The Sound of Tears

the presence I was waiting for

In the morning the atmosphere in the city of Padang looks bright, the sun slowly begins to warm the capital of West Sumatra province. Fresh air and the sound of birds singing unpretentiously, adding to its natural beauty. The green expanse of the rice fields and garden area keeps the cool of every eye that looks at it.

Today feels different from the previous day, now I am back living alone in the old house of Siti's mother. Since the internship was over two days ago Karina immediately left for her hometown in Riau area there, while Eren was also on vacation with his family to the opposite island. Meanwhile my mom and dad are back in their routine in Jakarta City.

Now here there is only me with the tv sound that I deliberately turn on to drive away the silence at this time. Sipping a cup of coffee and a loaf of bread that had been smeared with chocolate jam, I turned my gaze to the expanse of the rice field area that was beginning to appear yellow.

Instantly I thought about what happened a few years ago, when Hendrick's brother first came to this house, delivering food at once introduced her and over time until our current relationship has changed from just getting to know to getting engaged.

Yes, my current status is indeed as Hendrick's fiancee, but the more days the feeling that was once present in the heart, now feels bland. The last time we met was at the beginning of my departure for an apprenticeship to the city of Padang. Next it can be said that there is no more communication between us.

'Henry, how could you do this to me, what do you think my heart is? you come only when you need it, are you so busy with your work? until your time is no longer there for me, what are you doing right now, brother? whereabouts? same who? do you remember the status of our relationship?' my inner screams were overrun with a thousand questions.

Shortly afterwards, a knocking on the door.

GECK... TOK ... GECK...

"who?" I immediately got up from my seat to the front room.

GECK... GECK... GECK...

again there was a knock on the door.

"yes wait a minute" I said speeding up the door opening motion.

'who the hell? asked quietly, not very patient' murmured me without putting the slightest suspicion.

When the door opened, it turned out...

"Sir Hendrick" I cried, not believing the arrival of someone who had poisoned my mind.

"hello honey, how are you?" said that handsome young man who was dressed neatly.

"sister Hendrick? is this really you? or just a hallucination?" add me while pinching the wrist and..

"Aww.. sick" turns out this is not a dream...

"why are you Shel?"

"oh.eh. eng.kok why-why kok kak, tu. tumben here" I said stammering.

"why darling?"

"mmm.. shame at being seen by people"

"that's it, can I come in?"

"maybe, please come in.sister Hendrick wait here aja yes, Shella make a drink for a while" I said immediately passed to the kitchen.

soon a cup of coffee and a few snacks were available on the living room table. I still don't believe what I'm seeing right now, probably because I haven't had communication in a long time, so this kind of atmosphere feels awkward to me.

'oh my god, why am I so groggy gini' my inner cry.

"Please drink the coffee, brother"

"thank you dear" replied Hendrick immediately sipping the coffee, then put it back on the table.

"by the way, where's your good-natured friend?" ask Hendrick.

"who? Cici, Eren or Karina"

"that's your college friend who's one major"

"oh, Karina.he has returned to Riau kak, but there is still time off from internship" said I.

"oh so"

"why did you say your friend was kind? meaning?"

"so here it is." then Hendrick told me how it happened when I was about to go to the internship, so Karina was the one who had planned our departure, the plane ticket to the meeting between me and Hendrick's brother, so it was Karina who had been planning our departure, the plane ticket to the meeting between me and Hendrick's sister, and a bucket of flowers from my fiancee.

"Shella.. I miss you, sorry that I rarely contact you, because I have been busy taking care of all the work in the office, yes.. you know papi has given me confidence to take care of one of his companies, and I have to try to keep the name of the company soaring, all this I do hopefully I can make you happy someday, he said, make my little family and our children happy" Hendrick said at length, holding my hand tightly.

I looked into the eyes of the young man before me, I still did not believe what he said.On the one hand there was guilt in me for thinking badly about my future husband.

Tuk Tuk...

there was a message coming in from the cell phone that I accidentally put on the tv table.