beautiful, making me drift into her charms.

"If you want to kiss, then kiss me?" Mas Daffa whispered right in front of my face, "fear huh?" continued. Either he's taunting me or challenging me.

I'm pouting, "Fear? Who said?!" I drew closer to Mas Daffa's face. This time my lips almost touched Mas Daffa's lips, but I retreated again because my heart beat faster 3 times.

"Oh my God, Shuan!" Daffa was very anxious himself. With a quick movement Mas Daffa pulled me into his arms and kissed me right on my lips That's when I wanted to run away, but Mas Daffa held me tight. It seems he won't let me back down again.

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Holy, 19/03/2020