Thunder on Earth Love

Don't Love Me?

Blowing wind and leaves are still busy dancing. The air is still very comfortable but not with the heart and soul of Shafa. His instincts were turbulent, though his heart trembled at Afif's revelation of love and proposal. But, he is still stuck with his memories with Fachri. His heart will never turn to another.

Az who had been behind Afif did not think that soon his best friend would propose to someone he loved.

The girl Afif loved was indeed very charming. His face was bright and set in a blue hijab.

"You don't know me yet, Afif. You made a decision too quickly" Shafa said. The hijab he wears dances to the rhythm of the wind. But the wind was unable to carry his heart away.

The views of Shafa and Afif collide. Highlight Afif's shady eyes increasingly make the girl before him wracked with dilemma.

"Therefore, let me know you. We live ta'aruf first," said Afif looking deeply at Shafa.

"I'm not a good woman Afif. I'm not who you think I am" said Shafa.

"But my heart is sure that you are an amazing woman. You are a good woman" Afif said without a doubt.

"If I'm not a good woman how? In a sense I am not a holy woman. What are you gonna do?"

Afif was flabbergasted by Shafa's words. Was the girl before him trying to subtly reject him?

"Anything you say will not change my intentions. I've been in love with you since we first met. I'm sure that you're a sholehah woman."

"If I am an *******, do you stick to your stance?" Shafa hoped that the man before him would give up.

But it turns out that Afif remained in his stance. "If******* that's you, I won't dispute that. Because I love with my heart, not just limited to one's holiness. I am sure of my heart. You are the right woman for me."

Shafa grew increasingly upset, how there was someone who loved him so much. They have only met twice. Should he be happy or flattered? But no, Shafa was getting sad. It's still Fachri. Only Fachri is.

"Don't love me. Don't love me! Please don't love me" Shafa said with hardened tears. He also stepped away. At first he looked at Az who was standing behind Afif. Until he really stepped his foot away.

Az himself was also astonished by Shafa's fleeting gaze. The tears and the look he had seen before. Az himself was astonished by his feelings that were raging. He remembered Clara. Shafa's gaze was the same as Clara's.

Az soon took control of himself. Afif is probably heartbroken right now. His love is unrequited.

"Are you okay, Fif?" Az patted his best friend's shoulder.

Afif heard saying Istighfar many times while rubbing his face rough. Then choose to sit in the place that was occupied by Shafa. Afif calms the mind while staring at the green scene in front of him. Az also sat down beside his best friend.

"Maybe Shafa has another reason for rejecting your proposal. Don't be so late in the disappointment of Fif! One day there will definitely be a woman who is much more right for you" Az said trying to encourage his best friend.

"I understand Az. But somehow my heart still feels pain even though I try to be sincere with the answer. I'm also an ordinary human Az. I turned out to be just a dhoif," said Afif with a straight look ahead without looking at Az.

The first love of a son of Kyai is unrequited. Afif's love should stop here. It hurts, but Afif has to accept the reality. For true love belongs only to the Khaliq. He is the love above all love.

Shafa returned home with tears still flowing. His soul is really tired. After entering the room he immediately drowned his face. She shed all her tears. Emotions that control his feelings. All this time he always tried hard without showing his tears.

*******

Samuel, who had finished his college hours, wanted to eat. He stopped by a place to eat. Arriving in Samuel looking for an empty place. But his gaze was fixed on the figure of the man who was eating alone at the table by the window.

Samuel looked at the man carefully. It seemed like he was familiar, slowly he walked up to the man. To ascertain his curiosity.

"Hi! Lo Aldi, right?" samuel asked who was standing next to the man.

"Yes right" said a man named Aldi. Then he looked at the face of the man who greeted him. "Samuel!" pekil Aldi's. He immediately hugged the man who turned out to be his best friend at High School.

"Where have you not told me so far? Play say so anyway," said Samuel yng already took a sitting position in front of Aldi.

Aldi smiled as he fed his mouth food which was only a bribe. "There was a little problem that time. Sorry I never told you!" he said after wiping his mouth with tissue.

"What is Al?"

"It's nothing, Sam, it's okay now. Why are you in this town?" tanya Aldi switched the conversation.

"Gue is studying here. Home of uncle and aunt. Elo himself?"

"Same. I'm also in college here."

"Lo has changed a lot now. They look calmer and more mature. Different from what used to be. Lo really became the new Aldiansyah Fauzul Azim" Samuel said

"What I used to look like is a urgency, yes" said Aldi while smiling.

"Not really! Do you know Al? When you suddenly say, Shafa is trying to find you. He's worried something's happening the same way you."

"Shafa?" Aldi frowned in wonder. He had no idea who Shafa Samuel meant.

"I mean Clara. He now goes by the name Shafa, the name given to his biological parents. If Clara was the name given by his adoptive parents. Long story."

"Is he still in Jakarta?"

"No Al, he's been living here for over two years and studying at University X."

"I went to college there, too, Sam. But I had a year off and only this month I came back."

"Lo never met Shafa?"

"I never met him. Maybe we are different faculties," said Aldi.

"Even if you meet him, you probably won't recognize him. Because now Shafa has changed he has hijab. Yeah, even though I never found him either."

Aldi was reminded of the figure of Shafa he met with Afif. That is the Shafa that Samuel means!

Samuel also showed me the photo that Thunder had sent. Because once and twice Shafa once showed me a portrait of his present self.

Aldi was surprised not to play. The Shafa that Samuel referred to was the same as the Shafa that he had seen. At that time, he felt something strange. It turned out that the girl was someone from her past.

"Do you know Al? Before I knew it, Shafa was hospitalized. Her maid said Shafa took the wrong medicine. And strangely enough, Fachri suddenly married her when she was unconscious. I and Anin felt that something was awkward. What are you hiding from us? Shafa also said that he had broken up from you at that time," said Samuel. He was still curious about what happened a few years ago.

Aldi was silent for a moment. Means Shafa hid what happened at the Club that night. Shafa must have been very depressed back then. And Fachri is instead responsible for what he did by marrying Shafa.

"Did Shafa have children?" ask Aldi curious. He was worried that Shafa would contain his seeds.

"I don't know."

Samuel's reply made Aldi a little relieved. "Then are Shafa and Fachri still together?" tanyanya.

"Now it's not Al. Fachri died a year later. That's what made Shafa hit and chose to isolate himself here. There's been a lot of things going on with Shafa all along. I salute him, he can take on a difficult life" Samuel tells me.

Aldi felt more guilty. Because of his actions, Shafa suffered until now. He felt to be the cause of the girl's troubles. Shafa tells Afif that he is no longer holy and rejects the proposal.

It turns out he was the cause of all that. How sinful Aldi was to Shafa.

Samuel ordered the food and told a long story. Aldi asked a lot about Shafa's life after his departure. He wanted to make up for his mistake. If he meets Shafa again, Aldi wants to apologize and will do anything to make up for his old mistakes.

****

The sun has been pushed west, soon night will drown dusk. Replacing the beauty of twilight with the beauty of the night view. But unexpectedly, a sudden cloudiness dominated the sky. All the stars are covered with dark clouds. Then began to fall raindrops with a cold peeling bone.

Shafa took a chair and sat in front of the window enjoying the increasingly violent rain.

The same thing was done by Guntur. The man was also enjoying the rain from behind the glass door of his room. Raindrops began to wet the glass in front of him. Slowly the dew blurred the glass. The finger of Thunder moved to write down the name of his puja girl.

Then he grabbed his phone and sent a message to the girl he had written his name.

In the rain

Let go of all the burdens in your soul

Close your eyes and feel

Rain is beautiful music

Channeling the coolness that reconciles the soul

Shafa grabbed the phone that was on the desk. He felt astonished. Why his friend always knew what he was feeling. Is the bond between her and him so strong?

He was a friend who always entertained him. Always give words that make his heart calm. Creating his own comfort in his heart.

Shafa opened the window and closed his eyes. The sound of the rain became the music of night. Enjoying every sweep of rain that hit his face. Let go of all the burdens of his mind. His heart turned to peace again. It was as if the rain had washed away his heart.

He closed the windows again, but not completely closed. There is still a gap that breathes cool air into Shafa's room. He also replied to the message he had received.

In the rain in February

Wash every sheet of heart that is stricken with grief

You're so glowing without me noticing

You taught me to play music in the rain that was getting whackier

You always understand every fret my soul

You're always present as solace

You always fill my emptiness

You're even a backrest without me asking

What is it with me, rain at night?

Can you ask him?

Who is he really?

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Sometimes what I write is reality. I have also rejected the proposal of a gentleman. Yes, you could say he was the perfect man. His religious knowledge is in. Long before we met I knew about him from others. Then one day we accidentally met. After the second meeting, he proposed to me. I feel unworthy of him. She was too perfect and I was just an ordinary woman with a million flaws. To feel so inappropriate with him.

The conversation of Shafa and Afif is a true story. Maybe you have a hard time believing that my story is like that. I told him that, if I was an*******, if he could accept me. In fact, he still wants to accept me. My heart was crying considering the incident. But I still refused it. I still can't accept him. Because I have a reason I can't tell anyone.

Sorry guys are curcol!

May you always be happy with your chosen choice!

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