THE WORLD OF GHAIB

we talked to each other part 73

"i'm afraid jan, if anything happens to you. what else in this house is just the two of us. had the pulse you stopped for a moment. when your pulse stops I immediately panic and lay your body on the carpet to make sure your pulse is still beating. for the future do not get like this again, Jan, I am worried about you because I love Jan. I LOVE YOU." I LOVE YOU."

bajan only responds to the words of the risma by saying very slowly in the ears of the risma which is still covered by her white hijab.

"I LOVE YOU TO."

when he heard bajan say the word, the risma immediately regained its senses and quickly released his embrace from the body of bajan.so soon he ran towards the bathroom to take the ablution water back, because he felt his wudhunya was void after touching a man who was not his muhrim.

bajan did not chase the guesthouse while running towards the bathroom. he just waited for the guesthouse in the living room. long enough the guesthouse in the bathroom was heard splashing water like he was taking ablution water. after finishing taking ablution water, Risma then put back on her hijab and tidied up her clothes that were tangled due to hugging Bajan suddenly arrived.

risma opened the bathroom door with a very trembling hand.In her heart the risma said.

"can I just swipe my clothes? keep on why ya arrive bajan say the word I Love You To. setau I said it came out while answering the word I Love You. did I say the word first so bajan answer it? ah I should ask directly with bajan instead of me dizzy thinking."

full of questions that flashed through his mind, Risma walked towards the living room with a face down in embarrassment.he had a glance towards bajan.as he glanced at bajan, he glanced at bajan, at the same time bajan also glanced towards the risma.it made the body risma increasingly vibrate violently. Step by step he walked towards bajan. when it reached in front of bajan, he was, risma seera sat down with a face that was still bowed in shame. With trembling lips, Risma said.

"A...A.. I was able to suddenly hug you jan? what exactly happened to me?"

bajan did not immediately answer the question from risma. bajan again asked.

"sister remember the last time when?"

risma tried to recall the events she had just experienced after remembering the events she explained while staring slowly at Bajan.

"so I would have thought that you were still not moving at all. I had a panic because you are like that. I finally lay your body on this carpet. I also remember that your pulse had stopped for a moment, but allhamdullilah your pulse that arrived stopped earlier, I had thought you died jan. if you had died, then you died, could I have been in the thought of killing you. There were a few minutes I kept trying to wake you up jan. Last I remember that, you open your eyes. after that I immediately do not remember anything else until you hear me say I Love You To. how can you suddenly say the word?"

quickly and innocently, Bajan said, "I said so, because my sister mentioned the word I Love You first. There is no way I said such a word without cause."

risma was immediately surprised to hear Bajan's explanation.he felt unsure if he said that. because he was curious, Risma made sure to go back and ask.

"the hell jan? I said that word? I don't feel like I'm saying that word."

when listening to the recording played by Bajan, Risma was very surprised and could not say anything else.he could only close his mouth with his hands because he was very surprised.

after Bajan played the tape in its entirety, he then said.

"now brother to be honest with me. brother said like this using the subconscious. Or brother there is a sense of me?"

the heart of risma is increasingly pounding to hear the words that come out of the mouth of bajan.in his heart does have more love and affection for bajan as the opposite sex. but he did not dare to express his feelings, because he was too embarrassed to say that, but now that everything has been revealed, he said like that when his body was controlled by his subconscious. he could no longer lie to Bajan, with his face down and cheeks that suddenly turned red said to Bajan while nodding his head.

""yes, jan, I started to feel the same about you when I found out that you were studying in physics.I also really liked the attitude of authority that you have as the head of the KKN group. but I just feel that, fear you do not want to be the same I am only a woman from the village. whereas you are a man from a big city. finally I can only be silent. honestly I cooked all these foods just to get your attention, and one more thing, the purpose I told you to teach my sister was actually so I could get to know you further. but again I realize, if you come here to do devotion through KKN activities (real work college) and not KKN (marriage work college). I feel inferior jan, I feel, I'm ashamed of Jan, and only now everything is revealed. indeed this is a very fast time for me to fall in love. we just met yesterday and I can already feel the love of the opposite sex that I have never felt before.I'm sorry if I can't control my mind earlier. sorry I hugged you reflexively without me noticing."

bajan just smiled at Risma's honesty about the feelings she had towards him. then bajan looked into the eyes of the risma very deeply and after that he said.

"sister, I am deeply moved by the honesty and the feelings that you have expressed."

bajan slightly coughed as he said that while continuing his words.

"i knew that this happened very quickly and suddenly I could not avoid it and I also had to be honest with my brother when we first met at the village office gate, my blood has been rippling very strongly. Before this I never felt my blood flow very fast when I saw women. I actually already felt in love at first sight. before my sister felt this, I had felt a sense of belonging to my brother. Honestly, I am a playboy on campus, but the nature of my playboy suddenly disappeared after I met my brother. even before I went to my sister's house, I told Irwan that if I could get a sister, all the girls close to me right now I would leave them alone."

hearing that, Risma couldn't help but ask.

"they? you mean, if you're currently loving more than one woman at the same time?"

bajan waved his hand and said.

"i don't love them at all, because for me it has several levels.The first is like, like, where I can only feel like or interested in them because they have a very beautiful face for me. The second level is love, I try to accept the person as he is in his condition of advantages and disadvantages, and the third or the last level of affection, this affection comes after the feeling of love, love, where I will accept whatever the conditions are.all the advantages that exist in him or the shortcomings that are in his will I accept as they are. right now there's only one woman I really care about - my own mother, but."

bajan suddenly stopped his words, he could not tell the real events about who he was and who his family.Bajan has not wanted to tell his true identity as a single descendant of the kingdom. if Risma knows the current living conditions of Bajan, he is afraid that it will make the risma more inferior.he is afraid that risma can not accept the social status between himself and risma.