the toughness of the eldest daughter

a Sister

My father and mother lived well as usual in the morning working his afternoon we gathered but my mother still can not work and can only take care of me and the house...

his possessive attitude still continues and his jealousy also never fade my mother still can not talk with

laiki-other man.

The next few days my mother's brother would hold a ceremony alms ritin study every month but this time it was my mother's sister's turn who got her turn, and my mother was going to help but without saying her permission my father because my father hadn't come home for lunch and we went to his sister's house, once there I played and my mother helped prepare for the lecture after the end of the night we were at the same home with her brother-in-law husband my mother's sister.

when we were at home my mom thought that my dad hadn't come home when mom wanted to change clothes she was shocked because my dad had brought all his clothes in the closet with no rest, my mom was confused as to what that meant.

The next day my mother went to my father's house and wanted to ask her the problem, I followed my mother's footsteps we walked from jaya faithful to tanjung gedang,once there my father was not there we stopped by first at his mother-in-law's house my mother was my grandmother..my mother told me about yesterday's incident and my family can only advise her and will advise my father who is so possessive.

When mom and dad met they asked each other questions and my dad said he wanted to separate.My mom said that she was pregnant and dad asked to abort the pregnancy but my mom refused it "let me lose a man rather than sin for killing an innocent baby" my mother said.

My father insisted and every chance he gave the herbs to abort my mother's womb but allhamdulillah god still gives strength to the mother and her baby despite drinking it but the baby is still healthy,,my mother was forced to stay and separate again with my father because he could not stand the attitude of my father who did not want a child, my sister.

I was so innocent that I told my mother if mom and dad were separated again..I was 3.5 years old but I understood it because at the age of one year I was talking passively and walking so many things I already knew even though it was not time I knew the age of a child.

for so long we lived without my father and mother, her stomach was already big...whether Than heard our prayers my father came back home and brought my mother back and my mother because a few more months want to give birth and also need help then my mother wants to re-refer and marry again because they divorced 3 times and we stayed at my father's house.

as usual I was spoiled by my father in bathing eat at my father's bribe, and my father changed a little better than yesterday was more concerned until that afternoon my mother screamed because of the contractions might be about to give birth and my father swiftly went to call a child shaman who was not so away from my father's house, I was asked to play outside the house to play tanoa cooking I realized my father's house was rame who came was a member of our family.

Right on SATURDAY 19-FEBRUARY-2000 at 12:00 I heard my sister's cry and I rushed in to see her but I was forbidden to kiss and hold her because I was dirty and scared, and,, soon I saw my father serving my sister after that I asked my father to bathe me because I wanted to kiss my red sister.

my sister's name is KARMILA bint ABDUL KADIR...

we were born in the same house of different shamans and we were siblings.