Triple L's

46 Eps. Every person

And what makes Jamal down even more is when he heard the information from the doctor about the state of Abah.

"The patient's condition is very severe. When we checked, his heart was already very weak. If the patient is a little tired, it will be fatal. Maybe all this time the patient never checks up to the hospital? Or, the patient did not tell anyone about his condition? It could be that all this time the patient is enduring the pain. And, the results of the examination, it is true that the patient's heart condition is very severe. I was brought here late, I don't know what will happen. But, you brought him here immediately, so it can be dealt with quickly." That is the doctor's answer.

How not to limp when Jamal hears it. All this time Abah looked fine. He never showed his pain in front of Jamal or Umi and Zahra. In fact, complaining is never. Really, Jamal was very surprised to hear that. Especially Umi, he looks very hit and shocked when he heard the news. Even Umi almost fainted. And of course, this situation increasingly makes Jamal feel guilty. Why he never realized his condition. Why he never paid attention to Abah. At the moment it was like there was no urge for him to do anything.

Still daydreaming after Jamal finished taking ablution water, to the point that he was surprised when his back was patted by someone. Looks like the person also wants to take ablution water. Jamal turned his head and looked at the man for a moment. He was confused and his current gaze was as if it was not here. In fact, Jamal left the faucet on. Then, the man leaned over and turned off the faucet. Jamal is still in a daze. Now the man was watching Jamal for a moment.

"Mas, from earlier I noticed, Mas was daydreaming continuously. What, is something going on?" ask him on Jamal who just keeps paying attention to the dead faucet.

Jamal flinched, suddenly he looked at the person who looked not too old. He's a man. Jamal looked at the man confused. "Ah, sorry .. I ...."

The father smiled a little. "I know that I have a problem. Perhaps, our current position is the same."

Jamal is confused, still trying to be aware of his daydream. "Yes? Mean Father?"

"This past week my son has been treated here. And, said the doctor his condition is getting weaker," he said softly while looking down.

"Ah, sorry ... If you may know, what son of you is sick?" ask Jamal carefully.

I was breathing heavily. "Since childhood my son has had problems with his heart, so what he does cannot be to his limit. But my son was very cheerful and very active. Especially now that he is still in fifth grade SD. He was so curious about the surroundings, he wanted to know things and try something. There was a lot he wanted to do, but his condition did not support him. One day my son suddenly fainted. I was shocked and scared when I heard the truth."

Jamal was silent listening. Meanwhile, the father continued his story.

"Until now I have not stopped praying for my son's recovery. He is my only child. I will do anything and will give anything to make him cheerful again like he used to be. My son's smile is everything to me and my wife. Although sometimes I wanted to cry every time I saw her expression talking to me, it hurt so much. It doesn't seem fair, why is my son suffering like this and why isn't it me who's suffering."

Now the father really could not hold back his tears. He wiped his tears and smiled at the force. "Now, I can only continue to pray for my son and try to keep him smiling. After hearing the state of my son who was getting weaker, I felt desperate because of it. But, do you know, Mas .. My son actually advised me, so that I do not feel sad and hopeless. My son just gave me the spirit, do not let me be sad about his condition. While he himself is going through a difficult time at his immature age. But, my son ... My son smiles every time he talks to me."

"Ah, sorry, I told you about my son. Sorry .. when Mas is also in trouble, but I instead .. forgive me, Mas," said the father apologized.

Jamal shook his head quickly. "No. It's okay, sir. I understand."

"But, who's sick, Mom?"

Jamal looks very lethargic. He took a long breath. "That I am sick. This morning my Abah was suddenly unconscious."

"I do not know Abah Mas, but I pray for the healing of Abah Mas. Hopefully, Mas and family are given fortitude. And, I'm sorry for Mas."

Jamal nodded with a smile and said, "Thank you, sir. Thanks for your attention, Father. Maybe what you say about us who have the same fate is true. Only difference, I can't do anything for my Abah. I haven't been able to give anything to Abah. The Son of the Father can say that to make the Father not to despair. As for me, I can't even do anything to make myself not to despair. I am actually ashamed of the father's son who can be optimistic for the circumstances of people around him."

"I know, sometimes I still can't accept myself."

Jamal smiled wryly. "Don't for others, for myself I still can't think like a father's son who is so optimistic and mature, considering the father's son who is still very small. Is this what makes me think otherwise? I myself do not understand myself. Weird, right?"

"Everyone has their own thoughts that can make him rise or vice versa that make him so fragile and desperate. No need to force yourself to lie. Just say what is in the heart, let out what can make us feel relieved. If we can, how about we try to accept ourselves first? Maybe it's a good start?"

Jamal saw the father, amazed. Then, Jamal smiled slightly while looking down. "Receive ourselves first? Is that really so?"

"For now, that's all I can do for my son. I try not to be pathetic in front of my child, so that my child does not grieve about my situation. If my child sees me like this, of course this will make my child suffer more. I don't want that until it happens. This might apply to you too, Mom. As much as possible do not show your sad face in front of Abah or others. Show your usual face, but you still do not forget the prayer for Abah. Who knows Abah you will not be sad because of his circumstances. So neither Abah nor Mas himself need feel guilty."

"Display the face ...."