Waalaikumsalam the priest candidate
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Disappointed!
After hearing confessions from Daffa yesterday, I was really disappointed in him. My heart hurts, but don't know why it hurts?
I love Brother Daffa. But I did not become his second wife.
A polygamous man is obliged to share his birth and inner living with his wives fairly. I do not doubt that Daffa can be fair in terms of giving birth and inner living. It's just, I can't be sincere if my husband's love will be divided. Yes, this is my selfishness.
It is said that a man only has one special love for one woman. Like the Prophet Muhammad's love for Khadijah. That love will not be obtained by his other wives, except Khadijah.
"Astagfirullah, what am I really thinking?" Immediately I asked God for forgiveness.
"As a woman, I don't want to be cheated on. Brother Anissa must think so too." I'm monologuing.
"Did Sister Daffa ask permission from Anissa? Or did Brother Daffa just say, without any intention of making it happen?"
"Maybe it was just a whisper of shaitan that influenced Kak Daffa's heart to say it. Not from his heart, Lillahita'ala."
My bad prejudices are starting to take hold of my heart. Immediately I took ablution water and read the holy verse of the Qur'an. Verse after verse of the Qur'an I have fulfilled, until this restlessness has evaporated. It feels like this heart feels lighter and also not crowded.
"Shuan?" Bang Nabil opened my door slowly.
"Yes? Why Bang?" I took off my face and kept my Qur'an on my study table.
"Please make me drink my sweet brother dong" she told me.

(Bang Nabil aka Suho)
"If you want to be well," I sneered.
"This is not the brother who wants to. Ew! The cendol who wants to be made to drink the same prospective bidadari, he said anyway that."
"Cendol who the hell bang?"
"Chandra ak.a akang cendhol! It's a hunt! Chandra's hunt turns to ijo because of thirst."
"Don't exist!hihii." Really am! Bang Nabil can make anyone laugh because of this abstract joke.
I stepped into the kitchen, but Bang Nabil patted me on the shoulder.
"Shuan! Daffa said, now he is a temporary lecturer at your campus, you know," said Bang Nabil who told me about the news that I actually already knew it first.
"Know it." Answer cuek.
"That's cute. You usually get into Daffa trouble. Fighting again, huh?"
"No. Ordinary aja. I'm going to the kitchen. Bang Chandra's hunt turns to ijo!" There was no choice but to flee. I'm not in a good mood to discuss Sister Daffa.
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I prepared two cups of hot chocolate for two lovebirds who were playing Ps romantically, to the point that they screamed and almost threw Ps sticks.
"Please drink it, do not forget to go home Bang." Smoothen me.
"Abang the intention is to cepet-cepet go home. But this is Nabil! Force brother to play continue." Bang Chandra cornered Bang Nabil who didn't even know anything.
"Diddeliver! Who else is you Bro! If you want to go home, go home there." Bang Nabil immediately sewot. His hand pushed Bang Chandra's shoulder to get away from him. "Hus! Hush! Sana," drive out Bang Nabil.
"Judah I'm going home. Besides also not good virgin tamvan boy come home malem-alem." Bang Chandra's smile was on me, I just shook my head weakly then lowered my head.
Could there be a creation of God that narcissistic extraordinary like this?
"Yaudah went home without smiling at Shuan! Ntar adekku sawan." Bang Nabil has taken on the face of Bang Chandra.
Slowly Bang Chandra headed towards me. He put his hand on me. I understand, too, I do not understand the meaning of his movements.
"Do not want to salim first? The husband-to-be is going home." His smile was back up.
"What a bang!" Before Bang Chandra saw my face red with embarrassment, I immediately lowered my head while holding a smile.
"Eh uh uh! Can't you guys be-"
"He knows! Not a muhrim, right Bil? I just want to seduce Shuan doang. Look at his face like a strawberry, right?" Bang Chandra slightly lowered her body, her face looking down at my lowered face.
"Gee! Back home!" I screamed loudly.
"Goh!"
Bang Nabil immediately snapped the head of Bang Chandra. Finally my brother saved me from the recklessness of Bang Chandra. With a flat expression Bang Nabil dragged Bang Chandra home.
"Eh, uh don't pull dong's shirt!"
"Who told godain, and I mulu! Fuck up! Reverse home!" Thanks to the heroic actions of Bang Nabil, Bang Chandra can immediately go home and the situation at home becomes calmer.
Thank God my heart is beating quietly again.
Eh? Is this a sign that I'm starting to open my heart to Bang Chandra?
The line!
My phone's vibrating.
After Bang Nabil brought Bang Chandra out of the house, I hurried to clean up the Ps lying on the table. My eyes were on the drink that was still full.
"So ask to be made to drink, now the hot chocolate is not drunk," I said annoyed, "mubazir!" I also drink hot chocolate that I make myself.
The line!
My phone is back vibrating.
I lazily reached into my cell phone from my pants pocket.
The line!
And again, my phone is shaking. I wonder, who is so impatient? To the point of sending me so many lines.
"Surely Hasna," I guess. Then think of one more suspect in my mind. "Or maybe Bang Chandra? Ish just got home already sent me the line! Basic add!"
My emotions were not at the alert stage, which was to the point of emitting smoke from my nostrils and ears. My emotions are more like anger, but also pleasure and there is also shame, but annoyance.
What is this feeling? How strange.
After sitting on the sofa, I opened the line app.
@Sir Daffa: Assalamualaikum.
22:15
@Sir Daffa :Sorry to disturb you Shuan. I just wanted to apologize for this afternoon.
22:17
I forgot how to breathe through my nose. But I finally got back to breathing because my chest felt tight.
Why is Daffa talking about it again?
@Sir Daffa : Have you slept?
21:20
The three incoming line messages from Sister Daffa only I let. I have no intention at all to repay him. I don't want to play in the murky water. This feeling is still tacky, I want to put some distance with Brother Daffa.
For the good of everyone, Sister Daffa, Bang Chandra, Sister Annisa and me. Sure oes.
Not until I opened my bedroom door did my phone shake again.
The line!
@Sir Daffa: There's actually something you want to say. But it looks like you've been sleeping, huh Shuan?
21: 30
The line!
@Sir Daffa: Then good night, do not forget to pray before going to bed. Assalamualaikum says.
21:37
Waalaikumsalamwarahmatullah square...
Brucks.
My body collapsed on the bed. My face is already in the pillow. My heart was filled with cherry blossoms. Very happy, although the attention for me is very small. I don't know why I feel so lucky to get that attention.
But when I was happy, I was filled with guilt. I shouldn't even deserve to be happy now.
Where did my wish to stay away from Daffa?
Where did my common sense go?
Why does my heart always dominate my actions?
O Allah, O Lord, forgive me.
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After closing the shop, I leisurely walked towards the stop. The stars seem to be reuniting tonight. Many of them shine so beautifully. I don't know what they're talking about, they seem so happy.
Thank God, I thank the Creator who created the heavens and the earth with it. It was fortunate to be able to enjoy the night full of stars that He had created.
The line!
@Bang Chandra: Brother pick you up? Oh, that's otw.
18.55
@Shuann: Don't have to bang. Shuan wants to stop by the bookstore first.
18.57
@Bang Chandra: My brother's anther! Well yeah yeah? Free for you a ❤
18.59
A liver? Is Bang Chandra the wrong emoticon?
@Shuann: Don't bang, you can do it yourself.
19.01
@Bang Chandra: Yaudah. You're afraid you won't be comfortable if you force it.
19.05
Why is this elf-eared creature so sweet?
@Bang Chandra: Be careful on the bus. Wear your seat belt and don't forget! 😉
19.07
Eh?
@Shuann: Which bus has seat belts?
19.11
@Bang Chandra: Later the brother who bought you a seatbelt. Bisnya. The driver too!
19.13
@Bang Chandra: Eh no ding. Let Nabil be your driver. We both sit sweetly behind the wkwk.
19.15
@Shuann: Yes! Ntar Shuan said Bang Nabil.
19.18
@Bang Chandra: Dih Candidate wife who is a handyman anyway? Hm?
19.20
I don't know why my mind was 'Blank'. A thin smile was created on my lips, a strange beat was also not spared I felt.
@Shuann: That's ah. The bus is coming!
19.25
The bus is still not over. Hehe.
@Bang Chandra: Yes. Be careful ya Shuanku 💋
@Bang Chandra: Eh wrong emot. Can't kiss 😂. Fulfillment want this ❤
19.30
I laughed until my hands had to cover my open lips. Bang Chandra made my mood better. After yesterday my mood was not good, now thanks to Bang Chandra I can laugh.

(Sir Daffa aka Kyungsoo)
"What a sweet huh? Until I don't hear Brother's call."
My face looked up when someone approached me. Without any greeting or pleasantries, he immediately raised a question that confused me.
"Assynoltom... Repeat the greeting again. Greetings to me by calling Shuan's name but not hisut."
Oh so greetings already?
"Waalaikumsalam Kak Daffa. I'm sorry, Shuan didn't hear Brother's greetings" I regretted, "Sir Daffa what are you doing here?"
"You pick you up. Someone wants to meet you, Shuan."
"Who's Brother?"
"Annissan. He just came from Jakarta this morning. Already this morning he whines to meet you, Shuan."
Oh, so the intent of Kak Daffa's line last night turned out...
"Your sister's line all night, but it looks like you've been sleeping huh?"
Nah right?
I nodded slowly, "Yes my sister is asleep." My heart asks Allah for forgiveness for lying to Sister Daffa.
"Would you like to meet Annisa?"
No, but I don't know how to resist either.
"Yes, brother. Shuan wanted to, but, "my words were delayed when I was worried about being in the car alone with Daffa.
"You sit in the back, Shuan. You will not feel comfortable sitting in front. Is that what you're worried about?"
I admire agreeing to it.
"Come," said Daffa, opening the car door for me.
I finally got into Daffa's car. While I was in there I always looked down. Not daring to look forward or towards Sister Daffa.
Now I'm so full of the feeling of the market. Why does Annisa want to see me so much?
