The Wannabe Me

Chapter One My Past is a Part of Me (Forever)

The warm sunlight penetrated the glass wall from the balcony to wake me up. As my vision was still blurry and blurry, I saw someone tidying up the window curtain of my penthouse.

"Auhh.glare once! Irene, do you intend to ruin my eyes?" Ketus.

"If I don't open all the curtains and let it all go dark, maybe big brother will think it's still night. Wake up, Princess Hollywood! It's eight o'clock! Yesterday I just finished shooting a new movie, but that doesn't mean today I can relax. I checked your schedule just now and today you have at least three places you should attend. One of them, fan meeting cast film Unforgetting You. So get up and get ready! I'll make breakfast for brother!" He said even more.

"Bas with you, Irene! I slept four hours tonight! I'm still really sleepy.

Give me fifteen more minutes to sleep!" I pleaded with my best friend and manager.

"Yes, already! But, only fifteen minutes, yes! Anyway, at half-nine, brother should have had breakfast! Okay, I'm out first!" He said as he walked out from behind that door.

I thought for a moment and realized something.

"Yeah...The irene! Then it's my time to get ready - just fifteen minutes! That's not enough!" I said as I got out of bed and ran to the bathroom.

After taking a shower, I went to the dress room to get dressed.

"Let's see, what can I wear today?" My speech.

I tried a lot of clothes and didn't find any that fit.

"I feel like all these clothes I've worn before. I can't go out in the same clothes! Can't!" My speech.

I grabbed a white T-shirt and long leggings and put them on my body. I went out and tried to find a housekeeper.

"Bi, is there anyone from my sponsor delivering clothes today?" I asked Aunt Amy, the housekeeper at my penthouse.

"Absolutely nothing, Miss!" Her speech.

"All right! Continue your work, Bi! Tonight please cook me some chicken soup, yeah! I haven't eaten it in a long time! Aunt's most delicious chicken soup in the world!" I'm excited.

"Good, Miss! Of course I'll make it for Miss!" He said with a smile.

"Assyc! Then I'll go see Irene first, yeah, Bi! Bye bye!" Saying while I'm gone.

I walked to the dinner table and saw him watching television.

"Irene, I don't know what clothes to wear because my sponsor hasn't delivered clothes for me yet." I said to her while tasting tiramisu on the dining table.

"Ohh, yes, I forgot to give this to you!" He said, giving me a box.

"What's this?" I said while opening the box.

"It looks like you're really focused on today's show!" I said as I glanced at the television show.

Apparently, he was watching a series of new films that I played and just aired this week.

"I never thought that Sister Vanetta would be as successful as she is now! I can see that your acting skills are getting better over time. I heard from the producer of the "Wonderwall of Love" movie series saying that the rating of the final movie is very high. Wow.I really admire you! I'm sure Sister Giselle will also be proud and happy with my sister's achievements to date!" He said with a bright smile.

"Ohh...really? Thanks for the compliment, Irene! But, of course if the one who plays that is Giselle, maybe that movie will be ten times more successful than me who plays it." I said a little sad.

"Sir Vanetta, what are you thinking? This is also the dream of big brother and now big brother has already managed to achieve it! Brother need not feel guilty for what happened to Sister Giselle. I'm sure he must be very happy in heaven to see Big Brother successfully achieve Big Brother's dream! Besides, it's also her dream to see you succeed in becoming a star!" He was trying to comfort me.

Irene gave her warm embrace to me. I don't know why he's still with me until now. In fact, we used to only agree to continue together until I debuted as a star. But, this has already entered my third year since I debuted as an actress. Even so, I feel good about having her beside me because little by little I can treat the wounds that I have been wanting to forget. To be honest, I felt very evil because my actions were like restraining her to stay by my side. Maybe one day I will try to let him go because he also must have a dream that he wants to achieve.

As we hugged, he then regained consciousness and immediately stared at the phone screen.

"Ware, Brother! It's eight in forty minutes now! Hurry up for breakfast and get dressed! If the makeup is later on location only! I'll call the driver to get the car ready! Hurry up, yeah, brother!" He was in a hurry - gesa.

"Look down, Irene! After all, the show will only start when I'm present!" I relax.

"It's not good to keep people waiting, brother! Your fans must have waited before you even woke up! Go, hurry!" He said while pushing me who was still sipping my melon juice.

"Yes, yes, I'll be quick! You just go call the driver there, you Bawel!" My speech.

"Okay, I'll go first!" Reply while going to call.

I also rushed over my breakfast and went straight to the room to change clothes. I took the time to dress up a little so that my eyes are not too visible. Fearful of journalists running around and photographing me with no makeup at all then post it into news that damaged my image as the owner of a face that always glows. Of course it can't be until it happens. I patted the powder on my face thinly and then put on a pink lip gloss to moisturize my lips. After everything was ready, I rushed out of the room and headed to the elevator to get off. When I was just about to press the elevator button, straight out Mr. Marion from the private elevator that connects my penthouse with the ground floor of this hotel. Mr. Marion as the manager of the Vanette Suite Hotel, as usual, he will give his weekly report on the development of business in this hotel as well as asking for my signature as the owner of this hotel. During my acting career, I also invested in several business fields. Originally, I started a business by creating a beauty spa and then making a restaurant and now a very famous five-star hotel in Los Angeles. I work very hard and also meticulous in running all my business on the sidelines of my busy life in front of the big screen. In fact, I built a penthouse on top of this hotel so that I could monitor this effort properly. If you think - think this is indeed a very glorious achievement in the span of three years.

Mr. Marion greeted me and gave me his report.

"Good morning, Miss! I'd like to give you a weekly report and ask for Miss's signature for this Saturday hotel event! Please read it first!" He said while giving a draft income and approval sheet of hotel events that are always held every week.

I read it in its entirety and signed it right away.

"All right, Mr. Marion! You really worked hard this end! I really appreciate it! Thank you for your hard work, Mr. Marion! I must leave immediately because there is a schedule today! I'm trusting this hotel to you, yeah!" I said as I gave the draft and got into the elevator.

"Good, Miss! Hope everything is good for you today Miss!" He said while saluting.

I just waved at him and the elevator door closed tightly. Inside the elevator, I momentarily saw my reflection reflected off the wall of the elevator made from the mirror. Every day, I think about all my struggles to this day. I managed to leave my past and now succeed with my dreams. I realized, the present me certainly does not exist without the former me. So, no matter how heavy I felt in the past, it is still and will continue to be a part of me even if I try to remove it. In my deepest heart, I just hope that it will all become a memory and a driving machine for me to step forward. That's all I want!

"I am now very different from my former self and therefore I am satisfied, but without my former self, I cannot be who I am now. My old self is a part of me now and forever."

--- Vanette (Life 23 Years) ---