THIRD PERSON

introductions

Space will only glance at the Moon which has the most shining light in the sky. Unfortunately I am only one of the billions of Stars in Space.

“I fell down and could not get up again, I drowned in a sea of deep wounds. I was lost and didn't know the way home. I'm without you, dust grains”

Slowly but surely I followed the chant of the song that played from behind the smartphone that I held. The song Dust Granules, it had been more than two years of being my constant companion when I was at the lowest point of my life.

The reason is simple, because the song is a representative of me right now. Life is like a dust, it has no definite purpose and direction. Just busy following the direction of the wind that continues to carry the dust flying around.

“No need to cry Ra, I'm here”

I looked at Willy with tears still clumping. Willy slowly and briefly rubbed my trembling shoulders, before finally focusing on the long road before us.

“Wil, thanks”

I stared into Willy's bead eyes that exuded an aura of serenity. He just nodded and showed his sweet smile in front of me. I then opened the windshield and stuck my head out, enjoying the breeze that hit my face.

My name is Namira Quinsha, most people I know always call me Mira. But not with Willy, my best friend always called me Raqun (Namira Quinsha) But somehow I was always happy if Willy called me that. In other words, I feel like I am a special person in her life.

Today I went back to visit Mama at the Bogor cemetery. After two years of struggling with grief I was finally able to get back up.

“Papa you still haven't come home?”

I glanced at Wiily at a glance, for some reason a simple question from her was able to make my life spirit instantly crumble.

“Papa already has his own happiness Wil. So for what Papa home”

“Sorry, I don't mean to say rich so”

“Casual a time, you kayak to who just said it. I'm Namira Quinsha, a man whose heart is as strong as steel”

I try to smile as sweetly as possible.

“We've had an old position, so don't lie to me, let alone your own feelings Ra”

I covered my face with my palms, as hard as I tried sincerely and let go of Papa's happiness with other women in fact my heart will never be able to accept all this reality. The fact that Papa now prefers to live with his new family and abandoned me.

Willy's car then pulled over, I strenuously looked up and looked at his face filled with the light of serenity. Unfortunately, my sadness has gone away.

“Cry Ra, I will always be here to remove your tears that fall”

I sighed softly and went back to gulping. My shoulders were shaking more and more along with the tears that were sliding down. I'm alone now without Mom and Dad. Without Mama who used to wake me up when I was lazy to wake up early, without Mama who chattered all day because I did not want to accompany her to the shopping center. And a year after Mama's departure, Papa also left me and built his new happiness.

“Ma.ma. I'm kan.gen same mom... Wil. Why God should take mom so fast”

I screamed stifled, and tried to bite my lips as hard as I could so I wouldn't scream. Now I have no one, I am alone in a world inhabited by billions of people.

“You are not alone Ra, you still have me here. And another one there is still a great aunt Gina who loves you”

“Mira, now no need to worry dear. Mira's not alone, there's still aunty. Let's just say Aunt is your substitute. Aunty will never leave a child as beautiful as you are alone. Don't be sad anymore, son. Now Mira has indeed lost Mama and Papa, but Aunt will try to be both figures for mira. Don't be sad again dear”

Her warm embrace at that moment was a little able to give a glimmer of hope to my life.

“You want to go home or go somewhere first?”

I wiped away the traces of tears that were still in the background, and looked back at Willy at a glance. Aunt Gina is not home, she has business in Bandung with other company employees.

“I want to timezone first”

Willy then smiled and put the seatbalt back on his body.

“Each princess Raqun”

I smiled at the joke, although the sadness was still clearly visible in the eye. I shook my head trying to cast all my happy shadows together with Mama and Papa first. I've come this far now, two years is not a short time for me to get up and get back to life. And with just one incident my defense was smashed. Now I really seriously want to get my life back together. Not to forget but because holding together memories will only lead to pain.

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“What do you want to play?”

I stopped walking and looked to the side exactly where Willy was now standing.

“Not yet Wil. I'm dizzy if it's already in place, if it was in the car I played it but after until I so want to play another”

I pointed at a large glass box filled with cute little dolls accompanied by a big claw on it. But, after seeing the other rides of the game I became unstable and could not choose.

“I want to wc first Ra, if there is anything directly contact me aja”

I formed a circle with my thumb and index finger. Afterwards Willy immediately rushed to leave me alone who was still confused to choose what game I would play first.

I walked through the timezone area myself. Now people will increasingly think I am a person who is single or precisely jones aka singles ngenest, jones, just imagine in an area that many of these couples I even walk alone without a partner. I exhaled before finally taking the phone out of the pocket of the pants I was using.

“Halo Wil, where are you, I want to go home”

“Iya I'm there now”

My call was unilaterally cut. I grumbled and grumbled while holding my phone. I just played a game of clawed dolls for three occasions and went home empty-handed. I felt cheated once, three times I tried and I didn't get any dolls at all. While waiting for Willy I tried to open my memories with my best friend in the mobile gallery. And suddenly my eyes went dark. I didn't faint and dizzy, but because of a hand that closed my eyes. From the smell I could guess it was Willy and sure enough when his hand managed to hold I turned around and a sweet smile from Willy instantly made me gulp slowly.

“Shock right?”

I don't know what I'm feeling right now, my heart is warming up, something is tickling inside my stomach. Willy's smile and handcuff made me feel like I wasn't on earth, like I was flying over a cloud. Tell me more but, what I believe from all the things I felt was because it was simple that I was in love with Willy, my own best friend.

#TBC