
"Kill who Fel is?" Barbara didn't expect Felix's past to be like that.
"I." Felix answered briefly.
"Huh?" Barbara was shocked and got up from the position of the bed to sit down.
"I'm crazy, right? Even my parents and brother died in my hands.
"You must have your reasons, right?" Barbara didn't want to be like most people who would blame Felix right away.
"Hem." Felix nodded slightly.
"You want a story?" Barbara asked gently.
Felix patted her supine arm for Barbara to lay her arm as a pillow. Barbara obey.
The Flashback
When Felix was twelve.
"Ma, I'm going first." Papa Felix yelling.
"Where are you going? Would you like to see that cheap girl again?" Mama Felix also raised her voice and approached her husband.
"hey are. I'm bored with you." Papa Felix pointed at his wife's face.
"You're bored with me. But I can even get better than you." Mama Felix said arrogantly while crossing her arms around her chest.
Papa Felix leaves his wife and Felix.
Mama and Papa Felix are both cheating men, even they do it blatantly sometimes in front of Felix.
"Mama accompany Felix." Little Felix asked, his hand clasping a knife hidden behind his back. His gaze was empty. She knew her mom would come out and see her affair again.
"Oh, you also used to play by yourself. Mama wants to find some fun first." Mama Felix refused and was about to leave.
Jleb jleb jleb
Felix thrust three times the knife he held right on his Mama's back, making Mama's fall instantly and blood rushing from the marks.
Felix sat next to his mother who was already soaked with blood while smiling cynically.
"Eat him Ma, don't be mean to Fel." Felix seemed to be talking to his lifeless father Mama.
Felix sat and did not move from that place all day until night. His gaze was always fixed on his lifeless Mama's body.
"Oh my God, Felix what are you doing?" Papa Felix who had just come home and saw his wife was drenched in blood while his son smiled sinisterly and clasped tightly the bloodstained knife in his hand.
"Dear, beautiful mother." Felix pointed at his lifeless mother.
Jleb jleb jleb
Felix again thrust the knife he held on his Papa's back as his Papa crouched down to lift his lifeless Mama's body.
"Fel ix, a pa are you sick of uin?" Papa Felix asked stammeredly in pain.
"What time can't stand it?" Little Felix laughed but tucked away the pain from his laughter.
His first murder victim was his parents, and he was only twelve years old.
Flashback Off
"Keep your brother?" Barbara asked enthusiastically.
"He was not intentionally killed." Felix replied with a flat voice holding back the veil.
"Can't you?" Barbara asked again and put her hand over Felix's stomach.
"On that day when I was fifteen, I killed again and got caught with my sister. Brother wants me to stop but I'm dark in the eyes and kill you too." Felix told me of enduring the pain in his heart.
"My brother's the only one who cares about me and always takes care of me." Felix again said, his tears flowing from the corner of his eye.
Barbara saw that, then rose from her position to lying on her stomach.
Cup
Barbara let out a tear from the corner of Felix's eye.
"Fel, will you share with me from now on? It doesn't matter if it's pain, sadness, or anger, will it?" Barbara asked sincerely and looked deeply into Felix's sharp eyes.
"You should be afraid of me like the others." Felix tries to deny the fact that Barbara is the only woman who is not afraid of him.
"I'm not afraid of Fel. Ye know? everyone has a reason to do something. The evidence is you. You killed your Papa Mama because of the pain that had piled up and did not know how to reveal it, continue not given the opportunity also." Barbara spoke from Felix's point of view and it managed to leave Felix touched.
"You know Fel? What you need is actually someone who is sincere and ready to hear your every pain and sorrow." Barbara said sincerely, if this is how Felix might not melt.
"Betting Bar." Felix said sincerely.
The first time in his life Felix thanked her and Barbara received her.
"Udah. Anyway you remember. I will always be there for you from now on. You want me to be the place to vent your anger and I'm ready." Barbara got up from her position to sit down and pulled Felix's hand to get up and sit down.
"Good boys can't cry." Barbara wiped Felix's tears.
"I'm the Bar killer. And that's been my hobby." Felix said but his tone sounded self-blame.
"I'm not going to ban you Fel. But you must remember I am for you when you are tired. Regardless of our contract, I'm there for you." Barbara calms Felix down.
Felix was really comfortable when Barbara was like this.
"Fel, I don't agree that you forbid I say I love you with you. That's love." Barbara protested in light of the terms Felix proposed her contract.
"But I hate that word. That word was always Mama Papa I said time again playing with their affair." Felix defended himself.
"Fel, change your perspective from now on. There are still many good and sincere meanings of the word. Not just representing lust." Barbara grabbed Felix by the hand.
"Udah. Don't remember the past anymore. No one has no past Fel. But how do we get up and get out of that slump?" Barbara keeps strengthening Felix.
Barbara realized Felix became like it was not her wish, but because of her pain that was never heard.
"Fel, I'm hungry." Barbara whining.
Felix who was staring at Barbara with a gentle gaze immediately felt the hot embers on his head.
Barbara's change in emotions from being calming to suddenly irritating was even faster than the change in emotions of a psychopath like her.
"What do you want to eat?" Felix asked annoyedly and got up from his bed and walked out of his room.
Felix felt himself elevated to the highest level and then immediately thrown on a riveted wood.
"Haha don't sulk Fel." Barbara's after Felix.
Felix did not respond and continued walking.
"I wasn't kidding." Barbara hugged Felix from behind but Felix kept walking until Barbara also had to walk while hugging him.
The servants and bodyguards who saw Barbara's bravery were amazed, not expecting any women who dared to even act spoiled to their Master.
"What do you want to eat?" Felix asked when they were in the kitchen. He turned around and hugged Barbara from the front while stroking her back hair.
The servants and guards were surprised to see Felix's sweet attitude, wanting to die on the spot.
"Salad vegetables. I must keep the portion of the meal so that my body remains ideal, right? Let's not be shy you fit into a model later. Haha." Barbara laughed a little. He put his ear to Felix's chest.
"Eh, you have a heart too?" Barbara asked without morals when she heard Felix's rapid heartbeat.
"You think I'm a corpse?" Felix got upset and took off his arms and turned around and walked to the fridge and picked up a vegetable suitable for making a vegetable salad for Barbara.
"Thank you Felix." Barbara peeked at Felix's cheek briefly and successfully made Felix's smile expand.
For the first time in Felix's life, someone thanked him.
"You're mine Bar." Inner Felix in heart.
Felix also painstakingly made a vegetable salad for Barbara as her dinner, because it was already night so fun they told her last.
Felix is in love yet?
...~ To Be Continue ~...
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