VIOLENS

The Trick of the Heart

The trembling hand hinted that my body was terrified. My eyes looked out of the city from the roof of the school building, still with Aidan beside me. After his fight that caused a huge stir at school he seemed relaxed at this moment.

"Do you smoke?" I asked him to get upset.

I immediately picked up the cigarette he had stuck in his mouth, then wanted to throw it down. Aidan prevented my hand as he said,

"You crazy? how exactly do you throw that down that gym teacher?"

Slicing the cigarette in my hand and lighting it immediately.

"You really don't feel like it, huh,"

I said while turning my face with a straight forward view, then folding my hands over the roof barrier of the building while propping my chin on it.

"W-what?! I'm doing this again dizzy thinking you're too."

Sidan chirps after smoking a cigarette on the sidelines of her finger.

I looked at him, looking at him who was smoking illegally.

"Actually you fight the same King-"

"Ahh, don't want to talk."

His words interrupted my speech while exhaling his cigarette smoke towards me ignorant.

I snorted annoyed at Aidan's attitude towards me, then left him to get off the school roof remembering, lessons are still going on.

"Heyy! Where are you going?! don't try to get out."

His orders to me in a loud voice. Her words just stopped my steps and then turned to face her.

"Why indeed? I dare to.."

I said to Aidan and walked back to the door.

"Locked. HAHAHA,"

He said again while laughing at me, when the door did not open when I pulled the doorknob.

I approached him with a look of annoyance. My hand looked up to him hinting to give me the key.

"Why? what's up?"

He said innocently after stepping on the cigarette butt to kill it.

I advanced my steps towards him with my hands folded under my chest.

"You.. themed because I was upset with you this morning, right?"

I asked with sharp narrowed eyes to interrogate him.

Aidan pushed my forehead with his index finger.

"That's you. the spiciness of once,"

His voice was cold with a flat face looking at me lazily.

I smiled briefly after looking at her, then pulled the phone out of my skirt pocket.

"Hey, it's four o'clock!"

I was surprised to see the clock on my phone. My eyes looked at Aidan again seriously.

"What's? what else.."

He said when he received a look from me.

"True, we're in the backyard of the school's back roof, so don't know if the students have already disbanded school."

I said to myself and looked at Aidan again.

Aidan stepped closer to me, his two hands which he put into his pants pocket, adding to the cold impression. He continued to walk closer to me, making my steps backward limited because of the back that had been staring at the wall.

His face was deliberately subdued near my face, then he grabbed his nose while tilting his face trying to grab my lips. His eyes began to shut, the breath and smell of tobacco could be smelled and I felt clearly.

I gave a push in his chest, asking to stop this situation. Aidan held my hand perfectly, the other hand pulled my nape forward so that my lips were completely in contact with his.

I began to close my eyes helplessly, her lips warm and I admitted that.

My hands that were originally rebellious, now began to melt tightly grasping his clothes.

-*brak! brakk! brakk!

I was shocked and realized to immediately push Aidan's body. The atmosphere became awkward as we forcibly stopped the kiss because the locked door was knocked by someone from

inward. Our eyes looked at each other.

Aidan told me to keep quiet with the command of his hand. He walked towards the door to attach the key he took out of his uniform pocket. The door opened and a figure I recognized appeared.

"R-king..?"

I said from a distance in a stammering tone.

The king realized my existence. He came to me after shoving his torso at Aidan, who was still silent standing at the door.

I was unable to make a sound as I looked into her brown eyes that looked angry and desperate. Her plaintiff grabbed my wrist forcefully, then immediately walked up to the door to leave the roof.

I looked at Aidan's face as we passed by. Aidan looked confused as if he was going to be angry. I left him forcibly on the roof because of the King's pull.

I followed him down the stairs until he was on the 2nd floor, he did not speak to me in the least along the way. My wrist began to hurt from the pull of his axe. It's not like the King I know, I worry about him staring at his body from behind, which is still pulling me.

Suddenly he stopped his steps, then swung my hand to violently release it. I held my wrist while looking at him anxiously.

"You... Really stupid huh?!"

His impact on me with his clenched hand flailing down the wall of the classroom, looked like a frustrated person.

I was still silent in tears, not daring to answer her words. My hand, which was originally holding onto a painful wrist, now felt insignificant because my heart hurt more to see such emotions.

The king turned his head towards me, brushed his hair quickly and then grazed my shoulders firmly.

"Aware Tha.. please, have you forgotten what Mrs Ratih said yesterday? Aidan's trying to cheat your day."

He said desperately while shaking a little bit of my shoulder to look at my face which I subdued.

Tears were pouring down on my shoes. I understand, understand the words and facts that Mrs Ratih has said. However, my heart heavily accepted it, I couldn't stay away from Aidan even though I tried. I also cannot accept the love of the King now, even though I have tried. I cried confused, complicated feelings mixed up my heart. My body is limp, helpless.

"Hey. hey, don't cry Atha, I'm sorry,"

The king immediately hugged my body, He stroked my hair gently. It seemed like he was starting to feel guilty and much calmer at this moment.

No, this is not what I want the King to be, I don't want it to be like this. I immediately released a hug from her, then ran towards the classroom with tears still unraveling. I did not care about the King who seemed surprised and dumb to accept my actions just now.

I entered the classroom and saw scribbles on the table. Read it at random "*****, poor, don't know yourself, just die!, stupid-"

I immediately grabbed my bag and ran out of class. I wiped my tears after seeing the graffiti on the table with those hurtful words.

My hand reached into the cell phone in my trouser skirt, lit it up and stared at the clock that was stamped to my surprise.

"Wine! I'm almost late."

I said to myself, then rushed to run towards the school gate. No, today must not be forever terrible, I must arrive immediately and be able to receive my daily wage.

I saw a bus passing through my school gate. I immediately ran to the bus stop to get on the bus.

"Ahhhh! wait..!"

I said as I ran as fast as I could with my hands waving towards the bus.

"Ah. finally.."

I was relieved to get on the bus and pay. The bus driver smiled at me and lowered his head at a glance. I smiled back, then found an empty chair and immediately sat on it.

"There's still 20 minutes. Nice, calm down. everything's gonna be fine."

I muttered to myself to calm my heart while taking out the headset, then put it in my ear after I connected it to the phone. I played a song that would cheer me up this afternoon, before work. The road looks crowded with most luxury cars passing by. They seem to be the ones who just got home from work.

The thought that filled my mind with today's events made me come back anxious and agitated. But. Aidan's kisses filled my mind even more.

"Ahhhh!"

My words involuntarily made the people who were on the bus look at me. I stopped my hand hitting my mind.

"Sorry.sorry.I'm sorry,"

My words fell in shame at those who finished looking at me while bowing my head.

Jesus, stupid. What I just did. I said to myself with shame.

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